Darthvader17: I wish I could punch Tamaki. He's just so bad. Also, did you notice that Haruhi's friends are all bad-news messengers?
Summary: Haruhi's mind never changed when she found out that there was nothing going on between Tamaki and Éclair. It seems that that same fact won't ever change. not anymore. since one thing she fears most will finally come.
chapter 15 – kanoya
Christmas was finally in the air. The students were excited for the upcoming Christmas party and also the holidays. Who wouldn't want the holidays? It's a good rest from all the world-weariness of school stuff. Also, it would be a good time for one person to forget a particular person.
Despite the reality that Haruhi won't ever forget about what Tamaki told her, for Haruhi, the holidays will be an excellent break to help her forget about Tamaki. Of course, she was still so in love with him that's why she tried her best to forget him. She did not realize that it would be this excruciating to be in love with a person who wants you to think of him as if he did not exist.
Haruhi accepted what Tamaki told her that the two of them should not be friends anymore. She was still wondering why and it still bothers her at night.
I wish I knew why he said that.
Maybe he was suffering too? Haruhi thought but it was so unlikely.
He can't fall in love with me.
But it could be.
No way he likes me. Maybe Ino was right. Maybe he just doesn't want any people teasing us.
But why?
Not enough evidence can be seen but then, Haruhi bumped on a thought. A thought that she feared a lot. A fear that might turn into reality.
Maybe someone caught his eyes and he doesn't want me to intervene or something?
But that is not something I would do!!
Haruhi's never-ending bugging questions raged on…
Haruhi thought she had seen the worst of being in this life. She can't avoid those things and she wants to accept them. She tried hard by sticking with her usual going to home early and being such a nerd that she makes her homework at school, so as to keep her mind off of him.
"Haruhi, are you okay?"
Haruhi heard Sakura ask her and she just nodded.
"I know about what Ino told you." Sakura started. "I think it's true. Maybe he was indeed, asking for advice."
Haruhi pretended to be busy but was all ears to Sakura.
"I can say such thing since I heard rumors about Tamaki having a crush on Kanoya."
Haruhi stopped midstream. She was going about her nightmares again, especially the one that she feared most.
Kanoya Megumi. That intelligent girl from the other class?
"K-Kanoya Megumi?" Haruhi asked completely sidetracked from what she was doing.
"Yeah." Sakura replied. "They seem to be in good terms. Well, I would say there's more than that. Hey. You're okay with that, right?"
No.
Haruhi looked at her friend. "Y-Yeah. I-I mean, why won't I be?"
It was worse than hearing about Tamaki and Éclair. It was worse than having a flunked grade in Math. It was the worse of all.
Just as what I feared.
"Sakura, Temari wants to see you."
Sakura heard Rukia talking to her. She patted Haruhi's back. "Bye. See ya later."
Haruhi was walking home while thinking about all the things that she has been experiencing for the past few days.
While she was walking, she heard her classmates talking in hushed voices.
"You heard about Tamaki and Kanoya, right?" a girl asked.
Haruhi was silent while listening to them.
"Yeah I did." The other girl replied.
"Well, don't they look good together? And they seem to understand each other!"
"Hell yeah! Boy, Tamaki sure is one lucky guy."
"Yup. Tamaki is a lucky guy. Kanoya is intelligent, bighearted and most of all, she's pretty!"
"She's everything a girl dreams to be."
The girls stopped when they saw Haruhi.
"Hi Haruhi!"
Haruhi nodded to them. "Going home?" she asked them.
"Yeah." The girls answered in chorus. "We'll just go on Haruhi. See you tomorrow!"
"Yeah." Haruhi said, keeping it normal. "Bye."
As soon as her classmates waved goodbye, she got busy with what she just heard.
They look good together.
She's everything a girl dreams to be.
Haruhi would rather have herself ripped to pieces than hearing this throbbing talk. It was the worst time in her life.
The very worst.
Haruhi now had an idea of all the weird things that has been going on. Like her, Tamaki was also in love with someone. Someone besides her. Someone who was way too better than her.
Someone worth for him.
Kanoya Megumi.
The name itself sounded perfect. She knew Kanoya as the honor student. Always the good one. Maybe good is the wrong term.
She's perfect. She thought sadly. Tamaki really is into Kanoya.
No wonder he's been acting weird.
No wonder he asked for advice.
No wonder he wants me to avoid him… so as not to disturb his good timing.
Haruhi wished for death more than anything else
This wasn't the best Christmas gift that I expected.