Ah, Chapter 5 already. Wait...*counts how any chapters she wrote in 1 day*...4 chapters in one day? Well, technically, I wrote the first chapter at 2 am this morning, so...it's still today, right? But, hey, I gotta admit, my ideas are flowing quite nicely. And they make sense. Unlike random stories I write in my spare time. Oh, the fun of writing random stories when you're bored.... Anyway, I'm guessing it's time for....*drum roll* THE DISCLAIMER! Haha, you thought I was going to say something cool. But I tricked you, didn't I? Yeah, because I win. Oh, and you lost the game.

DISCLAIMER - I DO NOT OWN AXIS POWERS HETALIA OR ITS CHARACTERS! Well, I do own any character I make up.

Chapter 5 - Just calm down.

I wipe away the tear. Damn, I haven't cried since...Ivan first rejected my marriage offer. That's probably why I went insane. But, at least I have one good friend, who will hopefully be here, soon. I relax on the couch, my memories becoming less and less painful. Someone knocked on the door, and I jumped. Feliciano came? I walk to the door to open it, and there is it. He had a huge grin on his face, and his curl was bouncing, a sign that he's happy. He sees my face, and frowns. Oh no, I made him feel bad. Am I just cursed to make men feel terrible or something? I invite him in, and makes a run for the couch again. I sit down next to him, and I look into those gorgeous honey-coloured eyes, and break down. He hugs me, playing with my hair at the same time. Usually, it makes me feel slightly better if I'm not in a good mood.

"Bela-chan? What's wrong? What did Lithuania say, ve? Did he hurt you?" he says, sounding like he's panicking.
"No, it's not him, Italy-kun. I said that I only went out with him to get my mind off y-actually, never mind who the person is, it doesn't matter. And it really hurt him, so then...I tried to tell him that I really like him now, but then his reply was 'Save it, I don't want excuses'. I've ruined it all, haven't I?" I sob, hugging him closer.
"I don't think you have, I'm sure he will forgive you. He's not that cold-hearted, ve" he says, trying to cheer me up. "And, who was the person, anyway?" I turn bright red.
"Well...it doesn't matter now. I don't have a chance with either of them, so why should I even care or bother? I should just...disappear off the map completely. No one wants me here." I sniff.
"Bela-chan, I want you here. You're my best female friend, ve! I don't want you to disappear!" he complains, still hugging me. The mixture of cologne and pasta smells so pleasant.

You know, it's odd. We are complete opposites, yet I've never been so attracted to a guy. It's like...Feliciano is everything I'm not. Literally. He means the world to me, but yet...I have to let him go. He can never be mine. Or anyone else. I shun every guy that tells me I look cute, apart from Feliciano. Maybe...I deserve to be on my own. Ivan doesn't want me, Toris doesn't want me...the only person who wants me to exist is Feliciano. I just wish...I knew sooner that I was falling for him. Even though he's my best friend, still...I can't help it. I have to control myself, I can't ruin it now. I don't want to do anything stupid. I don't want this moment to end, though...

...what the hell? Where the hell am I? Oh, my room...hey, wait a minute! How did I get here? The last thing I remember was closing my eyes when Feliciano was hugging me...wait, is he still here? I get up from my bed, and run downstairs. Feliciano is asleep on my couch, saying 've' and his hair curl moving up and down to match his breathing. He looks...adorable. He must have carried me to my bed last night, then slept on my couch. That was so kind of him! I should really wake him up, in all honesty. I shake him gently, and he begins to wake up. He's easier to wake up today. I smile at him.

"Good morning, Italy-kun." I say, looking in his honey eyes. No honey could compare to his sweetness, though.
"Morning....? Oh no, I'm late! Germany is going to kill me! I'm sorry, Bela-chan, I have to run again!" he gets up from the couch.
"Hey, wait! Will you stop rushing off, for once? Hey, get back here! Dammit, Italy!" I sigh, still smiling. That idiot...

And yet again, I've been abandoned. Great. No one will speak to me. I could text Toris and apologize. Where did my phone go? I think it's on the couch...oh, there it is. I grab it, and send a text to Toris.
'Look, I'm sorry about everything. I had a great time last night until I said what I said. I really do like you, you know.' I frown as I get the reply. It's not a good one.
'You break my heart and expect me to forget it? After you tell me that you are in love with the pasta freak and that you only asked me out because you needed a distraction from your heart, you think I'm going to be forgiving you easily?' I send back a reply.
'We need to talk about this, obviously. And I never said it was Italy! Can't we at least talk about what happened? Please?'
'No, we can't. And it's obvious you love Italy! I think the only person who doesn't see that is the idiot himself! And what an idiot, too! He's throwing away such a beautiful gem. Call me if it's important or when you don't have a crush on an idiot.'

So, that's it. He hates me. Until I stop liking Feliciano, I...can't be happy. I'm sure I can just be friends with him, right?Yeah, maybe. I jump as someone knocked on the door. Who the hell would be at my house? Toris hates me and Feliciano is with the potato bastard. Wait....Kiku?

"J-Japan? What are you doing here?" I look at him, amazed.
"Hey, is Italy-kun here? We were meant to be meeting at my house, but he hasn't turned up. I was wondering if he'd forgotten or something." he looks at me. He's probably wondering why I'm wearing the clothes from last night.
"No, he left for Germany's house a few minutes ago. Hey, Japan, I really need someone to talk to right now..." I look away, embarrassed. What was he thinking...?
"I see... What's wrong, Belarus-chan?" he looks at me, confused. He is the only one who calls me 'Belarus-chan', and Feliciano is the only one who calls me 'Bela-chan'. Odd.
" Come in. It's too cold to be standing out there, especially with what you're wearing." I say to him. letting him in.

He takes off his shoes and walks into the living room. I follow him, as he sits on the floor. He's the only one who doesn't sit on the couch. He's a strange guy, I'll tell you that. I sit down on the couch, and look at him. I take in a deep breath, and calm down. I shouldn't panic, Kiku is trustworthy and doesn't tell anyone anything. I trust him completely. I need to tell someone, and it's either him or live with the guilt forever. Just calm down.

"It's about Italy-kun. You see..."

And that's the end of Chapter 5. Haha, left in suspence! Oh, I'm so cruel! This is the longest chapter up to now! No, these have not been written days before then put on this website all in 1 day. Nope, I write 1 chapter in about...a few hours? I think of an idea, I write it. No matter what I'm doing, my flow of ideas doesn't break. I've just got an unbeatable creativity. If I could draw, I would be an amazing artist, in all honesty. I'm getting better at drawing, though. And that's the main point. I'm getting better all the time at everything. Writing, drawing, cooking....apart from cleaning. I hate cleaning...way too much. Anyway, I'll see you at Chapter 6 (already??)!