CHAPTER FOUR

So what, it was like heaven. Like a piece of me will always be with him. I knew I wouldn't regret this nor would I want to go back in time to change things. It wasn't until a few weeks later I noticed the one thing that should have came along with it.

Yes Jacob loved me and I love him, unbearably. But as the weeks passed on and our acts continued our love grew more. "I got kicked out! Sam said he doesn't want me back until I can control my thoughts one hundred percent of the time. It's just so hard." Jacob came to cuddle beside me and Charlie walked in the door a few minutes behind him.

"Hey dad. How was work?" I needed to be normal. But there was nothing normal when I called Charlie dad.

"It was okay. And you're last few weeks of summer? What are you guys planning to do?" Charlie looked at Jacob and smiled wisely, as if he knew something more than he should have.

"Well I was thinking you and Jacob could have a guy's day out. You know, with Billy too. It would he fun. You haven't done that in a while." I just needed a few hours alone to think things through. I knew that would only be gone a few hours because Jake would be begging them to come back.

"And leave you here? By yourself?" Jacob butted his nose into the conversation looking back at Charlie as to make him agree with the hidden statement between his questions.

Charlie looked back at me and said, "That's a great idea. I have off tomorrow. We could go fishing; I'll go call your dad."

"Sure. Sure. That would be great." Jacob squeezed me tighter on to his lap and I rested my weary head on his chest.

"I love you." I told him. I knew he could never hate me, but I wasn't sure how his reaction would be like after tomorrow.

"Well not as much as I do. You're lucky I'm letting you off on this one." he lingered at my ear and then turned his face away and mumbled something like 'can't believe you actually want to stay along. Crazy, crazy.'

Billy and Jacob were at the house before the sun fully rose I was still half asleep but was aware of when they had left. I got up and went to shower. Then I got dressed and took a ride to the pharmacy in town. I was hoping no body I knew was there, it was embarrassing already.

I looked around the isle not finding what I needed and not knowing what I was really looking for. Instead of asking someone for help I just looked like I knew what I was doing. No one really played attention to me. Finally I picked up the box and went to cash. I was glad it was still early and not many people were outside at this time. I gave her the cash for the item and went on my way.

When I got home I took the box and ran to the bathroom not caring to lock the door behind me knowing there wasn't anyone home.

'Isabella Swan what was going through your mind?' I asked myself as I read the directions on the back of the home pregnancy test. I did all the essentials and waited the five minutes it told me to. But that just made me eager. I paced along the short hallway outside the bathroom with the stick in my hand.

Finally it was time and I looked at the space. I couldn't think anymore, it wasn't like I knew what to do. And this is why I had sent Jacob with them because if he'd have seen me like this he would've been devastated. He's so young and I made the mistake if doing this to him.

'There's always abortion.' No! Why would I even think about that? It's crazy. To kill a child at its earliest form of life. That's masecurous. I had a few more hours until they came back and I knew I had to tell Jake before anyone else or at least tell him why he needed a head start to get out of the house. I found myself only thinking about Jacob's safety rather than what would happen.

I laid there in my bed until the sun began to fall and I hear the car come into the driveway. I thought I had left my nervous state but this it's where it all began. I looked out my window to see only Charlie and Jake coming into the house. They must give already dropped Billy off. I was glad for that; it was one less person who had to find out through me.

"We're home" Charlie called up as he shut the door behind him.

I heard steps racing up the stairs and then Jacob swung the door open. He stepped closer to me and saw my face was red and I still had some residue from my tears.

"Whets wrong?" he asked as his whole mood changed.

"Remember that talk we had in your garage about age difference and how old we were?" I found a way to ease it. I hope.

"Are you mad because I'm mentally more matured than you Bella?" he let out a cocky laugh.

"Jake, I need you to be that mature right now. And I'm sorry." a tear escaped my eye and he kissed it away.

"Of course sweetheart. But tell me what's going on." he added afterwards.

"I'm pregnant." As soon as I said this my barrier broke and I felt my knees buckle. Tears fell from my eyes like a waterfall

"That's all, Bells? I thought you were leaving." he tried to smirk but I knew as much as he tried to not show it he was hurting. "Oh, Charlie. What's going to happen Bella?" realization hit hard as he thought about this. "I'm sorry. I should have never-" I couldn't hear him put the blame on himself only.

"I have to tell him. It's only right. He's my father and I live with him. But I'm so sorry. This wasn't the plan but I can't do anything else." I was going to start up again.

"Bella, love, this was not part of the plan, but now we have to make the plan. And I'll he damned If anyone takes our child away." I would give him another ten years to his age for saying all of this but it just wasn't the time. "But Bella I have to tell you something." he paused, taking in a deep breath.

"I'm sorry. I know you have to leave. I just hoped that you would forgive me." Jacob put one finger on my mouth to stop me from speaking.

He reached into his pants pocket and pulled something out, not revealing it to me because it was small enough for his hand to cover. He smiled wryly and started speaking again in a softer tone. "Charlie and I didn't go fishing today nor did we stay with my dad." my face twisted as I tried to understand what was going on. "I didn't run up these stairs just to say hi, again." he continued.

He took one of my hands in his and started kneeling down to the floor, one knee touching the boards. A sudden rush of understanding washed over my face. Jacob Black was proposing to me, even after I told him the unforgettable news.

"Isabella Swan, I want you here with me forever, will you marry me?" he was nervous. His voice cracked but I could tell he really wanted this.

He opened his hand and there lay a little black box. He took his other hand and opened t up to reveal a beautiful 16k gold ring with diamond cuts around the band. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my life. "Yes!" I cried. And he slid the ring on my finger and got up to hug me. He wiped the tears from my eyes and gave me a hard long kiss.

"We spent the whole day in a bunch of jewelry shops trying to pick out the right one. But I wasn't expecting this news when I got here. We have to tell Charlie." he didn't sound sure about that but he knew it was the right thing.

We walked down the stairs into the living area to find Charlie on the new lazy boy chair he got for his birthday. Jake and I sat across from him with confused expressions on our face. "So let me see." he said nodding toward my hand. I picked it up and smiled showing him.

"Dad, we have to talk. And I don't know how to say it." I was kind of glad that he wasn't anywhere near his gun holster. But I was also glad I wasn't the one that actually broke the news to him.

"Charlie, Bellas pregnant." Jacob said with a sound of reassurance.

Charlie didn't say anything. He just sat there with the remote in his hand and lay back on his chair. His eyebrow raised and his voice came out stern. "It's not me you have to worry about. That's great Bella, Jacob get out!" he looked at Jake and then the door. "Wait, never mind, you stay. Bella wait right here." he got up and grabbed the receiver. I knew it would come to this he was cling Billy and I would have to tell him just like Jake had told Charlie. It was only fair. He handed me the phone and it rang once more before someone answered.

"Hello?"

"Mom?" No! He hadn't. I've forgotten all about my mother. The last time I'd spoken to her was the beginning of the summer and now I had to tell her every thing. I guess my only punishment was to break it to Renee. "It's Bella. How's everything over there." and I sat there telling her everything. It didn't turn out that bad. I was sort of glad she was miles and miles away.

The only thing she said was 'I hope you didn't make the same mistake as me with the choice in guys.' then we hung up. Everything was settled and the only person who needed to know was Billy.