A/N: Here's da chapter...
Edward's POV
The castle was in utter darkness. I held Bella's hand as I led her inside. I could tell she was upset, even though I could barely see her. I could her her shudder or whimper occassionally, and it broke my heart. She thought I was mad at her still. I wanted to tell her otherwise; I wanted to explain everything. And I knew the perfect place to do that. But unfortuanately I was having a lot of trouble finding my way.
I felt for the wall, trying to find familiar patterns or feel something to tell me where I was. But in order to do that, I had to let go off Bella's hand. I didn't want to, but I did. It was such an idiotic thing to do! So foolish! I should have known; She immediately started panicking, trying to find me. I attempted to comfort her by finding her and trying to hold her. But I couldn't find her! But I saw a light; A candle in the distance. My heart sped up, nervously. Bella would be caught. Taken away from me. She'd think I'd left her again and I couldn't let that happen.
But who the hell was holding the candle? I didn't know yet. But who ever it was dropped the light source as someone grabbed them. Was that Bella? I wasn't even sure! I got so confused...
The candle rolled toward me; It was fading. But there was enough light for me. I picked it up, without even thinking, and held it up to the two mystery people. I was shocked; One of them I was sure was Bella. And she was...kissing him. She was kissing. King. Jacob.
I became even more confused. But I was sure there was a good explaination for this. Or maybe not. He was her...husband... after all. Maybe she was doing it to get back at me, I didn't know at the time. But...though I hated to admit it, she had every right to do anything she wanted.
But right then, to shocked to move I just stood there, dumbly. Unable to move. The kiss didn't last long I guess, but it seemed to drag on forever. But Bella broke away from Jake's lips, almost as shocked as me. I was at her side in an instant, and I whispered her name in her ear softly; I didn't want her to think I had left her. Even if she didn't want me anymore, she had to know I still cared. At least enough to stay with her.
Bella's voice was shaky and unsure; She sounded confused. But her reaction didn't make sense. "E-Edward?" she whispered back, sounding amazed. It didn't sound like she knew what had happened either.
What. The. Hell?
King Jacob's POV
I hadn't seen Bella all day. Not that I ever really talked to her, but I noticed her in the halls. Avoiding me. The day before, Alice had come to me, very upset after shopping with Bella. I was surprised she was even talking to me. I knew that she would only ever put up with me if something was wrong. I was right.
Bella had gone missing, and Alice couldn't find her anywhere. I was furious with Alice, asking her why the hell she'd leave Bella alone for a second. Really, it was stupid! We both knew that Bella...hadn't been right and ok since ...I killed Edward. And she married me. I knew Alice blamed me for everything bad in the world, and maybe I was a little responsible... kinda.
Anyway, Bella came back late last night and went straight to bed, in her old room. I did not object; She looked tired, upset. I decided it would be best to leave her alone with Alice. But...when she woke up later today, Alice left for a doctor's appointment and Bella had gone missing. AGAIN!!
We gave a looking at about midnight; We'd hoped and prayed she would come back on her own. I hoped no harm had come to her...but I couldn't be sure.
I slept for maybe an hour; But it wasn't comfortably. I was tossing and turning when I just couldn't take it anymore. I woke up, with a strange feeling I couldn't shake; I was scared but not really...maybe, anxious. Yes, anxious and worried about Bella. I turned on the light, slipped on my robe and walked toward Bella's old room. I was hoping I would find her in there, sleeping soundly, so my worries could disappear, like they had the night before. I wanted so badly to believe that Bella was okay and that she hadn;t done anything stupid or reckless, because deep down, I knew that it would be all my fault.
I would never be able to forgive myself if something happened to Bella tonight. Because I knew that it was my deeds, my actions and my plots and selfishness are what drove Bella to what she is today. I and I alone had made Bella a gloomy, moody, depressed girl, married to someone...she hated, against her will and waiting; believing in false hope that her true love was still alive...I did this to her. Though I knew I deserved it, the fact that Bella hated me hurt. I was furious at myself for letting our relationship get so strained. I shouldn't have killed Edward, no matter how much I hated him and when I killed him anyway, I should have told Bella. I had a strong feeling that the reason Bella went missing yesterday and today was because she was trying to find Edward. But she didn't know he was dead.
My heart sped up as I opened the door to her old room, slowly and with my eyes closed. I counted to three slowly before opening them. I didn't hear any breathing...my heart sank.
I opened my eyes quickly, just to get it over with. It was dark in her room, but still, even in the dark I would be able to see if Bella had come home. Still, I turned on the light to make sure; I was in denial. Surely Bella was here somewhere! But...there was no one.
Distressed and guilty I thought about the possibilities. Each one I thought about became worse and worse...but the absolute most horrid possible explaination for Bella's disappearance...was her death.
But I couldn't believe that; I didn't want to believe that, but still, it seemed...likely. I had been noticing Bella's change in personality. She was even more depressed and morbid...even Alice was worried. What if Bella had left to find Edward? What if, when she asked someone, they had told her the awful truth; That he was dead and that I had killed him...what if she couldn't handle the loss... what if she had killed herself?
I was trying so hard not to cry; I hadn;t cried since I had been crowned king. Kings weren't supposed to cry, they were not allowed. But all these lonely, painful months watching Bella die inside had taken a toll on me. But for eight months, I had been bottling it all up. But this time, I couldn't.
And for the first time in months, I cried.
A/N: I wanted you all to see a kinder, softer side of Jacob, even though he can be suckish. Because really, you can not deny the fact that he loves and cares about Bella. Any whoo, review!! I'm writing the chapter as. You. Read. This!!