A/N: SO SO SO SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've just been so busy and I can't find much time to update…

Princess Isabella's POV

All night I stayed up, all the while Alice was in labor. And I didn't know whether she was alive or dead and I couldn't help but fear for the worst; the last time I had seen her, she hadn't looked at all well. Her skin was pale beyond comparison and what had scared me the most was that she had fainted; she was unconscious. What if she didn't wake up?

Edward's arms, which had a one time or another offered comfort, held no desire or appeal to me now. I supposed I was still angry at him. I didn't think I was, but seeing him try to hold me as though nothing was wrong, when in fact everything was wrong just brought back all my previous irritation towards him was brought back to the surface. He sensed it, I could tell by the awkward way he held me and wrapped his arms around my waist. How reluctant and tense I was to get close to him. We sat in silence for a hours, only my breathing could be heard.

"Bella-" he began. "Alice will be fine. I'm sure of it. I know she'll be fine." He kissed my throat gently- but in a rush. Like this would be the last time he'd see me…like we were running out of time. Maybe I wasn't the only one confused about this relationship of ours. He must have had a good reason? Something that tied up the lies he had told me? There must be something I didn't know.

"How do you know?" I said as gently as I could, so as not to hurt him further. Why was I always so absorbed in myself? Why was I so clueless and insensitive to other people's feelings and what they were going through? Why didn't I stop to think about Edward and how this all affects him? "I- I mean…Edward, you've lied to me in the past. But not like this…"

"Bella? What do you mean? I've always told you the truth."

"No Edward." I turned my back to him, shaking me head slowly. "Jacob didn't really set you free. You didn't die in an accident- He killed you." My voice cracked on the last killed.

"Bella- I never meant to hurt you. You must believe that- I was trying-"

"I know you didn't mean to hurt me. And I know you didn't want to put me through anymore…loss or pain, but Edward, pain is inevitable. You can't shield me forever. And what hurts the most is that you lied. Whether you meant to or not, you lied to me. But I'm not angry." I said turning towards him now. "I'm not mad. I'm worried. There must have been a good reason for you to lie to me, Edward. And there's something bothering you, I know it. And I wouldn't be a good wife if I didn't ask you to talk about it."

"Bella. I'm so sorry…but it's too hard to talk about."

"But I have a right to know, whatever it is." I wrapped my arms around him now, holding him close. Because now, he needed the comfort.

"You do." He admitted quietly. But he didn't say anything; probably mulling the whole thing over in his head, trying to sort things out, wondering how to tell me.

"Do you want to have a baby?" I asked the first thing that popped into my head. He had always wanted children and maybe Alice and Jasper and made those feeling known again. "Is that it?" I said gently. "Because…Edward….if you think your…condition and you not being able to have a baby- I mean, if it bothers you-"

"Doesn't it bother you? Don't you want children? Don't you?" he asked curiously turning to face me. "Because in all fairness, you could walk right out that door and leave me. Leave me- for someone who can give you want I can't! Someone who can be there for you whenever and always."

"Is that what's bothering you?" I asked. "Because that doesn't bother me one bit; I could leave you…but I don't want to. There's no one else for me Edward. Is that it? Are you afraid I'll move on?" the idea seemed foolish to me; I would never in a million years dream of leaving him; Why would I give up perfection?

"I wish that was all that was a problem in my life right now." He shook his head. "If only…"

"If that's not it…then what is?" I asked. "What do you want?"

Edward's POV

For you to leave me I thought bitterly. I wanted Bella to move on; I wanted her to fall in love with someone else, not because I didn't love her, but because I didn't want her wasting her life with someone who couldn't be there, couldn't give her children. And I wanted to make the inevitable separation easier, for her at least. I would never forget her, and I may not ever be able to move on…but at least she could. What would happen if she held false hope all her life? Waiting to join me in heaven and I wasn't there? If I was stuck in purgatory, condemned, neither living nor dead by the Volturi? I couldn't do that to her. The faster the separation the better.

"Bella- I want you to move on." I said not meeting her eyes. "Please. Before it's too late. You can have a life and you can be happy."

"But I'm happy now." She said stubbornly.

"No. You'll never know happiness until you forget me. Because I can't give you everything the living can- I can't-"

"You can give me your love. And that's all I need." Bella spun me around, looking deep into my eyes. And then I couldn't look away for those chocolate pools; I was lost. "Edward. What's wrong?"

A/N: New chapter as soon as I have the time!! I promise! Now please review or else I'll be sad.