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Princess Isabella's POV

I don't know how long I stayed in the meadow, hands buried in the sweet grass, hoping that maybe if I wished hard enough, Edward would be back in my arms; I don't know how long I bit my lip, trying so hard not to cry, praying silently for Edward to come back, just once more. I don't know how long I had been trying hard not to think that I had nothing to live for, before I remembered that I did. I gasped out loud and screamed to myself for being such a terrible friend. I had Alice- and Alice had twins…God I was such a bad friend!! I mentally scolded myself as I rushed to the infirmary, trying to forget everything bad that had happened to me today. Instead I thought of Alice and everything she had been through- she needed me and I needed her. We could be a family. Just the two- erm, four- of us.

When I go to Alice's room, I stopped, stepping away from the window so I wouldn't disturb them; Jasper and Alice were talking, in hushed tones. From here I could tell that Alice was exhausted, but she looked beautiful; almost glowing, as beauty and pride radiated from her fatigued body. I smiled, happy that at least they got to be together for a while longer. So stayed out of sight, and left them alone. I didn't try to listen to their conversation, but I heard parts of it. It was similar to my conversation with Edward, I suppose- it seemed we were all in similar situations…

No, that wasn't completely true- I knew it would be much harder for Alice, with two kids and no father. I began thinking about ways I could help make it easier, for all of us, but her especially, when I saw Jasper get up, quickly kiss a sleeping Alice on her cheek. He looked around the hospital room, and I saw him take a deep sigh before he spotted me. He tried to smile, but I could tell it was hard for him. I waved back and walked as quietly as I could into the room. We both looked at each other for a brief second, before looking down, silently. Neither of us knew what to say, and all that could be heard in the room were Alice's soft snores. But after a few minutes, I surprised myself from speaking first.

"Jasper…I'm- I'm sorry." He looked up, confusion spread across him face. "I don't know how hard it is for you right now, but I imagine. And I'm sorry. This is all my fault…" I looked back down to hide my tears and my shame. "I should never had- I mean, if I wasn't so selfish- if I had just stayed in Forks and hadn't run away- maybe Jake wouldn't have sent you off to war. You'd still be alive- Edward would still be alive…you and Alice would still be together- a happy family- If I hadn't-" I had to stop then, I was almost hysterical. But I remembered Alice was sleeping, and I covered my mouth with my hand to muffle the sobs.

"Bella, it's not your fault. Hell, we wouldn't even have been together if it wasn't for you." Jasper walked over to me. He hesitated, before wrapping me in a hug (A/N: A FRIENDLY HUG!!!!! THIS IS NOT JASPERxBELLA). He had never been one to show affection this way, and it was as surprising as it was comforting. It was a friendly, brother-sister hug, but I could feel his tension and awkwardness. "It's no one's fault- except Jacob's"

I shook my head furiously. "No! It's my fault…I shouldn't have- I didn't have to- I mean- But I couldn't and Jacob…" I couldn't form coherent sentences and after many failed attempts, I just gave up and controlled my crying. I took deep breaths, and wiped my face before softly hugging Jasper back and then breaking free from the embrace. "Thank you Jasper- I needed that…" I sighed shakily before sitting down in a near by chair. "But, I really am sorry…"

"It's really not your fault- death cannot be prevented. It's an inevitability." He shrugged indifferently. As depressing as it was though, he was right in a way.

"But it wasn't your time to go-it can be prolonged…" I argued.

"How do you know it wasn't our time? It's not something we can control. Yes, it can be prolonged, but for how long?"

"We can control it- Jacob chose to have Edward killed. He chose to have you taken to war-"

"But I didn't choose to die. No one does- but we all die. Even if I wasn't sent to war, I would have died eventually-I'm a knight, I go to war. I can't control what happens when I go into war."

"You can choose not to be a knight. No one made you make that choice-" I paused. "Do you regret that choice? Any of the choices you've made?" I was curious now.

I watched Jasper as he thought for a while. His face became blank and hard, as was normal for him I suppose. "Sometimes. But, if Jacob hadn't sent me away," he looked over to Alice, "Alice and I wouldn't have had the kids…she wouldn't have gotten pregnant, I mean"

"What do you- oh!" I said once I understood. He laughed lightly.

"Yeah…" he shifted awkwardly. "That I don't regret. Until I remember that I left her to raise 2 kids without a father or husband…" he looked like he would have cried. But I could tell he was trying his hardest not to. "It's hard to leave her right now…but I have to go…"

"I'll take good care of her. In anyway I can. I promise." It was my turn to comfort him. I walked over, hugged him one last time and rested my hand on his shoulders.

"And I'll keep an eye on Edward." He laughed without humor.

"Deal." I whispered. We said out last goodbyes and I thought he was going to leave; but he stopped abruptly and turned back around.

"Bella, tell Alice- and the twins- that I love them." Tears stung my eyes and a warmness from within melt my heart. I was about to answer, but before I could even part my lips to answer him, he was gone.

I waited for a few hours by Alice's side, before she woke up. Her eyes fluttered for a second, and searched the room (looking right past me by the way), probably looking for Jasper. She closed her eyes and sighed heavily.

"Of course it was a dream." She muttered.

"What was?" I asked. Her eyes flew open, she jolted up and turned to face me. Uh oh. Here it comes….

"BELLA!!!!" she screamed excitedly "Oh, Bella, I've missed you- I had twins-can you believe it? A boy and girl, Adam and Aurora. They are so perfect, oh Bella I'm just so glad to see you!!" she said all that in one breath and so fast I couldn't understand her at first.

"Alice, that's so great. I'm happy for you." I couldn't help but grin- hello, my best friend was a mom!!

"Why didn't you come and see me??" she said in fake anger and disapproval. "You could have held them!"

"…I, was in the meadow…" my tone changed to one of sadness. She caught it, because she sat up and touched my hand.

"With…Edward?" she asked. I nodded. Tears slowly streamed down my face, but I tried to smile.

"Yeah. Just, saying our last goodbyes. I came to see you after, but you were busy." I quickly wiped the tears away. No more tears. I told myself. Never again.

"Sleeping? You should have woken me up!" she complained.

"No, Alice…you were with Jasper." She gasped.

"It wasn't a dream? I thought for sure I had dreamt the whole thing…"

"You didn't, Alice. He was here. I saw him. He wanted me to tell you and the twins that he loves you. I think he told you already before he left, but he wanted me to remind you."

"Oh! Jazz…" she sighed, and looked up to keep back tears. "God, I'll miss him."

"He's not really gone. Neither is Edward." As long as I kept reminding myself that, I would be okay, I told myself; we would be okay. "We'll be okay."

"I know we will." She smiled and faced me again. "All four of us will be just fine."

A/N: THIS IS NOT THE END OF THE STORY!!!! I HAVE LOTS MORE CHAPTERS I WANNA WRITE BEFORE I START THE THIRD ONE!!! PLEASE REVIEW!!!!