Chapter Twelve: Where It Hurts The Most

Authors Warning:

The following chapter contains sexual content and a bold mark will be made where it starts and stops, viewer discretion is advised.

If love's the word that you say
Say it, and I will listen

Angels and Airwaves "Start The Machine"

"I was going to tell you something last night, but then all that shit happened."

"Well…what is it?"

Wolf moved Serena over to the loveseat and sat her down, he followed suit.

"I just wanted to tell you that the past two weeks with you have been the greatest two weeks of my entire life. You've given me hope when I was hopeless, we've shared our pain together and fought our way through them, and most important, you've given me somebody to love…I love you Serena." He gently kissed her on the lips.

Serena was at loss for words, she wasn't exactly sure how to react. So instead she just did the first thing that came to mind; cry. She let out tears of joy, falling right onto the lupines shoulder. He comforted her, lightly petting her head, allowing his fingers to glide through her hair with relative ease.

"I love you too." She replied amid the tears.

She was sitting alone in the dark save for the small lamp next to her, weeping to herself while thinking about that faithful moment, and looking at the picture of them by the tree. Serena's tears landed on the glass that protected the photograph, forming a small puddle. She knew that it would be impossible to move on from this. She knew that she had to break it to Wolf if he ever returned, part of her wished he didn't.

But he did, standing behind her as she continued to cry. The lupine hated to see her like this, it was obvious this was going to be tough for both of them. He came in close to her and wrapped his arms around her belly. She didn't react at all, like nothing happened.

"Are you still mad at me?" The question was rhetorical in some way, but she answered back anyway.

"Of course I am." Serena whimpered. "But I don't want to be." She rested her head against his, allowing him to wipe away her tears. "I just don't know if I can trust that this won't happen again."

"Are you saying that-"

"Yes Wolf…" They both died a little on the inside that very moment.

"I understand…" He replied without emotion, it was as if all feeling was ripped out of him. "Where will you go?" He asked, with a bit more concern.

"I don't know yet."

"That's fine, you can have the apartment."

Serena's eyes widened, she was being given a home that was owned by her husband. He was giving up all he had for her. It was an amazing showing of sincerity that touched her. She began to bawl up again.

"But Wolf, where will you go?"

Now he was beginning to cry again. "I'll figure it out, trust me."

"I can't accept this Wolf."

"Let it be a reminder of the good times we had Serena. Coming back here is just too much for me." She turned around and embraced her lupine lover. While she didn't see it, she could feel Wolf smiling for her. It was everything that she missed about him. But even now, there was no turning back on her decision.

"I lied Wolf." She sighed. "I still love you." This brought both of them over the edge and now the floodgates had been breached.

"I always have, and always will love you Serena." They continued their embrace as the moonlight poured in through the windows.

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No sooner had they been standing there were they locked in a deep and passionate kiss. Wolf knew this would be the last time he would make love to his wife, and wanted to make sure it wasn't for pleasure, it was to show that he cared deeply for Serena. There was no animal inside him now, just a broken soul.

The lupine clumsily took his jacket and shirt off while Serena threw her shoes across the living room. Their slow trek to the bed was without some humor, as Wolf smacked his head against the side of the doorframe, making them both erupt into laughter before continuing with their embrace.

"Pill?" Wolf mumbled while kissing her neck.

"Yeah…" She responded while taking her pants off.

They landed on the bed and continued to strip down to nothing, neither were even ready to actually begin. They both seemed content enough to just stay just the way they were. But eventually the time came and Wolf got on top of Serena, landing another kiss on her forehead.

"Do you remember the first time Wolf?" Serena asked."Yeah, why?"

"…Count em' down." He looked back and tried to remember what she meant.

"…Like rocket's eh Serena?" He said with a smile. She responded the same way.

"Well then I'll show you rockets!" He exclaimed laughing.

"As you wish." He could feel more tears coming. "T-minus ten, nine, eight-" She could see them falling onto his grey fur now. "-five, four, three, two…" He stumbled, trying to stop himself from crying, and took a deep breath. "…One…" He said with a bit of a high pitched voice as more tears came as he entered her. The warmness relaxed him, stopping his tears. He allowed himself to gently fall into Serena's arms and they began.

While with Serena, Wolf had learned to be more passionate in bed and not just a crazed sex animal that he once was. However, this time something dramatically changed in him. It was as though he brought the infatuation up a notch. He would whisper little haiku's of sorts into her ears, and kiss her in every place imaginable. It was like Wolf's last meal, and he wanted to make the best of it for him and her.

During the coitus, Wolf began to hear a light whimper. He stopped what he was doing, worried that he was hurting Serena and nuzzled her.

"Are you okay Serena?" He asked, panting.

"Yeah, I'm fine. It just hurts knowing after this, it's over…" He didn't know what so say, so he pecked her cheek and continued on.

The two went on for what felt like hours, not even tiring each other out. And it all came to a headway as Wolf was about to end it.

"I'm almost there Serena, but I don't want to be." He murmured.

"It's okay Wolf, I'm almost done too."

What a way to go out, together. He took a tight hold on Serena and locked lips with her, never letting them leave. He began to thrust once more, not holding back now. All things come to and end, and for them it ended with a bang. The rocket's had lifted off, and there was no turning back anymore. With a last thrust, they climaxed together, locking themselves into each other. When it was all over, the two looked into each others eyes and could see their respective reflections in them. Another tear formed in the lupine's purple ocular and fell onto Serena's breast.

No more tears Wolf. He thought. Just say the words one last time...

"I love you..."

Safe

Later in the night, when Serena was asleep holding onto Wolf tightly, the lupine was still awake and couldn't fall asleep. His mind had been running like mad since they finished. His life was flashing before his eye, from the moment he was born to the present day. It was a review of his memories. Some were happy, some were sad, but they all remained fixed inside of him for one reason or another. This was no different, he kept this moment in his head because it would be all he had to remember her by. He didn't want to take any pictures or belongings with him, being reminded of her would just make him hurt more.

He looked down and saw Serena slumbering on his chest, her red bangs were blowing lightly in the wind from the open window, he brushed his hand through it. He would miss stroking her hair and gliding through it with his paw. He also saw on both his and her finger was their wedding rings. It showed that for now, they were still one, but only for a single day. By this time tomorrow, he would be gone from her life and starting a new one, hopefully with the Star Fox team again. It was what he really needed now, someone to talk to. But there was nobody now, just himself. And being alone, as Fox once told him was a horrible thing. He began to cry, allowing the reality of the situation to come to fruition. Eventually, his light whimpers lulled himself to sleep, and away from the problems he faced.