Before I Fall

I came back that night, with my luggage in hand. Of course, I wasn't really planning to live in her room, but if she asked, then I would. Bella was like an angel, and me and my family had been blessed to have her in our lives. Edward, however, had thrown her away like she was some trash. It had been hard for him to do so, I know, but it wouldn't make it the more better if he was suffering silently, while Bella had already been left broken.

On that night, we talked about many things, and we were avoiding the topic that would bring pain to her; Edward. Well, I was avoiding the topic, since I knew that she had tried to ask about him in my visions. And since being myself, I had asked her unnecessary questions just so I wouldn't have to answer her curious questions about Edward. I didn't want her to think about him, let alone be hurting over him. Her being broken was enough, and me being so drawn to her was too much. I was falling deeper into that word that called love, and it was dangerous. Somehow, in my head, I knew that she was still madly in love with Edward. I didn't mind to be her Edward, but, it would be so wrong and it wouldn't feel right.

It was really late at night, and I had told her to go to sleep then, especially when she looked like she was about to pass out from the lack of sleep. She complied, but it didn't really help when she was just tossing around. At first, I thought she was just having a nightmare, but when I listened to her heart, it was steady.

"Bella, what's the matter?" I asked softly, and she stopped tossing. She turned to me, a rather embarrassed look on her face. Her cheeks were deepening in a pink shade, and I couldn't help but smile at the sight.

"I can't sleep." She murmured. It was low, but I could pick it up very easily.

"Why not?" I asked, slightly curious.

"Well, Edward always lay by my side while I sleep. Ever since he's gone, I just can't seem to really, sleep." She struggled with the words, especially at the memory no doubt. I sighed softly, and moved over to her. She looked at me quizzically, but then she understood what I was trying to do. She moved to make room, and in a second I was lying beside her.

"Would you sleep if I lay by your side?" I asked. Even in the darkness, while the moon was shining dimly into the room, I could see her eyes sparkled at my question. I smiled at that, since that sparkle, was for me.

"I'll try, how about that?" She asked, rather playfully I may add. I chuckled at her, before tugging her in and kissed her lightly on her forehead.

"Alright, sweet dreams Bella."

She blushed, her eyes closed and she was snuggling into her pillow. The sight of her was adorable, and I settled back to watch her. I didn't know how long I was watching her, but I knew that she wasn't asleep. I think that I wouldn't know, since she seemed to not be moving.

"Bella, you're not asleep aren't you?" I asked, and she sighed. Her eyes slowly opening. When they fully opened, she looked straight up to me. Her eyes told me everything; she was feeling guilty that I was trying to help her sleep when she couldn't.

"No…This might sound silly but…" She bit down on her bottom lip, and I could see that she was trying not to draw blood. Then my eyes clouded over, and I saw what she was going to ask me. I smiled then, even after the vision had faded.

"Alright, I'll be your Edward for just one night." I answered her unasked question. She blinked, before huffing adoringly. I couldn't help but giggle at that. I opened my arms towards her, and arched an eyebrow. "You're not going to use me as your pillow now?"

She blushed, then gently pushed me in a playful manner, before settling into my arms. I chuckled as I gently wrapped my arms around her. I didn't know why she'd prefer a stone cold pillow to a soft pillow. Bella was a strange girl, but in a good way. To my surprise, she fell asleep in less than a minute. Was I that comfortable? I would have to ask her this when she wake up.

I listened to her rhythmic heartbeat while she slept. It was soothing, and I found myself lost at the sound of it. So this was what it felt like to be laying next to Bella, when she was asleep. Not only that, she had snuggled up to me during her sleep. Her weak hands were grasping tightly on my shirt, clinging to me like I was going to fly away. I wouldn't, and I won't. I've made a vow to not leave her again, and I will not break it. It was then that she began to talk, and at first I thought that she had woken up because of my cold temperature, but it was just her sleep talk.

"Don't leave me, please…don't…" She murmured, and her body shook uncontrollably. I looked down at her with worried eyes, and immediately noticed the tears that were slowly rolling down her cheeks. I leaned down, kissing the tears away.

"Shhh, I'm not going anywhere." I whispered softly into her ear, and her body stopped shaking. Her breathing became even, soothing, and her head was nuzzling at the crook of my neck. I had to fight the urge to moan then, and her little frantic helped me to do so.

"Alice…" She spoke my name ever so softly, and it made me blink. Sure, I had seen her calling my name and reaching out towards me in my visions, but this was real. She was calling out to me. I was in her dream, and I wanted to know what she was dreaming about. I didn't have to strain my ears to listen to her, thank you vampire enhanced senses.

She snuggled closer into me, and I could feel the heat from her body radiating off of her, and hitting my icy skin. I shivered at the contact. I know how good it felt to have Bella in my arms, but this was just too good to be true. This felt incredible, having her this close to me, without an inch of proximity between us.

"Don't leave me...Alice...Please…Don't leave…" I blinked once again. Now I was too curious to know what she was dreaming. I had the urge to wake her up, but I went against it. I only held her close then, whispering reassuring words to her, to let her know that I won't leave her, no matter what.

That was the last time that she had spoken, before settling into a peaceful sleep. I sighed then, knowing that I was falling hard for her. I willed myself not to, however, not because I wasn't sure of her feelings. Jasper had said that she loved me, but to what extend? As bad as this would sound, I wanted to make sure that before I fall, she would be the one to catch me before I hit the hard ground. Until then, I would keep this feelings inside, and waited for her, even if it would mean forever in her human life. Then again, I knew that she wouldn't be human for long, not when I had foreseen a vision of her being one of us. I bit down on my bottom lip then, because in the vision, it wasn't me that she was with, it was Edward. The future might not be set in stone, but that was what I had been seeing. Edward was in the picture, that would mean my feelings would be unrequited, as long as he was in the picture.

A/N: Thank you for all of your reviews. =]

Yea, I didn't want to make Alice fall that fast, or even confess to Bella and have her feelings totally crushed. I know what that felt like, yet I know what hiding your feelings to one person felt like as well. Either way, the outcome wouldn't going to be good if Bella didn't return her feelings for the pixie vampire. Then again, this is Bella x Alice pairing, it is bound to happen haha.