CHAPTER THREE

I had my college applications all ready to send out. Turns out I'm just going to stay in Forks. There's too much here for me to leave behind. And besides, I don't think I can break Charlie's heart anymore. Today was the big day. There was a game on and another excuse for Jacob to come over. It's not like he was going to watch the game anyway.

Ever since that night a few weeks back Jake just couldn't stay away from me and it felt only right that he should stay.

"I just don't understand. Why can't I just imprint on her." I heard Jacob talking to someone outside my door step.

"How are you so sure it didn't already happen? You act like you have. Maybe you're just that one special pack member that doesn't feel it. Or it's probably just you've already have and it's been so long since that day." Sam Uley was a voice I couldn't get out of my mind.

The thought of Jacob wanting to imprint on me was kind of strange to think about. But for some reason I wouldn't really mind if he did. I had some understandings on how that worked. I knew that you couldn't be away from that person and if you were it felt like forever. And I knew that it didn't always start with love at first sight. It started with what ever that person needs and up to the last time I was with Jacob all I needed was a friend.

"Maybe. I just want to go through it all again. Maybe it might change and I could feel the way it feels for you all. I see it all in your memories. It just feels like I'm not there yet. I love her but it's still that glass ceiling keeping us apart." his voice sounded closer.

I loved him too. God how things had changed. Now I wondered if it was possible for a normal human being to imprint because if it was that's exactly how I felt right now. I couldn't wait for Jake to walk through my door.

The mood was tensed, but full of a weird happy feeling. As I stood there, my back to the sink, watching Jacob's eyes glisten as his smile grew wide. It was almost as if he was thinking the same thing I was. Jacob's eyebrows raised and he took a step toward me.

My feelings were indescribable. My heart raced as it tried to pull away from my chest. The poisonous sweetness that came from just watching him was swimming through every little vein in my body. I couldn't speak I could only watch him. I knew I would never be able to leave him, not now. He was too important now. When I heard him say he loved me earlier I thought that's the one thing your feelings couldn't beat. But love wasn't the word for this, no, it wasn't love. It was so much more.

Jacob took the last step to me and grasped my hand. My heart thudded and my face flushed red. He put his finger under my chin and lifted it up so my gaze met his and then our lips touched. Like hot silk compressing together on a warm day.

"Its like I've always had you." Jake told me as he held my hand up against his chest.

"But you have. I needed a friend and you were there and now I need more, want more, from you." I wanted to kiss him again but time was running out.

Jake had to patrol today and Sam was not going to let him get off easy. We heard the howls less than a second later. And Jake leaned in to kiss me one more time. It was the most sensational kiss I've ever had. As it went on our lips parted and the tip of his tongue rubbed against my bottom lip. It felt like eternity and I didn't want him to leave.

Once he was at the door he looked back one more time before he sprouted into his russet wolf form. I walked back into the living room and plopped myself on the couch. My smile was enough warning to bring up any form of a conversation.

"Where did Jake go?" and there we sat. With Charlie and I having our first conversation about Jacob.

"Oh. Just to do some stuff, you know." my smile didn't deplete.

"And what's... up between you guys?" Charlie sounded hesitant. But he kept his eyes on the television watching the after game.

"You know what Charlie; I know you want me and Jake to be together." I wasn't done, but he ridded my sentence with a short statement.

"Bella, it's not like that." he left a long enough pause for me to finish my original speech.

"I was just going to say that I hope you won't get annoyed by having him around some more." and with that I met his eyes for a brief second and we both smiled.

Charlie didn't say much after that. I took the free time to go upstairs and shower. A nice hot one will probably ease the urge I had from the teenage hormones. For the first time since I was in Forks and found out about the Cullen's secrets I was actually glad my heart was still beating. Because now, Jacob made my pulse increase and warm. Warmer than it started with.

I lay down on my bed with my wet hair wrapped in a towel. I looked toward the window with a little hope that Jake would come. A few hours passed and still no noise. Then I heard a knock on the front door. Charlie was still downstairs watching a cooking show I believe. He answered the door pretty surprised.

"Jacob?! Why are you here at this time?" even though his voice was rough I could hear a smile.

I couldn't make out what Jake had said but Charlie's answer made me guess. "She's upstairs. Go ahead." he would've never said that to Edward. But who cared. He was long gone.

The foot steps made their way upstairs, light as a feather. I guess he thought I was sleeping. I sat up and held a pillow in my hands. He knocked and walked in. "Hey Hun." that was a normal greeting. It wasn't anything I wasn't expecting.

He walked over to my bed and sat down beside me. "Why did you come back?" I was confused but I longed for him as well.

"I needed to. I couldn't stand another minute away. And Sam kept telling me to leave. He said he was tired of my thoughts." he smiled as he continued. "And that he was happy for me."

"No Jake, I mean how did Charlie let you up here with out a question?" I knew Charlie liked Jacob, but I never knew he liked him enough to leave him alone at almost twelve midnight with his only daughter.

"Your father likes me. I don't know, I think it has to follow along with the imprint. I think it would be harder for this to work if we couldn't even be together." his voice was matured. So intimate at this point that I couldn't help to just stare at him.

I lay back on my bed and watched as he snuggled along side me. It looked so strange, his long body curled up to fit on my bed, but he belonged here, with me and without a problem. I needed to tell him how I felt but it felt like I didn't have to. It felt like he had already known. Nothing could make us part.

Summer came faster than I thought and I was glad I had chosen to stay in Forks for college. Jacob spent almost every night with me for the past few months and trustingly, Charlie allowed it. I didn't know what summer would be like since I had another eight hours free to be with him.

Charlie worked almost all day today and Jake and I decide to enjoy the sun a bit. We laid out a big blanket on the moist grass in front of his house. I knew Jacobs eating habits so I made sure to pack food for five people, and myself. He gobbled the food down taking less time to finish about one whole basket as it took for me to finish one plate of lasagna.

The sun grew hotter and Jake had already taken his shirt off revealing his excitingly hot body to anyone who dared to look. He nudged me setting off a chain of playful hits and tugs and soon I was braced under him. I'd known that he always let me win at these things and there was no way possible that I can even flip him over, but I always did and only because he let me. I sat there on his abdomen with his arms braced above his head and leaned down to kiss his full sweet lips.

He broke my hold on his arms with just a twitch his hand and grabbed the small of my back to push me closer to his warm body. He kissed my cheek, my chin, leading down to the hollow if my neck and lingered there. It felt good the way his mouth pulsated there in the same moments as my vein. I could feel the blood racing up to the surface of my skin and then his teeth mockingly bit me. I pulled away from him to only see a huge smile on his face. I knew he had left a mark and Charlie was going to kill me. Or not I was eighteen and I could do what I want.

"Let's go." I told him getting up and turning away to look at the window of his house where Billy sat in his chair staring out at us. It would've scared me if he wasn't smiling and shaking his head in embarrassment of being caught.

We didn't have to worry about Charlie getting home for about six more hours or more, depending on if he was going to take up a few more hours. I lead Jacob up to my room (which should really be called ours because he barely slept in his own house.) and closed the door behind us. It didn't take long for him to realize what was going on.

"Bella, babe, I don't want you to get the wrong impression, but are you really sure you want to do this?" I could see the redness flush over his face.

"I've waited long enough for you Jake and if you hold back on me one more day I think I will die. I need you." I walked back to him and held the buckle to his belt. "It was meant to be like this. I want you, forever." I raised my face up to give him another sensational kiss and his rage set out with it.

He didn't shake. He didn't need to phase. This was a different type of rage. A rage from holding back so long. But he finally set it free, one second we were standing by the closed door, the next he was carrying me to the bed with his heat radiating from his bare chest. He started unbuttoning the collared shirt I wore and kissed the skin that flashed with each undone button. To think I wanted anyone else was ridiculous.

"I love you." his voice was soft. His lips came up to whisper along my ear. "More than anything." his words made my eyes roll back. My involuntary mind always answered and I never thought twice before it.

"Love is nothing compared to what I feel for you." I answered. And with that Jacob held my hands in his as tight as he can without hurting me and continued what I started. This was a whole new meaning of love and I liked it. I never thought there could be a feeling better than his kisses.