A/N: This chapter is important; It is about Edward trying to find out a way to go back to earth, to visit Bella! But...whether he does it or not depends on what you voted on my poll! Will he get permission? Will he be forbidden? READ AND REVIEW!!

Edward's POV

I had to figure out some way to get down to earth and see my Bella! I just could not stand her not knowing the truth about my...eternal state. And I knew she would have to hear it from me; Jacob certainly wasn't going to tell her anytime soon, and even if Alice told her...it just wouldn't be the same.

And so...I decided...I was going to go back to earth and visit my Bella!! (A/N: Okay! That's the result) It had to be done; I missed her too much and I knew she missed me. This was too important.

But there was a little flaw in my plan...I didn't have a clue how to go back down to earth. No one ever really went back; I don't really think anyone found a real reason to, but I did. And in order to do that...I would have to see Carlisle.

Carlisle knew everything there was to know about our world; Every secret, every rule...every trap door and path going to where I needed to be right now. And as I walked towards Carlisle, who was usually found in his little study by the gate, I was actually nervous. I was nervous because in all reason, he could say no. Hell, he should say no. It was against the rules to ever go back to earth; It was the biggest rule and the only rule we really had to follow! He would think I was crazy just to ask...

But I was also nervous that he would say no, and I wouldn't be able to handle the rejection; I wouldn't be able to handle the fact that I was never going to see my Bella again. I was never going to see her lovely smile, nor was I ever going to see her beautiful chocolate eyes or hair. Or her rosy cheeks, her sweet, musical voice...all to become very distant memories.

My heart already felt like it had been ripped out as I brought my hand to knock on his door. But I couldn't bring myself to it. I almost walked away, but...

"Hello?" he called. Damn. He must have heard me. Well, I couldn't leave now. "Come in, the door's open..." I sighed and opened the door.

"Hi." I greeted him. I had never really seen up that much before. But now that I really looked at him, I saw that his appearance did not at all suggest his actual age. He was only about...20 or 30 when he died and...as wierd as it may sound, he was very...good looking.

"Oh, hello. Edward, isn't it?" he asked getting up to shake my hand. I nodded to answer the question of my name. "Well son, how can I help you?"

"I- I have a question...?" I began. My voice wasn't shaking, but I'm sure he could tell I was nervous. He nodded, telling my to continue. "Is their...a way to possibly...visit earth for a short time?" I finished in a rush. I half expected him to just gape at me and tell me to leave and never come back. But, he smiled.

"Of course there are ways." he said kindly. "Of course. Very secret, but...they are there. But only to be used when absolutely necessary." he added his tone serious. I nodded.

"Yes. I thought so..." I was about to turn to leave; I just wanted to be alone with my thoughts. He was very delicate in telling me I couldn't possibly visit the love of my life (okay, he didn't know that part) but I still felt upset. I think he could tell.

"I'm guessing...you would like to go to earth?" he asked in a fatherly voice. It surprised me how gentle he could be...

"Yes." I nodded weakly. Trying not to be disrespectful, I looked at him, though I wished I could stare at the empty floor.

"Is it...important?" he asked. I was quiet. He wouldn't think it was important, but I did. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asked in genuine concern. He beckoned for me to sit down in front of his desk. I did so, and began slowly.

"It's...important to me..." I trailed off. "You see, there is this girl...she's my wife actually...and she doesn't exactly know, that I'm..." he understood and nodded. "Because the man who had me killed so he could be with her made her think he just set me free. So she thinks I'm somewhere in the kingdom. She's just so miserable..." I had to look at the floor now. "It's just heart breaking to see the one I love in so much pain..." I stopped again, to take a deep breath. "I just want to make the pain go away. I want to...tell her about my death. She needs to hear it from me." I waited for his reaction.

"I think, that's very sweet of you. And...there might be away..." he stopped, hesitant. "And I agree. This is important. I was young once too, and I know how important love is..." he got up and began looking through books and maps. Finally, he appeared to have found what he was looking for.

He handed it to me and smiled. "Now, you can't use it excessively. Try to space out your visits." I smiled at the plural form of visit. I could see her more than once. "And...I know I'm breaking the rules so," he stopped. "It would be best, if you didn't tell anyone." he stressed.

"Yes, sir." I answered. I was so grateful and ecstatic at that moment. I was in total bliss. I was going to see Bella again! And maybe even more than once! Carlisle was so kind to me...and without thinking I just...hugged him. He was surprised at first...so was I. I let go quickly and began following the map he had given me.

I wanted so badly to tell Jasper first. I ran to him...

"Japser!" I called happily. He turned slowly to me and waved. But I stopped in my tracks. It would be best if you didn't tell anyone. That's what he had said. But Jasper needed to see Alice. She was pregnant for god's sake! But...somehow, I knew I just couldn't tell him. It was my secret, my burden, to bare. "I'll- be back later." And a new wave of guilt ran over me. So I ran faster in an attempt to escape it.

I follwed the map exactly; In just a while...Bella would be back in my arms where she belonged.

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