Here´s chapter 5 from Bella´s POV.

Enjoy :)

Gone

A week had passed since our talk. No one had dared to mention the subject of relocating since. Last night Edward and Emmet had gone away on a quick hunting trip. I wasn´t up for the trip so I stayed at home with Nessie.

Nessie had taken the news of relocating badly. She had hardly spoken a word in the last week. Jacob was beginning to worry. We hadn´t told him yet.

When the sun stood high in the sky and Nessie still hadn´t come out of her room I was starting to worry too. Jacob had just arrived at the cottage.

"She´s still sleeping," I said to Jacob.

" It´s almost noon Bells, she never sleeps in" Jacob complained.

"I know," I said. "But she has a lot on her mind these days and maybe that´s making her more sleepy than normal."

I hadn't heard a sound since she went to bed.

"Bella what´s wrong with her? She hasn´t really said anything in days now. That´s not like her," Jacob asked sounding really worried.

"Now´s not the time Jake," I said trying to sound indifferent.

"Has it got something to do with… with me?" I heard Jake whisper.

Crap. How to dodge that bullet?

"No and yes Jake. But it´s not what you think," I answered still trying really hard to look like it was nothing. I wasn´t that great an actress and Jacob properly knew me too well to call my bluff.

"I´ll go check on her. I know you´re anxious to see her. Wait here," I said before he would call my bluff. He looked like he was going to have a panic attack. If this wasn´t my daughter he was drooling over it might be really entertaining.

Ah the love sick puppy. I giggled to myself and went to the door to Nessie´s room. I knocked very careful on the door. No answer. I slid the door open just a little to peek inside. There was no sign of her anywhere. I swung the door open and ran inside shouting, "NESSIE!"

I looked at her bed. A bed that hasn´t been slept in this night. On her pillow there was a note.

I took the note in my hand and read it,

Mom, dad

I´m sorry

Please don´t look for me.

Without me around your problem is solved.

Love you always,

Nessie

I stared at the piece of paper in my hand. I was so glad that breathing wasn´t vital for me because I wasn´t able to breathe at all. I read the note again hoping that I had dreamt it, though I didn´t dream anymore.

Suddenly there was a loud scream that filled the whole house. It was a painful sound; it really hurt my ears and broke my heart to pieces. Jacob shook me and I realized that I was the one who was making that horrible sound. I was screaming my lungs out.

"BELLA WHAT`S GOING ON? WHERE`S NESSIE?" Jacobs's voice was panic stroked and demanding at the same time. I couldn´t speak so I just handed him the note.

Before Jacob had time to finish the note Alice, Rosalie and Jasper was right beside us. My scream must have alarmed them. Alice flew to my side holding me tight. Jasper was struggling with all the feelings of despair in the room and he was trying real hard to send calm towards us all.

Jacob flinched and looked up from the note. "NO!" he screamed it out.

Rose took the note from Jacob and read it quickly. She immediately took out her cell phone to call Carlisle. Carlisle and Esme would come back right away. She hung up the phone and started to dial a new number. I paid attention now, I was coming to.

"Edward, it´s Rose. You and Emmet need to come home right away. No questions asked. Just hurry. No Edward, Bella needs you."

That would do it. He would drop everything to come to help me.

Jasper, Alice and Rose sat silently beside me on Nessie´s bed. They knew what was going on. Jacob on the other hand was pacing and asking the same question over and over, "Why? Oh Why Nessie?"

Nobody answered him.

Suddenly Jacob flew out of the room. We heard him phase outside, he was informing his pack that Nessie was gone. We heard a howl of agony.

The agony that matched the feeling in my chest. I had a massive hole in my body so I had to hold my arms tightly around my body. The old way I had defended myself from feeling pain years ago was now again in use. If I had lost Nessie then I had lost a part of myself.

I just couldn´t think of a reason why she would think that she was the problem. WE were the problem. If it wasn´t for us she could have stayed in Forks attending Forks high school.

Edward and Emmet must not have been far away or I must have lost track of time. I heard Edward cry a heartbroken, "NO!" and then they both stormed in to meet us still sitting very very still on Nessie´s bed. Emmet had no idea of what was going on, but Edward had read the minds of Alice, Rose and Jasper.

Edward looked at me and in the same second he flung to my side holding me tight around the waist with his one arm. The other hand picked up the note and he stared at it.

"What´s going on? Where´s the fire?" Emmet was still in the dark. Emmet was not known for his subtle way so it was only natural that he wanted to know what was going on.

Rose got to her feet and smacked him hard on the back of his head. "Loose the attitude just this once, Em," she said scowling at him. "Nessie´s run away. She´s gone and we have no idea where she is."

Emmet was as fond of Nessie as anyone. She had a real special place in his not beating heart. He wasn´t going to deal with her absence very well.

"She wouldn´t do that. She wouldn´t just run away and only leave a not. That´s not her style. Some on you guys, this is a really sick joke," he said looking at us.

"I must say Bella; you have been rehearsing on your acting skills. You almost had me there for a second," he wasn´t getting the point. This was no joke.

"This is not a joke, Em," Jasper answered. "She´s really gone."

Emmet looked stunned.

"Where´s the mongrel? I bet he took her and made her write us a note," Emmet was furious now. Nobody said anything so he went for the door. He looked ready to strike and kill.

"Emmet don´t. It´s not Jacob. He doesn´t even know we´re planning to leave town," Edward said.

Emmet suddenly got the point. He was stunned and frozen to the spot.

Hours passed and nobody talked. How could we make this right again?

Alice flickered. She turned to me and Edward. "I´m so sorry she said. I can´t see anything and I didn´t get any warnings at all. Nessie´s so hard to keep taps on. I´m really sorry. I wish I would have been able to do something. Anything."

"This was not your fault," I managed to breathe. "This was our fault. We should have known there was something wrong when she was acting so weird this past week."

Edward squeezed me tighter to his side. We needed to toughen up. We needed to be strong. We had to pull ourselves together and go out and find our baby girl. She needed us. More than ever. I occurred to me that she must be so frightened and feel so alone right now.

"I´m sorry Edward. I was supposed to take care of her. I guess I wasn´t paying enough attention. If anyone should be blamed it should be me." I couldn´t bear the thought that it was my fault. But it was my fault. I was her mother and I had failed.

Edward took my head in both his hands and turned me to face him. "I will never, ever hear you speak those words again Bella. Stop that nonsense this minute. You are not to blame. I should never have left. I should have been here to protect both of you." Edward was furious. And like a bad rerun of an old movie, he was blaming himself yet again.

I just wished I could cry. I needed to cry. The hurt was too much to bear without being able to act on the feeling. The only thing I could do was sob.

I placed my head, still sobbing, on Edward´s chest. He held me tight and I was safe. Somehow everything felt like it would be better when I was in his arms. I was born to be in his arms. I took a deep breath and composed myself.

"We have to find her," I nearly whispered it. "We have to bring her back. We have to make her safe again. At all costs. She´s what matters. She´s the life and soul of this family."

I looked around. Everyone nodded so I guess we all agreed that we had to do something.

"Well?" I said looking up at Edward expecting him to come up with a plan. Whenever Carlisle wasn´t home everyone turned to Edward to be the head of the house.

He didn´t answer me. He just sat there.

"What should we do?" I felt irritated at the fact that I had to waste time to explain what I was asking. I just wanted to get out and find my daughter.

"I… I´m not sure," was all he could say.

Well that was a first. Edward lost for words in the hour of need. That was so out of character for him. Usually he was always the first to come up with a solution and to set the plan in action.

I looked around. Apparently I wasn´t the only one who was surprised at this.

Jacob was suddenly back with Quil, Embry, Seth and Leah. Jacobs pack would help I was sure of that. Not for our sake but for Jacob´s.

"We here to help you search for Nessie," Jacob said looking at me and Edward.

"Thanks Jake. That really means a lot to us all. We know that you love her more than your own life. Thank you for doing this. All of you," I said. I tried to smile at him.

Carlisle and Esme arrived just as we all stood up to discuss the best tactics. Rose had filled them in so we didn´t have to start all over and feel like our hearts were torn out once more. Esme hurried to Edward and me and held us both tightly.

"I assume we will try to find her," Carlisle said. It wasn´t really a question but we all nodded.

He looked around the room. Apparently scanning for some kind of clue.

"Did you touch or remove anything?" Carlisle asked.

"No, not at all. We only found this note and that was it. The room looks exactly the same as last night," I answered him a little puzzled. If he would only get to the point already. We were wasting so much time.

"Then I guess we can assume that she´s been gone all night. No one slept here last night. Her scent still lingers here, but it is not very fresh," Carlisle then stated.

"But where would she go if she doesn´t want us to find her?" I asked. "She can´t show up any of the places we´ve been with her and she can´t seek out any of the family friends."

"Kate, Tanya, Carmen, Eleazar and Garret are on their way down here to help us find her. We need all the help we can get. If Nessie doesn´t want to be found she´ll be very, very hard to find," Carlisle said.

We all nodded. She had grown up in a house full of vampires and had a pack of overgrown wolves as best friends. She would have picked up a trick or two on how to be invisible.

I shuddered. What would I do if we didn´t find her. No I couldn´t think that. I would have to stay positive. If not for my own sake then I had to keep it up for Edward. He was always strong to help me. It was my turn now to be there for him. I would have to use my instincts as a mother maybe that would help us find her.

"Whatever it takes," I said. "We will find her."