A/N: Hey sorry for the wait but my computer crashed down and I had to start over again. I didn't over read this so sorry if there are many Errors but I am too exhausted right now-

And I am actually supposed to learn for my French exam, I'll be so dead lol. But I just had to write this.

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Okay this Chapter is dedicated to Heleen (because her name didn't show up at the least chapter dedication,) cross your fingers for me that it'll this time.

Chapter 9

Audrey stood in front of the large mirror and starred at herself.

She was beautiful, was it arrogant to say that about herself? She didn't know all she did know was that she looked beautiful; she looked like her mother.

She wore a classic black dress that reached her knees, classy, elegant but not boring, sexy but not too sexy.

Serena had shown her a picture of her mother's 17th birthday party; there Blair had worn a dress which had been very similar to Audrey's. Audrey had even done her hair up so she looked like Blair. She wanted him to recognize her, she wanted him to know who she was but she didn't want to tell him.

How do you tell your father that he's your father?

Do you go to him, stop in front of him, greet him, shake his hand and then you say: "Hello my name is Audrey Serena Waldorf or should I say Bass because you're my father. I know that you don't know that and I know that you must be surprised and shocked but it's really nice to meet you. Oh and by the way my mother died 15 years ago so you're the only parent I got left. So, how do you feel today?"

No, that was definitely not the best way. So, she decided to wait for him to recognize her but she was scared that he wouldn't.

"Audrey? Are you coming?"

Serena entered the room without knocking but stopped immediately when she noticed Audrey.

"Oh. My. God." Was all she could choke out.

Audrey turned around and looked at her aunt she wore an amazing white dress that reached her ankles. It was decorated with plenty of Swarowski crystals, that were reflecting and breaking the light, so it was dispersed over the whole dress it looked exclusive.

Her blond hair covered most of her bare back, so even though she looked stunning she didn't seem easy.

"What?"

"You're the image of your mother!"

"Um, thanks… you don't look so bad yourself, truth be told you look gorgeous."

Serena gave Audrey her best top model smile, the smile other girls are practising in front of her mirror for years but never learn. This smile that was the reason every man desired her and every woman hated her the moment she entered a room, well maybe it was just one of the reasons, considering her big blue eyes, her shiny blond hair, her exclusive figure, but that's besides the point.

"So are you coming?"

"Yeah, I just need a moment."

Serena winked at her, "Okay, I'll tell my mom."

She was half out of the room when she turned around a very last time and said:

"Audrey? I think you should wear the Erickson Beamon necklace… if you really want to look like her you should wear it, he'll notice it."

Then she was out of the room.

"Yeah, maybe I really should wear it", Audrey whispered to herself. It was not that she hadn't thought about wearing the necklace before, but she was scared. She honestly wanted him to recognize her but then what? What would he do? Would he say: "Hey you look like Blair and you have my chin, you must be my daughter? Where's your mother anyway? I always wanted to apologise to her, she's the love of my life, maybe we can get married and then we will be happy family."

That was even worse then the first idea, not that it was bad itself, it was what she always had wanted, a happy family with her Mom and her Dad and maybe a brother. The bad thing was that it wouldn't come true no matter how hard she wished for it.

She walked to her mirror and in on of the drawers of the antique dressing table she found the box she had hidden there just a few minutes ago.

She opened it and stared at the precious piece of jewellery. She slowly breathed in and out, tried to pull herself together and took the necklace out of the box. Then she put it on, her hands were shaking when she looked in the mirror to see how the necklace suited her, the tears began to stream down her cheeks, she tried to fight them, she tried to wipe them away but after a few aimless tries she let them stream down.

"Oh my god, I can't do that!" she suddenly knew.

"I… I… I can't do this, I can't meet him, I can't tell him everything… I just can't!"

She felt to the ground and buried her face in her arms.

"I can't do this!" she shouted.

"Audrey?" Eric asked carefully as he entered the room. He made his way to the small figure on the ground and sat down next to her.

"You can do this", he said. "You have to do this."

Audrey raised her head and her eyes met Eric's.

"What do I have to do?" she asked him, her voice breaking.

"You have to tell him."
"Tell who?" Audrey played dumb.

"Do you really think I don't know who you are? Do you really think I didn't notice the second I saw you? I thought that you're pretty intelligent, maybe I was wrong."

"Oh I noticed. I noticed the way you looked at me but that doesn't mean that I have to accept it, this is not your business."
"It is."

Eric reached out and put a hand on her shoulder.

"Chuck has been miserable since Blair left, he acts as if he doesn't care, but he does. I never thought that he'd ever fall in love but he did. I although never thought that he'd fall in love with his best friends girl but he did. And I never thought that anyone could bring Blair Waldorf down; he did. And he regrets it, he regretted it since ever. I think, he never wanted to hurt her, well okay maybe he wanted but he never thought he could. She was Blair Waldorf the ice queen of the Upper East Side; she didn't run away, she fought. I just think that he wanted her to turn to him so that they could scheme together, just like old times. Yes, maybe that's what he wanted to turn back the time."

"Well he can't, okay?"

"I know that, you know that and he knows that but that doesn't change the fact that everyone wishes that. We always wish that we have some kind of rewind button in our life, to turn back the time, to start over again so you don't have to make the same mistakes. It's naturally one of the things you can always be sure about, you'll make mistakes, and you can't plan your life. You know, Blair always used to watch the same movies over and over again. Do you know why she did that?"

"No", Audrey answered honestly.

"Because then she knew how things would turn out."

"That's wise."

"No, it isn't. Life is about making mistakes you have to make them, so you can learn of them. If you know how things will turn out, where's the fun in that?"

"Life isn't all beer and skittles", she said.

"No, it isn't, it's cruel but there's also a lot of fun in life, you just have to make the best of everything, no matter what happens, remember that it always could go worse and that you're not alone."

"Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're gonna get."

Eric sighed annoyed.

"Would you please stop reciting everything that comes to your mind?"

Audrey rolled her eyes, she had to laugh. Eric was really funny and he was right, she had no choice she couldn't run away anymore.

"Sorry", she smiled at him "I just can't stand that you're so wise."

He laughed out hard and said: "My sister really has influence over you, doesn't she?"

Audrey nodded sadly. "Well she raised me, how could she not have influence over me?"

"Yeah, you're probably right. And of course, you have the typical Waldorf meltdowns, but besides that Blair and Serena did a pretty great job."

"Yeah, yeah, I think they did." Audrey stuttered.

Eric stood up, gave Audrey his hand and lifted her up off the ground.

"Come on, they're waiting downstairs."

"Okay", Audrey muttered and looked one last time in the mirror. "Let's go."

Eric looked down at her and stoke briefly through her hair.

"Thank god, your make-up is water-proof", he chuckled when they left the room.

"Audrey, calm down", Lily told her.

"I'm sorry."

Audrey couldn't help herself but to stare out of the dark tainted limo window.

"But I grow up in France; I never drove in a Limousine before because I usually took my bike to school and Serena always drives a SUV. And it's so exciting to be in New York, I wasn't really excited before but now that I see all the lights and the Empire State building I just feel home? You know? Well you probably don't you grow up here and all but I don't know it's just all so great and… I think I'm talking too much."

"Oh no go on, I am actually enjoying this", Eric smirked.

"Eric stop making fun of her, I remember the first time we visited Berlin you squealed like a four year old and you were actually 16 and what's the most important fact you're boy; Audrey is a girl it's naturally for her to giggle and to be excited."

"Oh, shut up I just liked the "Brandenburger Tor"."

"I actually do understand you", Bart interrupted their little fight.

"When I came to New York I felt the same way and I was an adult. It's just New York, it makes you feel this way, no matter where you come from, no matter how old you are. It's stunning, it's impressing, and you can't fight that feeling."

Suddenly Audrey was interested, this was her grandfather she wanted to know his story, he was after all a part of her family, and it was her story as well.

"Why did you come to New York?"

Suddenly the tension in the limousine increased drastically and Eric and Lily stiffened in their seats.

"Did I ask something wrong?" Audrey asked shy.

Bart shook his head.

"No, no you didn't. It's not as if it's a big secret or so. I grow up in California, went to school there, after that I went to USC, there I met my wife. After my wife died in childbirth and I was left alone with my little son I couldn't stay anymore in California. I had to leave so I moved to New York where you can find dispersal easily. Well at least they tell that about New York, but I couldn't forget her. I think that it was because of Chuck."

"Who is Chuck?" Audrey asked carefully, it was really hard to keep her voice stable but she managed to do it. She didn't know how, she just did, though it was nearly impossible.

"Chuck is my son. He's the male image of his mother and every time I looked at him I saw her. So I tried to look at him as rarely as possibly but that didn't work it, all it caused was that he thought that I blamed him for his mother's dead and now we lost contact, I just meet him at social events once or twice a month. Lily did you send him an invite for tonight?"

"Yes, I did. And he said he'd come."

Bart silently nodded.

"Okay." Then he looked at Audrey. "I don't know why I'm telling you this, considering I don't even know you but you… you just seem so familiar. So I'm telling you: I miss my son, and I am regretting that I was never there for him."

"Okay" she said, she couldn't say anything else.

Bart sounded so sad, so vulnerable, so lost.

"And did you blame him?"

Why the hell are you asking him that? He wants to forget everything and all you do is to rub it his face. She thought.

You're so stupid. Keep you mouth shut Audrey.

"No, I never, as I said I just couldn't look at him. I never blamed him, the person I blamed was myself because it was my fault not his, he was just a baby. He was innocent."

"Did you tell him?"

"No, no I never told him."

"Well, maybe you should have", Audrey whispered.

I am one to talk. I am the one who has to tell him that he's my mother, I am the one who has to tell him that I am the one who killed her… and if it's true what Serena and Eric are saying then I am the one who killed the woman he loved. Great Audrey, just great, as if it all isn't hard enough!

"Do you think he would understand if someone else died?"

"What do you mean? What if someone else died? Well, why would he blame anyone?"

"Nothing, just forget it. I was just thinking."

"Okay."

Audrey looked out of the window again and in the reflection of the tainted glass she saw Bart starring at her.

"We're there", Lily announced as the limo stopped.

They got off the car but Audrey didn't move she remained starring out of the window.

"Audrey?" Bart stuck his head through the door.

"We're there, you have to go out" he told her patiently.

Audrey flinched and raised her head quickly.

"What?" she asked confused.

"We're there, you have to go out."

"Oh."

Then she suddenly realized what he was talking about.

"Yes, I am so sorry." She stood up and wanted to get out but her food was stuck between two of the seats and so she flew out of the open door and nearly hit a wall.

But two strong arms slung around her waist before she was introduced to the not so comfortable wall.

"Are you okay?" asked a foreign voice.

"Yes" she answered automatically. "I don't know what happened, I am usually not clumsy."

"Well, then it must be fate that you flew into my arms, or was it purpose?" the voice continued.

Audrey looked up at the person who was rude enough to say something like that to her.

"No, it was not purpose", she told the boy she was looking up to, he was about her age, maybe one or two years older and very good looking. He had hazel eyes and dark brown hair that reached his ears.

And she noticed the pit marks that showed up when he smiled, he didn't look childish with them he looked cute, yes but there was also something mysterious about him, as if he had planned a trick and now he was laughing about the naïve people who didn't know anything about his plans. Yes, he definitely was the plotting type.

"If it had been purpose I wouldn't have flown in the arms of some pig like you and if it was fate, well then it's my destiny to do this", she continued and kicked him as hard as she could.

Her 6 inch Manolos hit his shin and he groaned loudly.

"Oh, sorry but I just can't fight against fate" she spat and turned around.

Lily, Eric and Bart were starring at her with widened eyes. Serena just chuckled and shook head.

"Audrey stop it, you could think you haven't been raised well."

"I'm sorry" Audrey claimed sheepish. She was a very good liar.

"Apologise young lady", Serena said strict.

Audrey shook her head but then she turned around a focused the boy who was caressing his shin.

"I am sorry". Yes, she really was a good liar.

"It's okay; by the way my name's…"

But Audrey didn't care. She had turned around again the moment the false apologise had left her mouth and demanded: "So can we go inside?"

"Sure", Bart responded. "Well done", he whispered low so Serena couldn't hear him.

"Thanks", Audrey replied in the same way.

"You know", Lily said lost in her thoughts, "Bart was right. You really do seem familiar."

"Audrey? Are you looking for someone?" Lily asked the girl.

"No. No, I'm just admiring this glory.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" Serena asked. "I almost forgot the famous glory of the Palace. Why did you move out Mom?"

"Well, you won't believe this but after Chuck cut contact to Bart, your step-father didn't want to stay here anymore because he was reminded of his lost son every day and so he bought the Waldorf Astoria and we moved into a penthouse there. It's not as if he wouldn't be thinking about him there but at least we tried."

"Poor Bart" Audrey said, she really felt sorry for her grandfather and she didn't understand what happened to the Chuck Bass her mother had written about.

"Is his son here?" she asked Lily.

"No he isn't, not yet."

"Aha."

"Hey there's someone who'd like to meet you." Lily suddenly said, gripped Audrey's hand and pulled her right through the room. She stopped in front of a blond woman and a girl in Audrey's age.

"Audrey these are Jenny and Brooke Humphrey. Brooke Audrey just arrived from France, would you mind taking care of her?"

The girls eyed up each other, Brook was beautiful, and she had long, blond hair and blue eyes.

The deep blue dress she wore made her seem older than she truly was.

"Hey Brooke, it's nice to meet you" Audrey greeted her.

"Likewise" was all Brooke had to say.

"Well I guess you girls have much to tell each other and Jenny and I have to catch up either, so have some fun" Lily winked at them and she disappeared with Jenny following her.

"So…" Audrey started. "You're Mom seems nice."

"Yeah."

"She always seems pretty young", Audrey said carefully.

"Mhh, she gave birth to me in her sophomore year."

"Oh…"

"You have a problem with that?" Brooke asked harsh.

"No. Actually not, my Mom gave birth to me in her senior year, so I think we have something in common."

"It seems so… So what school are you going to?"

"Constance Billiard…"

"Ah. Oh god I love your dress, where did you get it?"

"Thanks, it's an Eleanor Waldorf original. My mom works for her and she's a designer, too, her label "Jenny Humphrey designs" is quite popular right now."

"Eleanor Waldorf? Is that Blair Waldorf's mother?"

"Yes. Do you know her? God, you have to tell me anything. They say that she disappeared someday and never showed up again."

"Um…" Audrey stuttered. "No, I don't know her; I just heard some things about her."

Brooke laughed.

"Well, I heard some things about her either. She slept with two guys in one week, she was such a slut."

Audrey clenched her fist. She had to pull herself together; she mustn't hit that stupid girl who didn't know what she was talking about. She just mustn't.

"I… I gotta go" Audrey said, turned around and fled.

She looked down to the ground so that nobody would notice her, she was afraid that anyone could recognize her just as Eric and Bart had recognized her.

I have to get out of her she thought when she rushed into someone.

"Look out!" someone said harshly.

She slowly raised her head. She knew this voice though she never heard it. Well maybe she had heard it in her dreams; maybe that was the reason the recognized that voice, there wasn't another assertion why she knew that voice, she couldn't know it. Or maybe it was what the boy before her had told her, it was fate. Maybe it was fate that she run in the one person she was fled from.

So she raised her chin and looked into his eyes.

"I'm sorry", she told Chuck Bass.

TBC

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