Hallucination

Was it so wrong to fall in love with the girl that my brother had left behind? Was it? I don't know. She was everything that I've ever needed at this moment, but would I be able to give her everything that she had longed for? I know the love that Bella felt for Edward was still there, it had written itself in her eyes when she laid her eyes on him on his weakest. Was she falling in love with Edward all over again? And this time, the love wasn't false. Who was I to stop her from falling in love with my brother again? I don't know. No, I didn't know anything anymore. What was good for me to even see the future when I didn't see this was going to happen?

I faltered back, and my foot stepped onto a broken piece of furniture, crushing it beneath my heel. The sound brought the both of them out of their reveries, and I knew that there was no way turning back now. Their attention was drawn to me, and I swallowed the imaginative lump that was tightening around my throat, making it hard for myself to speak.

"Sorry…" I managed the word to get out, but it was hoarse, I was sure of it. In a second Bella was in front of me, cupping my face in her palms, lifting my head up so that I could look directly into her eyes. There it was once more, the love for Edward. Not only that, I could see her love for me, but I bet that I was just hallucinating. Maybe I was drunk on her scent, since her scent had gotten the best out of me.

"Alice, what's wrong?" She asked me, her voice was full of concerned. I bet that she was questioning the unshed tears that were building beneath my eyelids. My golden orbs flickered towards Edward, and he too was looking at me worriedly. I let my eyes dropped from him, and down to the floor. I didn't want her to see me in this state.

"Bella…please, let me go." I murmured, pleadingly. She stopped breathing, but only for a few seconds before I could hear her breath once again. Even with my face held between her hands, I refused to look at her; to look at the love that wasn't there, for me.

"Alice, look at me." She demanded, but I shook my head. I heard her sigh, and before I knew it, she had bent down to my eye level and was staring straight at me. Once again, there was that hallucinating love that I've just seen not a minute ago.

"Alice, tell me what you're thinking." She pleaded. I couldn't win, no matter how hard I tried to think that I could win, I would be wrong.

"Bella…I…" I didn't know what to say. How could I say that I doubted her love for me? How could I tell her that she was falling in love with Edward all again? I didn't know how she'd react, I didn't even want to know.

I didn't realize that Edward was beside her, looking at me as if he was pitying me. I should be the one that should be doing what he was at this moment; looking at him with pity eyes. He placed his hand on top of Bella's arm, and sighed. Alright, I knew that he was reading my mind, but if he said anything that had been going on in my mind for the last minute, I wouldn't forgive him. He shot me a look, and I narrowed my eyes at him rather dangerously.

"Alice, she loves you." He stated firmly. I heard Bella gasp, as if she had just wrapped her head around on what I've been thinking about. Instead of looking at her, I stared straight at Edward.

"She's falling in love with you, Edward." I retorted. He just let out a rude snort.

"It's not going to happen." He stated once more. I didn't believe it. I've seen the look in her eyes.

"It's in her eyes, Edward. I've seen it. It's written in her eyes when she looked at you earlier." Once again, my head was being pulled back, resulting my eyes to look straight into the eyes that was holding onto my slowly breaking heart.

"Alice, I love you, only you. What makes you say these things?" She asked, in shock no doubt.

"I think I'm hallucinating." I sighed, shaking my head to clear whatever it was that was diluting my vision.

"What are you talking about?" She asked in confusion. I looked at Edward, he was clearly as confused as she was. I sighed once more, grabbing both of Bella's hands and pulled them away from my face. Then I took a step back, and shook my head.

"The love for me that I've seen in your eyes, Bella, is all but an illusion. I think I created it there just so I can live on with the love that I purposely created in you. When you're clearly still in love with Edward. I'm sorry, for breaking the two of you." After finishing my little speech, I quickly exited the room before they could even catch me.

It was then that I decided, that we were going to go back to Forks today. I knew that Bella was still a newborn, but we couldn't just dwell around Volterra for that long. I rushed off to the receptionist desk, once again I was being greeted by Gianna. I tried my best to put on my usual Alice aura, and of course it worked.

"Hey Gianna, do you think that you could book a flight for me, Bella and Edward to return to Forks?" I asked sweetly. Gianna smiled at me and nodded.

"Alright, I'll see if there's any flight tonight." With that, she picked up the phone and began to converse in Italian. Of course, I understood what she was saying, but I tuned out from the conversation. She already knew the information, so there wasn't much for her to ask for any more information.

Within seconds, Bella and Edward appeared beside me in a flash. I already felt myself calming down, but I didn't look at them. I didn't want to see their faces, but knowing that Edward would read my thoughts, I'd have to bear with him for now.

"Alice…" Bella started, and before she could muster anything further, I cut her off. It was for the best, for the both of us.

"We're going back home. I know that you're still a newborn, but don't worry, I already have a plan."

"What plan?" Edward quickly asked, and I couldn't thank him enough for deciding to change the topic, to ease me from any further damage that Bella would do.

"We could apply bleach on her nose, so that the smell would distract her from the human scent." I answered, as if I was a robot being switched on to answer questions automatically. Well, I felt like one at the moment.

"That's a good idea." Edward commented, and I just nodded. We fell into an uncomfortable silence, and of course it was very rare for me not to speak at the moment. Gianna finished her phone call, and I turned to her immediately.

"Your flight will be in two hours. Is there anything that I can help you with?" She asked softly.

"Do you have any bleach?" I asked. She looked at me a little confused, but nodded. Without asking any question as to why I was asking such a thing, she quickly went off to it and soon returned with a bottle of bleach. Of course, while she was out of sight, neither of us did speak up. Not that I was complaining, since I could be all quiet for another hours or so.

"Here you are, do you need anyone to escort you to the airport?" Gianna asked, and I smiled at her as I shook my head no. I turned to look at Bella, in such a long time, and my dead heart nearly broke.

There she stood, in pained. Did I hurt her? Did Edward hurt her? At that last thought, I quickly turned to Edward and scowled at him. He frowned at me, and shook his head as his lips began to move. He mouthed what I didn't expect to read; 'You hurt her'. How in the world would I have hurt her? Right now, my mind couldn't dwell on that question.

I shrugged the question off, and turned to face Bella again. She had her head down, so I sighed. "Bella, would you look up please?" I asked as softly as I could, but I knew that my voice broke as I said her name.

She slowly looked up, and I took this as my chance to unscrew the lid from the bleach bottle, and applied the content under her nose. She took a sniff, and grunted in disgust. She didn't make any attempt to wipe the stuff off, so I was glad that she knew that it was for her sake, and the sake of the many innocent lives that she would have to interact soon enough.

"Come on, let's get to the airport." I said. Without realizing my action, I grabbed onto her hand and pulled her along with me.

To vampires' eyes, we were moving normally. But to humans' eyes, we were just a blur. The three of us both got inside the yellow Porsche that I had parked not so far away from the castle, since I managed to change the location of its previous parking slot. I raced towards the airport, knowing that at this rate we would arrive earlier than necessary. It didn't matter, Bella could practice on her control, not like she had much anyway since her control was just astounding.

So there the three of us sat, in the Porsche that I had stolen not so many days ago. We didn't utter a word to each other. The only sound that we could hear was our breathing, and the sound of the Porsche as it raced towards the airport.

A/N: After all that time, she still doubted Bella's love for her. And yes, everything that has just happened, she thinks that they're all but illusions. I think I should stop watching this Chinese Drama series, it's affecting this story with it's love triangle, or should I say love rectangle? At least they're going home, with Bella sniffing bleach like its cocaine. :3

Merry Christmas everyone. =D

Hope you have a great one, and not get drunk lol. My dad is already planning to get drunk tomorrow, with my mom already trying to sabotage his plan. It should be fun to watch.