[A/N] Here's the next chapter, I wanted to get the chapter's out at the same time so that you wouldn't be lonely with only the prologue, considering it was pretty short,

It's going to be mostly what's happened so far, and about her "secret admirer" you already know who it is if you read the prologue, but I deemed it necessary to know who it is, I don't know… But yeah…

The song for this chapter is,

If I Were a Boy – Beyonce, don't ask why, because I really, really don't know, Lol!

Here's the story!

Bella POV

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked

Ooh-Oh and I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing starts
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off

I couldn't help but sing a long,

It brought back all of the memory's that had been locked up in my mind for a while now, it felt good to let it out, to indulge into the pain that it brought back.

I missed them all, Esme, Alice, Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie, Edward and most of all Carlisle, I didn't realize this until about four month's after they left, it wasn't Edward I loved anymore,

Flashback

"Charlie?" I asked when I walked in the door, coming home from the most boring place in the world, school.

"Hey, Bells!" He yelled over the announcer's voice on the TV, "You got a letter in the mail today." That's when I noticed the envelope on the counter, the script on the front was taunting me, it was from one of them, the Cullen's.

I opened the envelope to find one sentence, one of the only things in the world that could have held me together for a little longer,

It said,

I love you, I'll be back for you, my love. Eventually,

Sign,

Your secret admirer.

Wow… That was the only thing that I could comprehend at that one moment.

End Flashback

The letter's continued on for about 3 months, I would get one every week, I would race to the mailbox, just to find a letter, a cryptic little letter. It would usually have a poem, but sometimes there would be a rhyme, or even lyrics from a song, anything.

The last letter said he wouldn't be writing letters anymore, instead he would be sending email's he said certain people from the family were getting suspicious.

The letter's never had return address's, therefore I couldn't respond, it didn't matter to me anyway, as long as the letter and notes didn't cease, I would be happy.

I was getting curious as to who was sending the notes, they were all married, at least all of them who hadn't abandoned me. But yet, even though they were married I couldn't help but begin to fall in love with whoever it was.

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I came home on Tuesday, happy because there was a letter addressed to me in the mail today; I ripped the paper to shreds. It was a little harder to do; it was a manila envelope so there was a lot of stuffing in it. I knew I would have to clean it up when I was done, but I couldn't bring myself to care.

It read this,

Hello, my love,

I find it harder to live without you, every minute, so I'm finally giving into my wishes and asking you to meet me at the school prom this weekend, I'm looking forward to seeing you, Isabella.

Not much longer and I can use my real name,

Your secret admirer,

I was fully aware that there was the prom this weekend, but I didn't want to go because I felt I would be betraying my 'admirer' to go with someone else, but it's not like there was anyone I wanted to go with.

I didn't have much time to get a dress, I would have to go shopping later today, and hope that there were still some left, after the millions of girls that have probably been through the stores with all the good dresses.

I would have to try my best, though,

[A/N] The song at the beginning was, Lost! By Coldplay, it felt appropriate for the beginning of the story, the lyrics just fit well.

Hopefully the next chapter will be longer, the next chapter will actually begin the story line, and I just needed to get this out of the way.

Please review, It make's me feel warm and fuzzy inside!