Darthvader17: to everyone. Thanks for reviewing! Anyway, a reader got curious about that scene where Tamaki and Tsunade were talking. Supposed to be, Tsunade is another character in the story who has the same age as Tamaki. She has this purpose there. I used the name Tsunade coz I can't find any more names and someone got disturbed because of this. So instead of using Tsunade, I'll just use the name Éclair coz in the anime, she had a crush on Tamaki and Haruhi was sort of jealous at her, right? But anyway, thanks a lot lulu halulu! Because of your comment, I decided to change Tsunade to Éclair and it adds a great impact on the story, I think. Anyways, hope you'll like the changes.

Summary: in the previous chapter, Haruhi wanted to know if she and Tamaki have a problem. Her plucked up courage to talk to Tamaki face to face was lost when she saw Tamaki and Éclair talking, completely alone. Her unknown feelings for Tamaki was revealed and her friends were right all along that Haruhi likes Tamaki, although she's not aware of it until Tamaki was with some girl.

Now that the horrible truth is out, what will be Haruhi's next move? Will she still pursue her mission now that she found out about her feelings for Tamaki?

Chapter 13 – less Haruhi

Why in the world do I feel like this? I thought it was clear as crystal that I, Haruhi Fujioka, don't have any feelings for Tamaki Suoh. But how come I cried? How come when I saw him with that rich girl, Éclair Tonnerre, I just felt jealous and hopeless? Like my happiness was sucked out? Like I was just with one of those dementors in Azkaban in the Harry Potter book? How come he greatly affected me like this? Could I really like him? Aaaah! I just hate this! I'm so confused!

Haruhi was curled up in her bed, distressed with what she saw at school a while ago, where her tears just came out, leaving her confused and wounded. It was obvious that she likes Tamaki, as what her friends said, but the secret will be kept as a secret. No other soul knows about this except Haruhi and her friends. They were still shocked and they can't get over at what happened.

So that's why I'm just so keyed up when he's around. I didn't know that I already liked him at that time. Haruhi thought while wiping the wet thing on her face. But, is such liking possible? I mean, could you love a person without knowing it? Yes, it is possible. Haruhi has seen this kind of love in different forms. Oh my. I do love Tamaki. I love Tamaki.

How come I can say this?

There were just a lot or evidences showing that Haruhi loves Tamaki and Haruhi can't deny the ghastly fact that she's in love.

I'm in love with a guy who is ignoring me in the present. I got hurt when I saw him with that Éclair girl then I just cried there. Ugh! I just can't believe this.

So, how about that Tamaki-ignoring-me-coz-he-thinks-that-I-have-a-crush-on-him-which-is-apparently-true mission? Should I talk to him?

Haruhi thought about walking up to Tamaki to ask for a private conversation. If she'll do it, then, her bugging questions will be answered.

I think I'll just have cold feet when I'm in front of him. And besides, talking to him makes me feel awkward, now that I know that I like him.

Haruhi made up her mind.

But if the price of not talking to him is going-to-have- sleepless- nights, then, I'll talk to him. I'd rather melt into a gooey puddle than look like a desperate zombie.

Next day, Haruhi struggled all her might acting like she didn't cry like a hopeless girl in-love. Her friends acted the same way and even stopped teasing her for her benefit. Also, Haruhi asked a favor that on that day, they will help her on how she was going to talk to Tamaki without giving Tamaki a hint about Haruhi's top secret revelation.

Haruhi planned that she would have that talk with Tamaki after their dismissal. She listened to all of her friends' advices but instead of helping her, Haruhi felt much worse. She was having second thoughts about her attempt.

"But this is your chance! Don't waste it!" her friends would tell her.

"Easy for you to say." She mumbled to them.

At last, the dreaded hour came. It seems that the surroundings were getting along with Haruhi's mood. The sky was filled with thick clouds and there was no glint of blue in the sky. Haruhi was trapped in her cloud of confounded thoughts about this "suicide mission".

I hope I won't collapse when I start talking to him. It was all that Haruhi wished.

Haruhi went looking for Tamaki and she saw him inside their classroom, doing his homework. Tamaki was not alone. There were Naruto and Shikamaru playing chess.

"Hey, if you wanna head home now, you can go ahed. I'll follow." Haruhi heard Tamaki say to his friends.

"No problem man." Naruto replied

"Okay. Come on Naruto. I just saw a new ramen shop outside school."

Naruto and Shikamaru returned the chess set then stood up to leave. Not giving out suspicions on she was doing there, Haruhi went to hide behind a wall near their classroom.

As soon as Tamaki's friends were out of sight, Haruhi went inside their classroom.

Tamaki looked up and saw Haruhi walking towards him.

Calm down Haruhi, eventhough this is a suicide mission. It's going to be over soon.

Haruhi sat down beside Tamaki. Tamaki went back to his homework.

There was silence.

Haruhi broke it by coughing. Tamaki looked up at her.

"Can I help you?"

"Well, " Haruhi started. Don't collapse now Haruhi. This is it. "I uh. I wanted to talk."

"I think I know where this is going." Tamaki replied.

That caught Haruhi off guard and she went pale. What the hell does he know?

"You're going to ask why I'm avoiding you, right?"

Haruhi stopped dead. If she was pale a while ago, she was as pale as a vampire now.

"R-r-r-right."

For what seemed liked ages, they were quiet and they held each others gaze. Haruhi was afraid that she will go into shock but thankfully, Tamaki broke the silence.

"Please Haruhi." Tamaki began. "I just don't want any more commotions. Just forget all the things between us. I hope you understand. Just pretend I'm not there. Just forget about me. Go on with your life like nothing happened. So that we won't end up suffering."

Haruhi could not believe her ears. She thought she was going into a coma. Like she's having one of those nightmares where she keeps thinking that they are not going to be real but in the end, they'll be. Was it really true? Did all of those words come out from Tamaki?

At least, this will help me getting over with it.

But there was still a glitch.

It's a stupid feeling when you are so desperate to ask a simple question, yet your heart is so damn scared to know the answer.

"Tamaki." Haruhi said, finally snapping out. "Is there something going on between you and Éclair?"

Tamaki went silent then. "Just remember what I told you."

Tamaki left Haruhi in smithereens.

After one week, Haruhi went to the salon and asked for a haircut.

Just forget about me. Go on with your life like nothing happened. So that we won't end up suffering.