A/N: Here's the next chapter...

Princess Isabella's POV

"Where do you want to go?" I whispered as Edward and I walked. My voice crack at least five times, and despite the fact I tried to hide it, Edward heard it.

He held me closer and brushed my tears away lightly from my cheek. "It'll be okay." he said comfortingly.

"No it won't..." I mumbled, so he couldn't hear. "Tomorrow...I won't be able to face- Jake." I knew I wouldn't! Not after yelling at him like that. But he deserved it, didn't he? I knew he did...but then why did I feel so guilty? What did I care if Jacob got his feelings hurt? I didn't care...much.

But I still cared and it still hurt when Jacob was in pain because of something I did. I realized how much I still, in a way, loved Jacob, whether he was King Jacob, or my little Jake. I cared about him still, and these past few months had been hurting his almost as much as me. But I was too absorbed in myself to care; I was too busy feeling sorry for myself and my pain, when all along, there were other people hurting around me too. Jake and Alice...

Oh...Alice! She must be hurting most of all; Here she is, about to be a single mother of twins due any minute (A/N: or chapter) and the one person who's supposed to be her best friend isn't helping at all, with her attitude and moodyness and disappearing everyday. And Alice suffered a loss too; Her husband was dead, most likely because of what Edward and I decided to do. And I never even apologized. Alice had it worse than me, but she never did the things I did. Alice was a better person...

I hadn't realized it at the time, but I was sobbing. I also hadn't realized that Edward had lead us to our meadow, a place I hadn't been in the longest time.

"Bella...do you want to talk about it?" Edward held me closer now as we walked into the meadow, sitting in the grass just like we used to.

"I-just-feel-terrible..." I said between gasping and crying. "For eight-going on nine months, I've been hurting everyone I ever loved. I've hurt Jake, I've hurt Alice, I hurt my parent months before that..." I said in a rush to get it all out. "And tonight, I hurt-you..." I added in a whisper.

"No...you didn't." Edward assured me. But I knew I had; He wasn't a good liar, and I could tell at the graveyard that he was angry with me.

"I know I did." I countered, with a little more sharpness than needed. "Edward, I can tell when you're mad at me. And you have every right to be. I was stupid tonight. What happened at the graveyard...and when I kissed J-" I stopped, unable to go on. "But I didn't mean to kiss Jake. I th-thought he was you..."

"I know you would never intentionally hurt me, and I would never hurt you. And I wasn;t mad at you at the graveyard, I was furious with myself." Edward's words shocked me. Why on earth (or up above) would he be angry with himself? He didn't do anything...

"What? Why? You didn't- I was the one who-" Edward stopped me abruptly.

"I shouldn't have hurt you." I tilted my head, showing my confusion.

"How?"

"Are you serious?" Edward looked more confused than me. "I should have made every effort to come to you, or at least told you that I wouldn't be able to make it, before I left the other night."

"But I shouldn't have done something so stupid! I should have understood that you couldn't come." I countered, surprised at how angry I felt.

"How could you understand something I never told you?" Edward whispered.

"Even if I didn't understand why you didn't come, I shouldn't have been so reckless! I shouldn't have tried to kill myself!!" Edward twinged at the words. I could tell he was upset, but I didn't stop yelling. "I should have thought about the people I loved, and how much that would have hurt them! So stop blaming yourself for evey damn thing!! Don't be responsible for MY actions!! I am not a child! I know when I'm wrong! Stop blaming yourself! You never did anything to hurt me and you know it!! I already feel like the most selfish person on the planet right now! Don't make it worse by saying it's your fault!!" It felt good to let all of my feeling go; I felt lighter, and happier with each deep breath I took, out of breath from screaming. When I had calmed down enough, I looked to Edward, giving him an apologetic look.

"I'm sorry...It's not you, it's me."I smiled weakly at my accidental use of break-up words.

"No matter what you say Bella...I will always feel guilty about everything. Because that's just how I feel. You can't change how I feel, Bella." I listened to his words carefully.

"I-never thought of it that way..." I whispered. "But I hate you feeling guilty. I wish I could stop that. I am capable of taking care of myself... But...I guess I'm showing that, running away to your grave, trying to-" I stopped, realizing the effecr my words might have on him.

"It's not your fault. You've been through so much." Edward shook his head.

"So has Alice..."

"But you have someone to be there for you."

"So does Alice...me." In that moment, I made myself and Alice a promise to be there for her. No one should got through what she was going through all alone.

"She's very lucky."

It was quiet for a little while after that, the brooke in the back splashed lightly and a few crickets chirped. It was nice; For the first time in what seemed like forever, I could breath easily. All my problems seemed to evaporate now, and at the time, they seemed to never be coming back. And though I knew they would eventually, I didn't worry about that. I just enjoyed the present sense of serenity and peace, completely content wrapped in Edward's arms.

A/N: Sorry about the delay (again). I'v just been busy all summer. I'll try to speed things up though, I promise. You just keep reviewing!