A/N: Here's the next chappie! Hope you all enjoy it, and please don't forget to review!

Oh, and btw, according to the poll, there might just be a third installment to this series!! Now to come up with the plot….(any ideas??) lol please review

Princess Isabella's POV

I could immediately tell a huge difference in Alice once she saw me; Her face lit up, she looked like her old self again. Her worry and fear had been replace by shock and joy as I embraced her into a hug. But it was hard for me to act so happy. Especially once I had seen the expression on Alice's face…

It was haunting and sallow, her eyes were wet with tears that had yet to fall; She was obviously worried. Because of me. She was hurting because of me. And not just now; For eight going on nine months she had been hurting. I had been doing nothing to help her. Some best friend I was. I shut the door quietly, pressing my back against the cold stone wall as I begged myself not to cry; I couldn't. It was my turn to be strong for her. I blinked back tears before bursting in with my fake happy attutitude.

But it was only fake for awhile; Because once I saw Alice, and once I saw her smile, I really felt happy and I really felt better. Everything seemed like it was before. We were both happy and the air around us seemed lighter somehow. It seemed like things were looking up for us already.

I was expecting Alice to want a full explanation of my behavior lately; Why I kept disappearing, and why all of the sudden I was so happy (or so she thought). But I was still hoping to avoid the dismal subject, but she had a right to know. That's not one, but two painful explanations and slow conversations I would have to go through today. Why me?

We were walking down to breakfast now, talking about Alice's twins. Deciding on names and what not kept us busy for awhile. But I could tell both our minds were wandering; Alice looked like she was only half listening to the conversation. She looked at me through the side of her eyes, probably wondering when I was going to explain things to her. We were in the dinner room eating breakfast, when I decided now was as good a time as any.

"Alice, I told you I'd explain everything that's happened these past few days. And…I will." I took a deep breath in an attempt to calm my jumpy nerves; It didn't really work all that well…but whatever. This wasn't going to be that pleasant no matter what I did. "When you and I w-went shopping a few days ago, I- I saw Edward." Alice exhaled softly and hung her head.

"Bella, you didn't. You couldn't have, because-"

"He's dead, I know." I said quickly. I breathed deeply before speaking again. "But I did see him." Alice looked up now, confusion clear on her face.

"But he's dead." she whispered apologetically.

"Do you believe in miracles?" I asked with a weak smile. "Do you believe…in life after death? Don't you believe that-" I paused briefly, closing my eyes shut so I wouldn't cry, "that- Jasper is in a better place?" Alice's tears flowed freely now, running down her cheeks. She merely nodded in response. "Alice, it was Edward; It was his ghost. He and Jasper are up there. Right now; He says that Jasper is so excited about the babies and they watch us all the time. And I know how crazy I sound right now-" I said laughing lightly. "But it's true." It was quiet for a while then; It needed to be. I was waiting for Alice's answer, I needed her to say something. I needed her to believe me.

"I- I believe you Bella." she looked up now and smiled.

"Really?!" I whisper-yelled in shock. I couldn't believe it myself. I would believe me. Wow. She really was a best friend. "Are you serious?"

"Yes. You were never one to pretend, Bella. You were never that creative," She added with a chuckle.

"I guess you're right." I said laughing.

"And, I really always knew that Jasper was never really gone. Sometimes…when I'm alone, I feel like he's with me, you know? But…I thought I was crazy."

"No, you're not. You're just Alice." We laughed together than, smiling at each other.

"Is that why you've been so sad?" she asked serious now; Concern was strong in her voice.

"Yes. He was trying to- tell me he was sorry about all of this and that he was dead. But I wouldn't believe him…until he-showed me his grave." I shivered at the cold memories. "And then…I cried. That's why I went missing. But he comforted me, and promised to come back the next day-"

"But he didn't, did he?" Alice said sympathetically.

"N-no." I said. "I was so stupid last night. I was so upset and so lonely. And I just wanted to be with him so badly…and the only way I could have done that was- to go to…heaven… myself. By ending my life." I sniffled and wiped my eyes before continuing. "I- I c-cut myself…" I couldn't finish. These word were so hard to say. It was too difficult. "And I was so close to death- but he saved me." I smiled at the memory, painful as it was.

"I thought he didn't love me. But he told me he did…and I felt so guilty-" my voice cracked, but I ignored it. "That I ever doubted that. I was stupid and selfish and I'm sorry Alice. I wasn't thinking at all. I was being selfish and I didn't think at all about you and your twins. But I was in so much pain…but Edward stopped me from myself. And that's where I was yesterday. I'm sorry I made you worry so much. I'm sorry for all the pain you've had go through all alone for all these months. You've had to be strong for too long. And I promise that you'll never have to go through it alone ever again." Alice was crying silently now, and I was trying not to do the same. "Alice I'm-"

"No Bella! It's-not-your-fault! Don't apologize anymore, please!" she begged through her tears, pausing to gasp between words. "You're too good to me. You give me too much credit. Bella, I lied to you."

A/N: Cliffhanger!! Please review! I didn't get many last time. I'm writing chapter 20 right now, but I will only upload if I get 10-20 reviews. PWEASE!! L