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Black Out

Everything went black.

I couldn´t see.

I couldn´t hear.

I could only hear my own thoughts. I didn´t like what I heard.

I tried to block my own thoughts. I needed to escape from this nightmare.

I needed to be reassured.

I needed my child.

I don´t know how long I was out, it couldn´t have been that long.

When I came to I could feel that I was lying on my back in the grass. My arms were by my sides and my eyes were closed.

Then I heard them. The others were talking to me in panic. What were they doing? Why weren´t they out searching for Nessie?

"Bella! Please love, open your eyes," Edward pleaded with me.

"Bella please come back to me, please don´t leave me. Please love…" He was sobbing.

"She will come to in 90 seconds," Alice said with certainty. "It has just been very overwhelming to her."

"Bella! Can you hear me love?" Edward tugged me in his arms. "I love you Bella. We will make this right again. Please come back love. Please. I need you."

I heard Carlisle whisper to Esme in a low voice," I didn´t even know that vampires could pass out like that. She must really be stressed out. Understandable

Stressed out? That´s the understatement of the century, I thought to myself.

Edward started rocking me back and forth. Soothing me. I didn´t mean to pass out like this. I didn´t mean to worry him any further. I had lost control.

"She can hear you, Edward. Just keep talking to her. It´ll help her calm down," Alice said.

"Bella? Bella I´m here. Open your eyes love. I´ll take care of you. You´re not alone. I love you so much Bella. Please open your eyes." He sounded desperate but comforted by the fact that Alice already had foreseen me open my eyes and come to.

I established that I had regained my hearing so I might as well give it a go. Maybe I had gotten my vision back too.

I slowly opened my eyes. The first thing I saw was Edward´s beautiful face and his worried eyes.

As his eyes met mine a jolt of joy crossed them. He was relieved.

Everyone let out a sigh and relaxed just a little more.

How selfish of me to pass out on a time like this.

How selfish of me to make this about me.

"I…" I started to speak. Edward lifted me up to a sitting position and gently removed some hair from my face.

His face dazzled me. I had to collect my thoughts again.

"I´m sorry," I said looking into his eyes.

"Don´t love. You just scared me a bit that´s all. You´re fine now," he said while he was shushing me.

"I don´t know what came over me," I said still a bit confused. " What happened?"

"Well you sort of just fell to the ground when Jacob confirmed what they found in Nessie´s room. That´s all we know," he answered in a low concerned voice.

"How long was I out?" I asked.

"Just about 10 minutes," Carlisle answered. He must have been monitoring my condition. He didn´t sound too worried though. Well reviewing the facts then, I couldn´t be suffering from a heart attack or just drop dead. But then again we didn´t know I could pass out like this either.

"Oh," was all I managed to breathe.

Enough of this I thought to myself. I had to collect myself and be strong. Our daughter needed us and this was no time to be selfish.

I took a deep breath and stood up. Edward looked concerned but we didn´t have time to fuzz now.

"What´s the plan?" I asked looking around.

"Bella I think that maybe you ought to take it slow," Jacob said looking at me like I was going to break.

"Don´t be silly Jake. Ten wild horses couldn´t hold me back. Now where do we start?" I said furious at that utterly ridiculous suggestion of his.

Emmet grinned,"Pay up Jaz," he said.

Jasper mumbled something unintelligible and rolled his eyes. I noticed a hundred dollar bill switch hands.

"For the love of all that´s holy guys," Edward complained. "Stop making bets when it concerns my wife."

They always made bets so why not now. I didn´t mind.

"Sorry Jaz," I said and flashed him a teasing smile.

Jasper had lost his bets so many times to Emmet during the past 5 years. He was still frustrated that I never followed the usual pattern of new vampires.

He just shrugged and Edward rolled his eyes.

"The Denali coven is on their way to help us search," Esme said. "We really do need all the help we can get. We´re running hours behind as it is. And we don´t know what we´re dealing with either."

"Did you find any further clues in her room," I asked. I hadn´t expected them all to stand and glare at my lifeless body for the last 10 minutes or so.

"No we didn´t look any further actually. We were too worried about you," Edward admitted.

"That´s just plain silly," I said knowing if it had the other way around and Edward had been the one on the ground I wouldn´t have been able to move until he opened his eyes.

They didn´t speak and made no motion to move.

"Well then," I said impatient. "What are we waiting for?"

"She´s back," Emmet said with a grin on his face. "She´s already bossing us around."

I shook my head and so did the rest of the family. Nobody dared to contradict me.

I went inside and flew to Nessie´s room.

I scanned the room quickly looking for anything unusual. I couldn't really look for anything out of its place. Because everything was in this sick perfect order. And that was really the most unusual about the room. This wasn´t really Nessie´s room, at least it didn´t feel like it.

I tried to scan the room more thorougly, one section at the time.

I could sense Edward behind me. He was doing the same thing.

I searched and searched for what felt like hours. I found nothing.

Edward didn´t find anything either.

I was really starting to get frustrated. If we didn´t have any clue where would we start?

We looked at each other for a moment.

"Maybe we should call Charlie?" I asked. He would know how to search a room. Even though there hardly was any drama going on for the humans in Forks he still had the training from the academy to experience from.

"I don´t think that´s a good idea," Edward answered. "He would want to help look for her and that is too dangerous. We can´t put him in danger of facing this unknown vampire."

Of course not. Edward was right. Charlie wouldn´t settle for just searching the room.

"No. Of course not. You´re right." No reason to argue logic.

I heard Jasper walk right outside the window. Good. He was starting to reconstruct the path they might have taken.

"What´s this?" he said to himself.

I heard him scramble around for a while and then he cleared his throat.

"You guys, I´ve found something" he yelled back at the others.

Edward and I hurried to the window and crawled outside to see what he had found.

He held something in his hand and looked horrified at us.

It was a white handkerchief.

Edward held out his hand to take it from Jasper. Jasper hesitated but gave it to Edward after a couple of seconds.

Edward looked at it for a second and then he sniffed it.

"Chloroform," he said swallowing back some venom. He was practically shaking with fury.

I gasped and so did the rest of the crowd. But it made sense. Nessie wouldn´t just follow a stranger without a sound. And there had been absolutely no sounds coming from her room or just outside our house the entire night.

A shot of guilt washed through me again. I should have been able to take care of her. I had failed her. Miserably.

I held my hand out. I wanted to see the handkerchief.

Edward handed it to me. I folded it out and studied it. I didn´t really know what I expected to find. I just felt like I had to do something.

I noticed there was something embroidered in one of the corners. I held it closer. It read "Victoria"

I let out a loud gasp.

They all looked at me.

"Vic... Victoria," I said stuttering.

"What?" Edward said. "That´s not possible. I killed her, you saw that. It can´t be her."

No it couldn´t be Victoria. Edward, Seth and I had all watched her die over 5 years ago. But I couldn´t help but to feel she was still haunting me.

Jacob started running towards the creek south of the cottage. We could all smell her scent. But her scent lingered all around the house. She usually goes everywhere.

We could still hear Jacob panting while he ran but he was in the woods now so we couldn´t see him. He had phased to his wolf form.

I expected that we ought to do something similar. We really needed to do something. To find her.

Seth, Leah, Quil and Embry had all run to the woods to phase. They needed to be able to stay in touch with Jacob. They returned quickly and Edward nodded at Seth.

"Jake has gone on a patrol around the house to catch the most recent scent. He´s the one of the wolves that knows her scent the best", Edward explained.

I nodded. I was yet again truly grateful for Jacob and what he would do for our family.

We waited for more information. We waited for something to do.

"He´s found something. He´s coming back and then he´s headed back in the same direction. He thinks he´s got her scent now," Edward translated Seth´s thoughts. He also looked like he knew what Jacob had found.

I could hear paws running fast through the woods. Jacob would be back soon and I would know what Edward was thinking.

Jacob returned with a piece of fabric in his mouth.

Jacob placed it in front of my feet. I picked it up.

A blue long-sleeved blouse. It looked oddly familiar.

I turned the blouse around a couple of times in my hands.

I had seen this blouse before. I just wasn´t sure where. It wasn´t Nessie´s I was sure of that.

Alice gasped and I turned around to face her.

"Yes, Alice. It´s the same one," Edward answered her silent question.

"What?" Emmet and Rose said at the same time.

Without even knowing what I was doing I sniffed the blouse. It smelled like strawberry and human skin. It smelled like my favorite perfume. It smelled like I used to.

I looked at the shirt once again.

"This was… mine?" I half asked it.

A vague human memory shot to my mind. The night I had gone with Angela and Jessica to Port Angeles. The night I was almost attacked. The night Edward saved me. The night I had confronted him with my knowledge of what he was. The night I last wore that blouse.

"I remember…," I whispered.

So she was still haunting me. Even from the dead she was haunting me.

Edward turned to the others and explained, "This used to be Bella´s blouse. Last time she wore it was the night I saved her in Port Angeles. It most have been removed from her room years ago when Riley paid her room a visit. We never knew it was gone."

"But Victoria and all the newborns were destroyed years ago," Jasper said confused.

"She must have had a back-up plan. She must have left someone behind in case something went wrong," I said in a small voice.

They all looked chocked at me and then at Edward.

I couldn´t bear the truth.

This was bad. This was really bad.