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Edward's POV

I left reluctantly from my dear Bella's side, but this time I was comforted by the fact that I knew she understood that I would be back and wouldn't do anything reckless. Of course I would still worry, but I trusted her and she trusted me enough to be back. Even though she understood everything, I still would probably come back tonight, even if I wasnt completely rested. Because despite what Bella thought, which was so wrong it almost made me angry, I wasn't just coming because I felt guilty. I was coming for myself just as much as I was for her; Of course I felt guilty about what she's been going through, but the reason I come, the reason I care is so much more than that. It's because I love her.

Even in death, we would never part. Because our bond was so strong that could last and carry far into the after life; And when Bella died...I stopped my thoughts right there. When Bella died...

As much as I hated to admit it, I couldn't help but think how things would be so much easier for us once Bella was dead. It was a horrible thought, of course but so true. I mean, things would be easier if I was alive and well, but that was not likely to happen. But Bella's death was inevitable and when the time came, I knew I would be as sad as I should be. And I had a feeling neither would she.

It would be a bittersweet moment for us both, I suppose. I would not be happy, exactly, but I wouldn't be overwhelmed with grief. But I knew that there would be many people who would be; Alice and Jacob especially. Even though none of this happened yet and most likely wouldn't happen for quite some time, I was thinking about it way to much. I was worry way to much. I was wondering- imagining- what it would be like to not have to sneak around to see Bella and to be able to stay with her as long as possible without worry. What it would be like be able to really feel her and to really touch her, like before.

But what would it be like for Jasper if Alice and his children were still alive and he still couldn't see them? What would it be like for Alice raising 2 children all alone, without her best friend? And for Jake? Because no matter what he did to Bella...I knew he really cared about her.

I don't really know what triggered all of these thoughts; Maybe it finally hit me full force what Bella had really tried to do today and in turn had triggered the fact that she would die eventually; It was then that I realized... I couldn't protect Bella from everything. I couldn't always be there for her no matter how hard I hoped. At least not until destiny brought her to me...

And took her away from everyone else she loved. But no matter what happened, I would still love her eternally. And she would die eventually. As would Alice and Jake and everyone in Forks. And to all their loved ones, death would be a guilty pleasure.

Princess Isabella's POV

I wasn't upset, I wasn't angry or even disappointed. Because this time, I understood why he left and I understood that it was not in his power to stay. And I trusted Edward and I loved him and I knew he loved me, and I felt terribly for ever having doubted that. He would come back as soon as he could, but I hoped that he would wait until her was fully rested to do so. Knowing him, he'd come back tonight, exahausted.

And if he did, I would send him off. I didn't want him in any pain or discomfort, not for me. I loved him too much and he deserved better than what I was treating him. I was selfish and wrong to do what I did tonight and the day before that. Because through it all, he still loved me and even though it would be great to be with him when I wanted for however I wanted, would it be worth the pain of Alice and her twins? They were do any minute now, and when they came I would hvae to be here. I was glad that Edward stopped me today. And I would never do it ever again.

I was able to sleep for an hour or two more; I didn't bother to move from the meadow, both because of the comforting atmosphere and because I didn't feel like dealing with Jacob.

Oh no. Jacob.

I shot up immediately, being greeted by the ironically clear nlue skies, singing birds and overall happy weather. It was ironic because this day was going to be anything but pleasant and enjoyable for me, yet the weather was perfect for it. It was the kind of day at a time I would look forward to. But not today. Because today I would have to...talk with Jacob.

For the first time in eight long months, I would have to talk to him. I would have to look him in the eye, trying my hardest not to cry. I knew what he would tell me. He would obviously tell me what I already knew; That Edward had died in an accident he had failed to tell me about. I would cry, but I wouldn't sob, because I would know that Edward was only half dead, but I would still cry from the reminder as well as a mixture of anger and Jacob. I would probably yell at him before storming out angrily to my old room. I had thought this out well. But it sounded so much easier when you said it.

It would be more painful and harder when I was actually confronted with the actually confrontation. But I would get through it. I hoped I would have enough strength; In the end, I would remind myself of Alice and her twins and. That's where I decided that I would get my strength from now on. Which reminded me, I needed to talk with Alice. She needed to know everything that was happening with me right now. I knew she had to have been hurting and now she needed to know that she didn't need to go through it all alone. She needed to know that her best friend was back and ready for anything life threw our way.

I stood up and stretched, when a felt a sore feeling in my arm. I looked over to it, and gasped in shock; I had forgotten about my self inflicted wounds. It looked like I would have to wear long sleeves until the scab healed. I decided it would be best to get dressed and maybe have some breakfast for my torture. I yawned before turning to leave, not knowing when exactly I'd be back, but hoping it would be soon.

I walked all the way to my old room, before remembering that all my clothes had been moved to Jacob's room. I heaved a great sigh, nervous and scared. I slowly walked to his room. The door was closed; Not a good sign. He was probably in there, still sleeping. I stood there for a moment, listening for anyone who might be inside. But I realized that I didn't care whether he was in there or not and it didn't matter if he was. I opened the door silently. No one was there. I sighed in relief, glad that I wouldn't have to deal with him. Despite my pep talk, I did care if he was in here or not. I changed quickly into a dress with long sleeves, and brushed the mess the was my hair. When I decided I looked decent enough, I walked down the hall, stopping at Alice's room. I had a feeling that both of us would be needing some company; Breakfast together seemed the perfect oppurtunity.

Alice's POV- (Hey, I'm back in the story!)

I had been up and dressed for hours. I couldn't sleep at all, from all the worry last night. I still wasn't sure where Bella was, or if she was alright. I was pacing around my room now, rubbing my stomach slowly; The twins had been kicking a lot lately, maybe from their mommy's stress. I tried to calm them, and myself.

I had thought up all the worst case scenerios in my head; 1). Bella was dead, her body lost forever. No one would ever find it, or know what happened to her. But in the end, we would all know. 2). Bella was still dead, but they had found her body and any minute someone would knock on my door, to tell me the bad news...

At that moment, someone knocked softly on my door. But I still heard it. This was it; Some stranger was about to tell me that my best friend was dead.

"Come in." My voice was shaky, but I tried to be strong, taking deep breaths as I prepared myself for the tears.

"Alice!" Bella burst into the room, looking perfectly fine and happy. I stared at her in shock, happy shock of course, but shock none the less.

"Bella!?" I cried disbelievingly as I pulled her into a hug. "Oh my god, your okay! I was so worried about you!" My tears came for a different reason than I thought. But I was so happy; I couldn't even express it in words. "Bella-I', glad your safe; If something had happened..." I shuddered at the thought.

"I'm so sorry Alice. I was so stupid and selfish..." she had tears rolling down her cheeks too but her smiled was wide and happy. She looked like she did...when Edward was still alive. She looked content and warm; It looked like she actually tried to look her best today, not just throw on some old thing she happened to find on the floor. I wondered what had happened to make her so different...but right now I didn't care.

"It's okay Bella, I forgive you. Completly!" Even I felt like my old self again; This was the perfect best friend moment. "But Bella, what happened yesterday?" I asked concerned. Bella hung her head down in shame.

"It's...a long story." She murmered.

"You don't have to talk about it..." I said understandingly.

"No; I'll exlpain everything. But first, would you join me for breakfast?" Her face lit up again and in that instant I knew I had my best friend back.

In the moment I knew things would get better.

A/N: See, for making you guys wait so long, I made the chapter longer. It's almost 2000 words!! A record!! I think I deserve some review-love...