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Princess Isabella's POV
I knew I would have to explain all of this sooner or later. I just wished it would come...much later. But Edward had a right to know what was wrong with me; I'm sure he blamed himself as always, but maybe I could convince him that I'm just...mentally unstable? Yeah...that'll work great
"Can you walk? Do you want me to-" I shook my head. I could walk on my own. My legs were fine, it was just the rest of my body that ached.
"I'm fine." He nodded and I took a good look at him. His face was hard and serious and his eyes bled with anger. I winced at that thought. Was he angry at me? Well, he certainly had a right to be. I didn't deserve him anymore...
But I still needed him. I needed to hear his voice, to feel his touch and to have him near me. I needed him so badly, it was almost unhealthy and I knew it. But I just loved him so much, I knew it would hurt to actually let him go. Because the pain I knew it would cause me if he left far outweighed the guilt of keeping here with me. Even if he wanted to go. I was just too selfish...he was perfect. He would always do what was best for eveyone, even if it hurt him. Not only was he caring, he was gorgeous; Perfect eyes, perfect smile...
My insides twisted uncomfortably as I realized...someone so perfect was too good for me; Someone...so, so flawed.
Edward's POV
Bella and I walked in silence; She in her own thoughts and I in my own. I watched her from time to time, as she hung her head and slumped her shoulders. I could tell just by looking at her exactly how she felt; She probably felt guilty and ashamed. She was probably blaming herself for everything that had happened. But it was not her fault...
It was mine. All of this was my fault. I was the one who had left her and I was the one who had hurt and I was the one who had drove her to such extremes. Bella could not be blamed for this; She was too innocent, sweet...it even made me think that I didn't even deserve her love anymore. She didn't deserve to be treated like this or be disappointed like today...maybe it would be best if I just...vanished.
But I knew that would never work; It didn't work this time, and I didn't even mean to leave her. It just happened. And in the end, it would hurt me far more than it would hurt her...I wanted to stay. And...I could tell that Bella needed me too.
The anger that I tried to hide from her, the anger that showed on my face, was not for her. The anger that I knew she thought was caused by her, was anger at myself. I wish I could tell her that, but right now...I was too emotional. My words would come out harsh if I didn't watch them, and she had been hurt enought today. Right now, I just needed some space.
Princess Isabella's POV
I could tell he was angry; His face was hard and emotionless, and his eyes stared straight ahead. I didn't like it when he was this way, but I always understood why he when he was angry. Right now, he needed his space. We would talk when he was ready and I couldn't push him. He always came around...when I did something bad. But today, I wasn't bad, I was evil to him. I was terrible. Maybe today, he wouldn't forgive me and he would leave me for good...all alone. But maybe, just maybe, that would be best for him.
I wiped a tear off my face and took a deep shaky breath. Edward reached for my hand, which I willingly gave him.
"Come on," he said. But he didn't look at me. I blinked back my tears and bit my lip as I looked up; We were back at the castle now and I just realized how late it really was. The whole castle was dark and frightening, lit only by the moonlight. He led me inside, quietly. It was so silent, that it hurt my ears. Only my breathing echoed against the stone surroundings. I was so absorbed into my thoughts and everything around me to keep my mind off of Edward, that I couldn't help but think about him.
I knew what he would do, even if he didn't. He would take me to my room, and explain to me that he had to leave me forever. I wouldn't try to tell him not to, now. It made sense that he would want to leave me after this. Why wouldn't he? He was, literally, a fallen angel. I don't even think he was supposed to be down here now. He might tell me that it's not my fault and that he just can't risk getting caught, but I'll know the real reason.
But, he wasn't leading me to my room. But where we were, it was too dark to tell where exactly he was headed. I opened my mouth to ask where we were going, but the sound got lost in my throat, as though my mind couldn't make a connection to my mouth. A few moments afterwards, he let go of my hand. I got lost in the darkness, and panicked. Okay, I was wrong; He'd leave me all alone in complete darkness and just leave...forever. But I couldn't let him go...not now. I still needed him...
"Edward!" I cried. But no one answered. My hands searched around, looking for anything to get a grip onto. I found something right away. It felt like...Edward? My hand went up what must have been his chest; He felt more muscular than I remembered...But that didn't matter now. Before he left me, I just needed one thing to remember him by...just. One. Kiss.
I found his face, pulled him towards me, and brought my lips to his. He was shocked at first, trying to pull me away, but I pulled him back and this time, he kissed me and his hands tangled through me hair; But...it didn't feel like Edward. These kisses were not Edward's kisses and these hands..were not his hands. And these lips...were not his lips. I pulled back, startled to death, breathing heavily and wiping my mouth. WHERE WAS EDWARD? WHO THE HELL WAS THIS?
Someone grabbed me from behind...I gasped, trying to pull away. But this was the touch I recognized... this was edward.
"Bella..." he whispered.
"E-Edward?" I was so confused!! Who had I kissed, if Edward was there...?
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