Edward's POV

Shattered

I knew that Alice was right. She was always right. I know that my action of leaving Bella was wrong but it was to protect her. I know what Jasper did back then was out of our control, but I couldn't let that happen for the second time. I didn't like the fact that while I was trying to protect her, I had hurt her instead. The small papercut had turned out to be a big gash with her blood running down along her arm. At the sight of her blood, and at the scent of it, I had to try very hard to control myself then. Alice was the second last person to leave and Carlisle was helping her. It was then that I had made up my mind, that I will never hurt her like that again. That was the reason why I left; to protect her.

Little did I know that I've killed her instead of protecting her. She had promised me to stay safe, but that promise was broken. Then again, she never did say anything when I asked her not to be reckless. I guess in a way, it was a silent promise, one that I couldn't hear. I made myself believe that she would never do anything to hurt herself. Alice had never told me anything about her hurting herself either, so that was the reason why I was in South Africa, being alone to gather my thoughts. I hadn't hunted for a while, but I could control my thirst. I was thinking about the possibilities of me going back to Bella and apologize, but as soon as I was about to go against it, the phone rang.

It was Rosalie, no doubt about that, just judging by her voice I knew that she was annoyed about something. Then she said that it was time to go back home, back to Forks. I was confused, but I had told her that Bella was still there, and we couldn't go back there now. It was then that she snapped, and told me that Bella had died. That Alice had saw Bella jumped off a cliff, and didn't see her come up. My whole body tensed, and I hissed at her before hanging up on her. I had raked a hand through my scalp, trying to calm myself down before picking up the phone once more to dial Bella's number. I didn't have to wait for long when someone answered the phone; Alice.

"Hello, Swan Residence." Her soft chiming voice came through the receiver. And immediately, I tensed. If Alice was there, that could only mean one thing…

"Alice, is Charlie there?" I asked, there was pain in my voice but I tried as best as I could to hide it, and it worked.

"No, he's at the funeral…" That was the only five words that I heard before I crushed the phone in my hand. The funeral, Bella was dead, and it was my fault. It was all my fault. She was dead. I had killed her. My reason for living had been shattered. I wanted to go to her, even if I knew I wouldn't be in Heaven. I might go to Hell for all the sins that I've had done.

That was when that I quickly booked a plane to Italy. I knew where I was going to go. I knew what I was to do. I will go to the Volturi and ask for a death sentence. There was nothing going to stop me. I couldn't let her die alone. I would come to her and keep her safe, and never leave her again. When the flight agent confirmed my ticket, I quickly left my room and towards the airport. I boarded the plane and impatiently waited for the plane to get to Italy, all the while trying to think of a way to ask for a death sentence. Kill a human? That would be the perfect decision. So I decided on that.

While I was thinking of a way to kill a human, the perfect way to provoke the Volturi, the plane landed and soon enough I have departed. I didn't need to steal a car when my speed was much more convenient. I sprang towards Volterra and arrived at the blackened city just several minutes later. I caught the scent of a human then. It was intoxicating, but it wasn't mouth watering like the scent of Bella.

Bella, the name rang in my head and immediately my mood to hunt vanished. I couldn't kill a human. Only because I couldn't just destroy what Carlisle had worked for in all of these years. And I couldn't hurt a human, knowing that I had once killed human, the love of my life just by leaving her. So the idea of killing a human was gone and out of my head, and I found myself walking under the ground now, and towards the castle that was the Volturi. They were expecting me, but I didn't care. I needed the death sentence, so much that I needed human blood itself.

The giant double doors were soon to be opened, and I walked in. Sitting on the three throne chairs were none other than Marcus, Aro and Caius. Aro, the lead, while the other two were second in command. I walked straight up to them, my face was stern and I knew that I might look pathetic then.

"Aro, Marcus, Caius." I nodded towards them in a greet, and they returned the gesture. "I'm here to make a request."

"And what may that be, Edward Cullen?" Aro asked. And I could hear what he was thinking. He wanted me to join them. The thought was repulsive.

"A death sentence." I simply said. The three of them didn't make a move.

"I apologize my dear, but I could not give you that. you haven't done anything for us to give you a death sentence." Aro said, and with that he ushered me out. I turned sharply, and I knew then what was going to do to break their rules. I would show myself to the humans, knowing that today was going to be their festival. The sun would be high on the peak at noon, and that would be when I would expose myself to the humans' eyes.

I went to the clock tower, and waited for the right time. Everyone was clapping and cheering in delight, but their thoughts were soon drowned out from my mind. I could hear nothing, I could feel nothing. My whole body felt as if it was just a dead corpse that was walking out in the daylight. Bella was the only reason that I'd live for, but with her gone, that reason alone was meaningless now. Then the clock strike twelve, and that was my cue to go.

I didn't know if it was possible, but time was traveling pass so slowly. At each and every step that I took, I got that much closer to the sun. I was pulling off my meaningless of a coat. I closed my eyes, and as soon as my body was fully out in the view of the sun, something, or someone, crashed forcefully into me. Then her scent hit me, and I knew that I was in Heaven then, so I stepped inside the clock tower with my arms wrapped around her.

"Heaven." I murmured out softly, burying my face into her hair, letting her scent surrounded me. Bella pulled back, so I opened my eyes and gazed deep into her warm chocolate eyes. That was when it hit me, she was alive, here in my arms. Oh, I was so happy to know that she was alive, so happy that I quickly leaned in and captured her lips in a passionate and longing kiss. However, something felt different. No, her kiss felt different, it wasn't like she was holding back, like she was regretting it.

I pulled away from her then, and I looked down at her longingly. She looked back up at me, and smiled. Her smile held nothing but sympathy, but why? Perhaps because I nearly committed a crime that the Volturi would never ignore. I chuckled at the thought, and shook my head.

"Don't blame yourself Bella, I should be the one that is to blame. I left you, I've never meant to leave. I love you, and I thought leaving you would protect you, but I was wrong. I'm sorry for causing you all of these pain. I'm so sorry Bella." I quickly said with the sincerest sympathy in my tone. Then I leaned down and captured her lips once more. At first she didn't kiss back, and when she did, the kiss was hesitant. I didn't understand what it means, but she was here now, and I was happy. Then I heard thoughts approaching us, so I pulled away and looked straight forward at the direction they were coming from; Felix and Demitri.

"Edward, Aro is waiting for you." Demitri and Felix stopped as they neared us, but in a good distance. Their eyes flickered towards Bella who was stood behind me, before they looked at me for my reply. I turned to Bella, and smiled at her encouragingly.

"Bella, why don't you go and enjoy the rest of the festival?" I murmured softly. She looked at me like I was crazy, but I just continued to smile.

"No, the girl will come with us." Felix said and I snapped my head up at them. A growling was soon settling under my throat.

"No, you can go to hell." I said sharply and glared at him. I was going to attack, until Alice came barging in. However, my eyes were on the two of guards, and I could hear her thoughts, she was telling me to keep my composure. So I did.

"Come on guys, let's not fight. We have ladies present." Alice said in her cheerful tone. The two men stepped back, and then I heard another thought, and her voice came along. Jane walked towards us, gave the two bodyguards a sideway glance before turning to look at the three of us.

"Aro was wondering what was keeping so long." Was all that she said before she turned and started to walk towards the underground terminal. We all followed, and behind me I heard Alice whispering words to Bella.

"Just do what she said." Alice whispered softly towards Bella, while Bella stayed closed to me. However, it felt like she was only staying close to me because she didn't want me to die. The thought made me smile, but only in my mental mind.

We followed Jane, and soon enough we were back where I was before, inside the grand interior. The three of us stopped in the middle of the area, while Jane swiftly walked over to Alec. My eyes were on Aro, his mind was only on one thing; to see if I have committed a crime or not.

A/N: Yes, I know that it's Edward's POV, but I know where I'm going with this. And I am not going to spoil anything as much as I really want to. It's tempting really. But yea, there is going to be a major twist, well not major but to me it sort of is. Lol.

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