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Chapter 5

Serena van der Woodsen wasn't a person, who was often taken by surprise; it was totally out of ordinary for her.

"You want a ticket to New York?" she asked her niece completely confused.

"Yes."

"But what do you want there?"

Audrey thought about that question for a second. What didn't she want there? Everything she was hoping for was in New York, everything she thought she'd never get was there, she had to go there, to find her father and to find herself because she didn't know who she was anymore. She finally knew how and most importantly who her parents were, she finally knew where to search for the father she'd known.

She was about to open her mouth to respond just that.

"Serena, I think I can explain", Harold raised his hand to get their attention.

"Well, I told you about the letter, which I gave to Audrey, it's from Blair, she gave it to me before… I think she explained everything to her, so I guess she wants to fly to New York to…"

"To find my father", Audrey interrupted him. "I want to meet Chuck Bass."

"Your father?" Serena asked her voice was weak.

"Yes", Audrey replied, she suddenly wasn't too sure, if she did the right thing. Her aunt sounded so sad, so confused and vulnerable.

Serena closed her eyes and inhaled deeply.

"So you want to meet your father?" she repeated.

"Yes?" Audrey noticed that her reply sounded like a question itself.

"DON'T YOU DARE CALL THAT BASSTARD YOUR FATHER!" Serena shouted all of a sudden.

Audrey, Harold and Roman flinched back synchronous.

"Serena", Harold warned her drastic.

"No, Harold, not this time!"

"But, but you told me he didn't know", Audrey stuttered.

She wondered why her aunt was so upset, if Chuck Bass never knew that he was a father, he had never abandoned her, and he hadn't done anything wrong.

"Maybe he didn't know… so what?! He was supposed to follow her, I should have followed her! I wasn't allowed to tell him but he didn't even try to win her back, she waited for him for 15 years, I mean 9 months and he never showed up, he didn't even try to win her back!"

"Serena, is this really about Chuck and Blair, or is this about someone else?" Harold asked gently.

"Of course, this is about Blair, about whom else could this be", she cried throw her serviette at the table and ran out of the room.

"Serena!" Roman called after her.

Audrey wanted to follow her so badly but when she was on her way out Harold gripped her hand gently and didn't let go of her.

"No! Serena!" she cried.

"Audrey, let her be, she needs some space!"

Audrey turned around and faced Harold.

"You know what? I am sick and tired of all these secrets; I want answers! And I am going to get them, now!"

With that she made her way out of the room and slammed the door as hard as she could.

She knew exactly where to find her aunt. I something bothered Serena or if she just wanted to be alone for a while; she always went to the small pavilion in the garden.

"It remembers me of the Hamptons, Nate's parents used to have a pavilion like this", she used to tell Audrey when they sat in the grass next to it.

Serena lay in the grass and stared into the sky.

"You know, your mom and me, we always went to the Central Park when one of us was unhappy, or if we wanted to work something out. Chuck was completely different, he had a thing for rooftops- you're so much like him- and Nate he did run. We were different, but we were so much alike at the same time."

Audrey lay down next to her aunt and stared into the blue sky as well.

"Why are you so upset?" she asked.

"I am not."

"Yes you are. And this is not about my Mom, I can tell. So tell me, about who are you thinking?"

"You wouldn't know him anyway", Serena whispered, so low she could barely understand her own words.

But Audrey did.

"So this about a guy, huh?" Audrey smiled genuinely, and then she remembered what Blair had written about Serena.

"Is it that Dan guy?" she asked.

Serena shook her head. "No."

Then she noticed what Audrey had said.

"Wait how do you know that name? How do you about Dan?"

"My Mom told me about him in her letter, she said you two used to date before you left with her…"

"Yeah, I left him without an explanation; I left with him to go with Blair. That was right after he had told me he loved me, right after I had said it back…"

"And did you call him after you left?"

"Several times, but he didn't understand why I had to leave and I couldn't explain my reasons properly because I wasn't allowed to tell him about Blair. But I am done with him, really and for good, this isn't about him."

Audrey sat up and stared down at her aunt.

"So is there anything else you want to tell me?"

Serena chuckled and ripped out some grass.

"This is so weird, actually I should be the one who asks you about your life, who helps you to find a way through you obscure feelings and here I am listening to a 15 year old teenage girl, who is and I am sorry to say that wiser than I am. So tell me what happened to the little girl who just wanted to play with her dolls and watch Tiffany's for the 8678th time?"

Audrey laughed and punched her aunt gently against the shoulder.

"I don't know, maybe she's just around the corner… I'll go and search for her."

She stood up and walked towards the mansion.

"And Serena?"

"Yes?" her aunt asked.

"Tell me when you've figured out that this was about Nate" Audrey shouted back and pushed the doors open.

Serena remained lying there, starring at the sky and wondering what had happened to her life.

Yes, Serena van der Woodsen wasn't a person, who was often taken by surprise, it was out of the ordinary for her, but after all Audrey was Blair's daughter, nothing about her was ordinary.

When she entered the dining room again Harold and Roman were still waiting.

"Where is Audrey?" she asked them.

"She said something about dolls and that she needed to find the Audrey that was into them… I didn't really understand what she was talking about", Roman laughed and smiled brightly at her.

But Harold didn't look at her that friendly, his eyes were cold and his forehead was crimped in concern.

"I am sorry, Harold. I was upset and I spoke before I'd though. I didn't mean to hurt her or you or to mad him bad in front of her, she needs to make a picture of him herself and I won't barge in. He is my brother, though I haven't seen him like forever.

So you don't have to worry."

I understand Serena, it's just that I expected more from you, you shouldn't have said that. If you have a child you need to accept that its feelings are more important than you ones. I though you had learned that. You did such an amazing job raising Audrey, I don't think Blair herself could have made it matter but you still have to learn."

"I know, but it seems like I am not the only one who has to learn how to treat her best, if she really wants to meet Chuck I won't stop her, I would have told him 15 years ago, if Blair would have allowed me to."

"So you're flying with her to New York?"

"I am."

TBC


A/N: Okay I know this was pretty short, sorry. But I had to write it so I can go on with the story line.


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