AN: You people are amazing. I got 25 reviews for last chapter alone. It makes me feel incredible, so thank you. You shall not have to wait any longer for this update.

I went to see New Moon at Midnight! It was AMAZING! It was billions of times better than Twilight was. Twilight didn't stay true to the book and New Moon did. I am beyond pleased with the way they did the Volturi. I lurve Aro's facial expressions. AMAZING. It makes me very happy with the new director. If you haven't already seen the movie, get your ticket!

That night, I slept, and I slept hard, thankful to my brain for putting me under, finally.

Edward's lips weren't only talking as I watched them this time. They were kissing me. This dream was special somehow. I got a feeling about it, but I didn't know how to explain it. Maybe it would be the future, I hoped it would be. That wasn't what made it special, however.

It felt like the last time I would ever sleep.

The last time I would ever dream.

14. Almost Changed Forever

When I woke up the next morning, Tuesday, I drove to school without any morning excitement. It was quiet when I left; Charlie must have already left for work, but it was early, earlier than when he would usually leave, and it was pitch black outside. My dreams the night before were of Edward, but as I slept deeper they faded into colors like the ones I see when I change time. The darkness outside was irregular for a school-day morning. Maybe it wasn't the dark morning or the flooding rainfall that made me feel strange. Of course, that was just the way it was in Forks.

I wasn't tired. I didn't feel energized. I felt as if I was looking for something, or someone. My throat was burning. It was disconcerting, but it didn't bother me too deeply. It is probably just one of those days, I told myself.

Things became stranger, however. As I pulled up into the school parking lot, it was empty. It should have been full with students' cars. The doors to the office wouldn't open. The doors to the gym were boarded up. Normally, a student wouldn't be able to see her school when it was this dark, but I wasn't normal anymore. In fact, I would never be normal again. The burn in my throat was growing and I began to feel like I had woken up too early. I hadn't checked my alarm clock for the time.

Continuing to walk around the school, I noticed fluidity in my steps. Maybe it was a grace that belonged to a vampire. If this was the case then it would go away soon and I would be tripping on air again.

The deep burning in my throat was growing, I noticed. How many vampire thingies am I going to have to deal with today? I thought. The coming and going of these traits made me feel bipolar.

I continued walking around the school, thinking to myself. If I was early then I would just wait around a while until someone opened the doors. It struck me as odd that I was wearing the same pajamas I went to bed in- boy shorts and a tank top. I wasn't cold, though Forks was always cold and I knew I should be freezing.

My walk ceased when I caught a whiff of the most delectable thing in the entire world. Human, I thought. I ran towards my prey, sniffing as much of the air as I could. It was Mr. Harper, the fat janitor that nobody liked. How could something so repulsive smell so wonderful? I knew that he couldn't see what he was doing as he unlocked the door. He was a defenseless buffet. His large body must hold enough blood to sustain me for weeks, I thought while licking my lips. I suppose I should've felt embarrassed for wanting to taste my ugly janitor, but I wasn't. He was lower than me, my prey. I slunk into a cat-like pose, ready to spring on his large form.

When I jumped he turned around and screamed like a woman. Music to my new ears, I thought. I snarled a smile to him though he couldn't see it. His fear peaked and made my throat burn wildly. I was going mad with thirst. He struggled under me but I was stronger. Mr. Harper had hit his white head on the pavement and now was bleeding like mad. I touched my hand to my tongue, tasting his blood. Sensations moved through me as a frenzy began. I moved to his neck as he wailed, "Please, please, I have a daughter." My actions stopped as I battled with myself.

You are not a killer.

Yes you are, Bella, you want him, the monster roared.

I know, but I can't take him away from his daughter. I just can't.

You can. You don't even like the man.

He hasn't done anything to deserve this.

Who says he has to deserve it?

I do. And even then-

You are such a whimp, Bella Swan, the monster chastised.

Get out, you monster.

I'm not the monster here, you are.

Get out of my head.

I am your head.

Go away.

No.

"Please, please, I am a single father. Please, miss," Mr. Harper wailed. Even his tears smelled delicious. He's a single father, I thought, just like Charlie. Would I do this to Charlie? How would this effect this man's Bella?

I jumped off him. "Go home."

He was a very fat man, but he was fast. He took my command and ran with it as I ran in the opposite direction, toward the woods. I needed to drink something. An animal would have to do, for now.

WHIMP, the monster roared. I ignored her and continued running faster than human eyes could ever see. It took mere moments to reach the woods. I stopped when I was deep in them and took a large whiff of the air around me. Deer. Two. Northeast. Twenty meters. I ran toward the scent. It was as lovely as the human had been, but I needed it.

The two deer didn't hear my approach. It was only when I jumped high over them and caught one under my knees and the other in my arms that they even noticed me. There was no chase with this kill and it made me bored. I ran some way deeper into the woods until I found a mountain lion. This one would be a fighter. I lunged and he ran towards the bank in front of him. But I was faster. When I grabbed him around the neck, he caressed my arm with his sharp claws. We were hugging. And then he was limp as I pulled my dripping mouth away from his jugular. The beautiful creature was lifeless before me. The difference between now and a few days ago in the Cullen backyard was that I didn't feel grief for killing the creature, now. I felt like an unbalanced equality to him, a predator becoming prey, a prey becoming a predator. I won this game.

It was becoming lighter outside as I arrived back at home. Yes, I had gotten up earlier than needed. It had been my thirst that drove me to get up and out. I still wasn't tired, though my morning activities would have made any human exhausted.

I took a hot shower, and it felt more amazing than any other I had ever had. When I dressed and went downstairs, I saw Charlie and he gasped. "Morning, Bella."

"Hi, Ch- Dad." My voice was different, now. It sounded like bells ringing with a tint of Alice/Rosalie Cullen vibe.

"You look like you slept well," he mumbled. But I heard him clear as day.

"I did."

"Did you get up early this morning?" he asked pointedly.

"I went for a run."

"Oh. Well, okay. I gotta go, Bells," he said. "You going to school today? Do you feel better?"

"Yes. And I do," I laughed. He smiled and walked to his cruiser.

When I drove to school, I was very angered at my truck. Its pace was nothing like running through the woods a few hours before. It was excruciating to be moving so slowly. I wondered if any other vampires felt that way. But then, no vampire would have a truck like mine.

I began noticing that my attention span was short. At one point during my drive, I noticed little rainbows glinting in the light and almost ran off the road. Things looked much clearer, more defined. I was seeing the world through new eyes. It was beautiful. The parking lot was full when I arrived, as it should be. I was excited to see Edward. It had been two days and I was feeling like I was dying. I probably was.

As I stepped out of my truck, Mike Newton ran up to me. "Bella," he gasped.

"Yeah?"

"You look… Wow." He looked dazed. I laughed a little as his eyes widened.

"I look the same as always. Plain Jane," I added with a laugh. I felt exuberant. What was this new change doing to my brain? I felt like running through the school, finding Edward, and running some more.

"No you don't. Did you get contacts?" he asked suddenly.

"No," I said and walked away. True, I hadn't looked in the mirror lately. I had no reason to; I knew what I would see. The same thing I always saw: me, brown hair, and eyes. But, today, today, I had the feeling that I wasn't the same person anymore, inside or outside. I was contemplating finding a mirror when two small arms ran around me and crushed me to the small frame of Alice.

"Oh, Bella, you look gorgeous! I'm so upset I wasn't there to see it happen! Why didn't you call me? Why didn't I see this? Oh, right, I can't see you. You should make it where I can, at least sometimes. We should go shopping for some new clothes for you. You look different so we should give you a whole new closet-"

"Alice, you are scaring her," Edward said from behind me. I turned around with a smile as his own crooked one made an appearance. He raked his golden eyes over me and I could've blushed had I been able.

"Hi, Edward," I said shyly.

"Hello, beautiful," was his reply. I melted.

"Well, I'm gonna go to class, Bella," Alice said, winking. Edward and I were alone in the parking lot now.

"How do you feel today, Bella?"

"Edward, it's amazing. I feel amazing… But… I'm changed now aren't I?" I hadn't said it even in my head, yet, but it was time that I face it. And what better way than with the man I was falling in love with?

"Mostly, I think. Your heart is still beating so I don't think this is over completely. I thought you were beautiful before, but now you are simply radiant," he confessed. "I think I might have to take Newton aside and give him a talking to."

"Why?"

"He isn't thinking nice things about you."

"No way," I laughed.

"Have you seen you?"

"Everyday."

"Today?"

"No."

"Well then you cannot possibly know how heartbreakingly amazing you look, Bella," Edward stated. We were late for class but I don't think he cared, I didn't.

"You always look like that," I mumbled.

"Ah, don't let the pretty boy face fool you," I laughed at his use of words, "I am as much an amazing vampire as Aro Volturi is." He said seriously.

"You aren't a monster like he is," I said.

"Which brings us to how you know about the Volturi. You mentioned it the other day," he reminded me.

"Let's leave that for another day," I laughed. "We are going to be late for classes."

"Speaking of classes… um… Carlisle wanted one of us to be in every class with you so that we could help you during school. Alice wanted to do it, but… I won," he said while looking into my eyes. I just nodded. Edward Cullen changed his schedule to be with me.

Becoming a vampire has its ups.

And I'm almost fully-fledged.

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