Bella's POV

Excruciating Pain

I've never thought that this day would come. I thought that I would at least have more time to prepare for this, but it all came to me all too sudden. I thought that I would at least have one part of my human life to be completed. And as shameful as that part was, I was still a teenager, and I have my needs. Edward had never really been keen to fulfill that part, but I've never thought to even seek for the second best. I didn't even thought of swinging over to Jacob and ask him to do so. It would come out of the blue, and it would be rude, and extremely awkward. I'd never thought that I would die as a virgin, but hey, that thought had pretty much made me feel like I had pride, sort of. But to die like this, and be revived as a completely new person just so there will be no bloodshed coming towards Edward, but most importantly, Alice, I was content of my choice.

Alice, there was so many things that I would want to tell you, but I didn't where to start. I had thought that I would tell you when you came back, but I had held it back because I knew that it wouldn't be appropriate. That, and the fact that you were still with Jasper, I didn't have the courage to tear you two apart. You had been there for me, through good times and bad times, but you still left and I wasn't sure if you did it intentionally or not. I had tried to contact you via emails, but each time I sent a message, the message would come straight back to me telling me that your address was invalid. I thought that when he left, when all of you left, I would be missing him more than I would be missing you. I was wrong. The hole that he had created when he left, didn't even compare to the hole that you had created when you left. I was confused to why it would come to this. To why that I loved you more than I would ever bring myself to love Edward was beyond me. You could read me like a book, and I had to say that no one other than Renee could do it. You completed me in a way that Edward never could, but back when Edward was still with me, I guess I was blinded by my false love since he was my first boyfriend.

Edward, I didn't know where to begin. I guess we've both found each other in very tight circumstances. You're a vampire, and I'm a human. I guess for a vampire to give out his heart for a mere average human like me could be written down as a miracle for all human beings out there. Your love never faded, and even if you left me curled up in the forest, I could still feel your presence. What I would give to have you back then was unimaginable. But every time I tried to do some damage in myself, it wasn't your voice that I was hoping to hear, it was Alice's voice. I was confused at first, but then I slowly to realize that I was blinded by the fact that you were my first boyfriend, and that my heart belonged to someone else. I love you, but the love wasn't the same as your love for me. I'm sorry, but I couldn't stand to lie to you and myself anymore.

The pain wasn't that strong, until my body started to burn at my last thought. I thought I could control the pain, and just not scream. But I was wrong. As long as my whole inside felt like burning, like the flame was scorching at all the places that it knew would give me an intense pain, I screamed in all of my might, hoping that the scream would help me to forget the burning sensation within my body. It didn't stop, unfortunately, and I couldn't move. I could feel that I was turning into ashes, and as much as I wanted to turn into ashes, the pain was still continuing to torture me. Never in my life that I felt such pain, and to an extent was that do all I wanted to to die for real.

I wasn't really thinking, not when the pain had taken all of my rational thoughts. I wanted to die at this moment just to get rid of the pain. I thought the flame was killing me, yet it was torturing me and burning me while I could still feel it. It was a cruel and slow death. And it was going forever and ever. My scream had died down, only because it hurt more to scream than breathing at this morning. Although I was sure that my breathing was coming out as ragged gasps. The burn was starting to cease, but I felt exhausted. I didn't have the strength to fight the burn anymore, and I so wanted for my body to go completely numb but it refused to do so. I wanted this to end, but it was doing against my wishes.

I've never thought I've felt the day when the burning ceased. I thought I was dead, when I felt nothing but coldness embracing me. I guess that was it, I've got my wish, and I was dead. I'm sorry Alice, I'm sorry that I didn't have the chance to tell you how much I loved you. I'm sorry that I didn't get the chance to say goodbye to you for one last time. I'm sorry for causing you so much pain. I could still remember that I told you that I wish that I had fallen for you, and not Edward. I did mean it, honestly I did. But the look in your eyes then made me realize that I was digging my own hole, so I quickly saved myself into further humiliating myself. Then when we were about to exit out of the airport in Italy, you spun around and told me that I could confess to you later, I thought that you were joking, but the smile on your face, and the look in your eyes told a different story. You had no idea how happy I was to know that you've already seen my confession, and would want to hear it again.

Suddenly there was a light. The brilliancy of it blinded me, and there was a faint voice, urging and pulling me towards the light. I fought against it once, only wanting to rest in peace now that the burning flame was gone. The light shone brighter and brighter however, and I gave up on trying fighting it. My hand lifted up, and I didn't know whether to my command or that it was doing it all by itself. I felt as if I was floating up towards the light, and once I reached the top, everything rushed back to me at once. But that didn't explain why I was in a room surrounding by people that I didn't recognize. My mind was telling me that all of these people were dangerous, and that they were here to kill me off. That was then that I got up to my feet in a speed that I didn't know that I possessed. I didn't care. I was defending myself.

My body was in a crouching position, ready to attack anyone that would even come near me. They were a threat to my life, and I would get rid of them before they would get rid of me. I took in everyone around me, and judging by their statuesque posture, they were vampires. I growled dangerously at every single one of them, warning them that I wasn't in for any games that they might get me into. Then I heard movement, and my head snapped towards that movement and gave out a loud snarl that I thought I'd never be able to produce. My eyes landed upon a female vampire. She was short, pixie sort of short. Her hair was jet black, and short, and it was pointing out in all the places possible. Her eyes were golden, the beautiful color that I've ever seen. Her facial expression was of worried, excitement, and love. Love? That confused me.

"Bella.." The female began in her soft voice, and it sounded hopeful somehow. Bella, who exactly was Bella? I snarled at her, hoping that it would make her stop approaching me. Thankfully she did, but she didn't stop talking to me.

"Bella, remember me? It's Alice." She spoke once more, much softer this time. Then I noticed something, whenever she spoke that name; Bella, her tone was always soft. I raked my brain to see if there was any memory of that name, and her name. I gasped lightly when it all came rushing back to me. I'm Bella, she was calling to me, Alice was calling to me.

I took in my surrounding once more, seeing that I was in the same room as I was human, in the same room that Alice had bitten down on me, and changed me. My hand unconsciously lifted up to the bite mark, and I felt it against my fingertips. My eyes once landed on Alice, and they slowly tore from her towards the people standing behind her. I saw Edward, his face looked…hopeful? For what? I changed my stance into a relax stance, until something blurred and appeared in front of me.

"My, my, look at you Bella. You are the most beautiful vampire that I have ever seen in my lifetime." The voice, I remembered that voice, it was Aro. He lifted his hands to cup my face, but I quickly pulled away and jumped back, snarling at him. He seemed to chuckle at that, and turned to look behind him.

"Oh, she does have restraint." He mused before turning to look at me again. Then Alice came out from behind him, smiling at me all happily. I tried to smile back at her, but couldn't, when half of my attention was on Aro.

"Bella, you remember me right?" She asked in that musical tone of hers, and I nodded, and she beamed. "Don't worry Bella, we won't hurt you." She assured me.

"Him?" I asked, tipping my head over to Aro's direction. She looked over at Aro, then looked at me and shook her head. I relaxed a little and stood up straight. Then a full smile spread across my face before my legs did exactly what I wanted them to do. I rushed towards Alice, scooped her up in my arms and hugged her tightly.

"Alice!" I exclaimed happily, noticing for the first time that my voice was different, but I didn't care. She was here, that meant that I wasn't dead in the first place. I heard her giggle, mixed with pain, so I reluctantly let her go and set her down on the ground. I looked down at her, confused to why she was feeling in pain. She replied to my unasked question by giggling up at me. Then she pulled me into a gentle hug, squeezing me with the strength that I knew that she wouldn't be using if I was human. Oh, I wasn't human anymore. That was when it dawned on me, I'm a newborn now, a newborn vampire, but that didn't change the fact that Alice was stronger than me…could it?

"I'm sorry, Bella. I'm so, so sorry." She murmured, no, she sobbed against my shoulder. I didn't know why, but before I could even open my mouth to speak, Aro interrupted.

A/N: Cliff hanger ! Cliff hanger ! Not for long though lol. I thought I'd bring in Bella, since it looks quite right. I mean, after that little fight Alice had with Edward, writing...; Three days later, she wakes up, bla bla bla, booooriingg ! So instead of saying three days later, I decided to do a Bella chapter so that when she woke up from that torturous pain, no one would be caring about the days. And I'd like to go by the Bella in the books, since I don't want her to be ripping Alice's head off, seriously. Bella is not insane, besides she faints at the sight of someone else' blood ! So yea, her eyes will be red though. And she'd be drinking more than just blood, not human blood I assure you. ;D