Confusion & Hurt

It didn't take long for me to arrive at the airport. It didn't even take long for me to check-in either. I was in a hurry, and I know that Bella was also in a hurry as well. Just one look in her eyes, I could see that she so desperately wanted to save Edward. I could still see the love there, but how come it wasn't as strong as I had thought it would be? Strange. I pushed the thought back, and quickly went to the terminal with Bella running to catch up behind me. When I noticed that she nearly tripped, I slowed down so that I was only walking, as fast as a human pace would allow me to, while Bella was walking not so far behind me.

"Alice?" I turned quickly as I heard her murmured my name. However, the look on her face made my knees buckled. She looked so weak, so fragile at this moment that even with one touch, she would crumble. I stopped then, turning my whole body around so that she would stop in front of me. There were tears settling beneath her eyes, but they didn't fall. If they did, she would break down, I just knew it.

"Bella, he's going to be fine." I reassured her, and she seemed to take it. Sometimes, I wish that my words would reassure me. My visions were subjective after all, and they weren't all be right.

She took one step closer to me, and even though I longed to reach out and just embrace her, I was afraid that she would crumble in my arms. I was afraid that my strength, even only using human strength, she would break. So I let myself stand still, watching her as her hands reached towards me. It felt like years before her arms were wrapped around me, and she was swallowing her silent sobs. I sighed then, wrapping my arms around her in a soothing manner.

"Shhh, Bella, it'll be alright." I whispered softly into her ear, and she nodded in agreement; a weak nod.

"I'm sorry." She pulled away slowly, sniffling a little as she did so. I sighed, and patted her cheek gently, before letting my cold hand stayed on her warm cheek. I had learned that placing my cold hand against her cheek would relax her, and I've never been wrong in that part. She instantly leaned into the touch, and I smiled at that.

"Don't apologize, Bella. Now, we really should get going. I know that you're tired, but you can sleep on the plane."

The hand that I placed on her cheek fell, and quickly grabbed onto her hand. I didn't need to tug, that hard, since as soon as I turned around to start working, she was already following behind me like a puppy. People were staring at us, or mainly at me, but I didn't care. I've gotten used to this. However, I felt her hand heated up and I turned to look at her, worried, that she might get a sick or something.

I didn't know that she was looking at me, so when I turned, our gazes met. And only for that brief moment, I felt like it was only me and her walking to whatever destination that we were walking to. Honestly, I had forgotten where we were heading, or why we were walking in the first place. Then something flashed in her eyes, and I could see everything that deep chocolate brown eyes of hers; love, confusion, hurt…lust. My eyes must have betrayed me, because that last emotion that I just saw flashed in her eyes, it couldn't have possibly be there. Noticing that we had been gazing into each other eyes in what seemed to be like forever, I decided to break the contact, reluctantly.

"You're heating up, do you feel sick?" I asked softly, and she blushed.

"Not really, just don't like being the center of attention." She muttered, and I had to giggle at that. She was too adorable, and I wondered how Edward could even leave her so broken like this.

"You'd get used to it, soon enough." I chuckled as I looked straight ahead now that we had already entered the terminal. Everyone was about to board, and with a little tug with my hand, I quickly walked up to check-in hostess and gave her the tickets. She quickly checked us in before welcoming us on board. To be honest, I was in such a hurry that I didn't say thank, and I already felt bad about it.

We found our seats, and I chose to be seated next to the window. Bella was sitting beside me, and of course, this was the first class, so there was a lot of room for Bella to sit back, relax and drift to sleep. She didn't choose that, much to my dismay. Instead, she chose to lean close to me, in which I was happy that my stone cold body could be much of a comfort to her. We buckled in when the plane was moving out of the runway. When we were already up in the air, and it was safe for the buckles to be off, I quickly undid it and leaned back, concentrating on the visions at hand. However, I was brought back to reality at the warm touch against the back of my hand, I turned to see Bella staring straight at me with concern written all over her face, and tiredness.

"Bella, get some rest." I murmured, reaching towards her to push a strand of her hair back, and clipping it behind her ear. She sighed and shook her head.

"Even if I want to, I just can't." She answered, her head was hanging low. I sighed and gently patted her hand before removing it from mine. Already I had missed her warm touch. I quickly pulled the armrest up, and gestured for her to come. She complied without a second thought, and I didn't complain. She needed to rest.

Bella settled into my arms, and I thought that she would just use me as her pillow, but instead she went to cling tightly onto me like I was going to disappear. I knew that she wasn't asleep, so I just looked down at her and raised an eyebrow.

"Bella, you know that I'm not going anywhere?" I asked in a low whisper that only she could hear. I heard her muffled her answer to a 'Mhmm'. I giggled. As much as I liked this, it wasn't going to work, not when I wasn't that comfortable.

"What if you wake up with bruises?" I asked her once more, and she sighed. She shifted her head to look at me, and when I thought I couldn't get anymore lost in her eyes, she reached her hand up and stroked my cheek. This was confusing, very, very confusing. "Bella…"

She hushed me then, by pressing a pale finger against my cold lips. My breath hitched at the warmness against my lips, and my mind wondered what it would be like if it had been her lips, and not her finger.

"I'm just going to say, whatever happen, I don't want you to leave me, like ever." She paused then, and I simply nodded, waiting for her to continue. She did, after she took quite a deep breath. "Whatever happens, just please, don't even think about of leaving me. I don't want you to. Just…stay with me, until the end. I know that I'm being selfish and asking the impossible, but, I'm sorry, I just can't help it."

She trailed of, when her voice was breaking. I was touched by her speech, it wasn't little, and it wasn't long either. It summed up everything; the nightmare, the clinging, absolutely everything. She was afraid of me leaving her, even if we were going to face danger soon, she was afraid that was going to leave her, like Edward. I wouldn't, I won't, I would never stoop that low.

"Bella, I promise that I will never, ever leave you. I promise that I will stay with you no matter what. Now, could you please close your eyes and sleep?" My voice had sounded desperate then. Desperate to ensure her that I would never leave her. Desperate to know the meaning behind her words, other than her not wanting to feel broken again.

"Really? You really mean them?" She asked, hope filled in her eyes. I smiled, the best smile that I could offer to her, and leaned down to place a chaste kiss upon her forehead.

"Yes, I really mean them." I answered softly, after pulling back. She smiled up at me, before snuggling into me once again, but she didn't loosen her grip on me.

"Thank you." She murmured drowsily, and I already knew that she was slowly getting herself into a peaceful slumber. Well, I would make sure of that of course. I smiled and wrapped my arms around her, just to let her know that I would never let go of her, and just so I could stay close to her, like this.

"Sweet dreams, Bella." I murmured into her hair, before I closed my eyes. I wasn't listening to the rhythm of Bella's heart, as much as I wanted to. I was concentrating on Edward's final decision, and it looked like he still didn't know how to approach this situation correctly. I hoped that he would still be indecisive by the time we get there. I really didn't want to lose a brother, even though I knew how much of an idiot that he was.

I let out a rather disgusted scoff, but it was quiet enough that it didn't wake Bella up, thank Heaven for that. Edward had decided to feed on a human, but after a while of contemplating on the idea, he decided against it and went back to his indecisive mode. Honestly, he changed his mind like those human girls that couldn't decide which earrings to wear for a particular gorgeous looking dress. I thought that men were supposed to make the first decision; the first and final decision, not to be circling around with stupid ideas of how to get himself killed.

A/N: Thank you for all of your reviews. And yes, we all want Edward to die, unfortunately I cannot kill him. It's too simple, it's like killing him would just mean that we forgive him for what he had done to Bella. So crushing him from the inside is a good choice. - Cackles evilly -

Anyway, I'm rambling on these chapters. I wanna get to the Volturi already, but this was a nice chapter. And Bella is going to have a very sweet dream haha. At least she wants Alice to stay by her side, but what about Edward hmm? Best friends don't cling. Bella's a clingy person. I wanna smack her. Lol.