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I am slightly cross, well that's an understatement. I am fuming about having to go to school, when it is SNOWING. My head teacher actually said this-I know it's shocking: "despite the bad weather, school shall continue, therefore not diminishing your learning." Number 1: since when is snow, BAD weather (it's amazing!) and: Number 2: who cares about learning, do you not realise it is SNOWING! (ok, I apologise about that rant, I had to get it all out…)

Disclaimer: for some obscure reason I STILL do not own Twilight, or the amazing Tardis off Doctor Who…

Me: *jumps into Tardis, pushes a few buttons and zooms-back in time! Start's writing a book called Twilight, get's it published, and becomes rich.*

Stephenie Meyer: Give me back my rightful ownership of Twilight!

Me: Never, you cannot have it, it's MINE!

Doctor who: *appears, looking very cross*

Me: Doctor!

Doctor Who: Lily, give me back the Tardis, now!

Stephenie Meyer: Ugh, she stole from you too?

Doctor Who: Yup…

Me: Mwhahahha! *tries to escape into Tardis*

Doctor who: *points, Lily sees a very evil looking dalek*

Dalek: EXTERMINATE!

Me: Oh crud!

What happened Last chapter:

All too soon, lunch was over.

I picked up my bag, swung it onto my shoulder and progressed towards history, where I dimly though how talkative Eric was going to be. When I heard my name being called. I turned and saw the last person I would have suspected to see.

Isabella Swan.

"Lucie," She said, and her voice was thick with emotion. "Lucie, I need to talk to you."

The Distraction Called Alice

I just stared, I couldn't respond at first, my head must be imagining things, I shook it slightly, but sure enough there Bella stood, pale and upset. What had happened? Was it Edward, and more importantly, why was she need to talk to me? Didn't she hate me? My head was whirring, but it occurred to me that I hadn't replied, and so I said the first word that came into my head.

"Bella?" I asked, my voice just as hesitant.

"Lucie, please." Please? What was happening? What should I do? Bella didn't look like she was in the right state to say anything more, and so I walked up to her, conscientious of the people walking by. I made a decision, I took her small hand, noticing the scar that James had caused her- a tiny crescent moon, paler than the rest of her skin, then pulled her towards the nearest empty classroom, or bathroom.

A class room arrived first, I checked to see no teachers where lurking about, marking in it, before opening the door, turning on the light and talking Bella inside, History it appeared, was going to have to wait. Once the chatter from outside had ceased- with all the pupils in their classes, I turned to Bella, who was looking at her feet.

"Bella, what's wrong?" I asked.

She looked up from her long eye lashes, her eyes liquid chocolate. I was sure she was about to confess her feelings towards Jacob, ask for my advice maybe, I would help her, I felt ashamed for ever thinking she was unkind. She looked so fragile and scared, so alone and vulnerable, maybe me and Bella really could be friends, she would tell me her secret. Then I could finally share mine. The one I had kept locked up for so long, I could join her, become… but I stopped thinking about that, I had to concentrate on Bella, she needed me.

So when she said her next to words, you can imagine my shock and self loathing.

"It's you." She stated. Her eyes still staring at me, mixed with both worry and pain. But of course it was me. Of course it was I who had caused Bella to look so upset, caused Edward to get angry, caused Jasper to be in pain. It was always my fault. How stupid I was to even think that Bella would want me as her friend. Who liked a freak like me?

"I don't know what you mean." I said, lying.

"Don't you?" she said, her voice trembling. "Lucie, your trying to take Edward away from me." And that's all It took, one small sentence from Bella made me realise the truth. Bella had never been selfish, only protective, protective of the things she cared about. It was I who was the selfish one. I was the only one coveting Edward. I was the only one who was sinful. And because of this, I would have to stop. Edward belonged to Bella, just as much as Bella belonged to Edward, I had no reason to interfere.

"Bella, I will not take Edward from you." I said, surprised at how firm my words sounded, how I didn't falter when saying the thing I wanted to do most. No. I had to stop thinking like this.

"Won't you, because that's all your doing at the moment Lucie, your following him, sitting with him, stalking him," her words hurt, like repeatedly getting stabbed in the back, but I endured this, after all, It was no less than I deserved. "Getting close to Alice, just so you can be near him, I can see your plans Lucie, but you have no idea who Edward really is, no idea at all." How wrong she was, I knew all about Edward, everything there was to know. She threw the words at me, crossly, spite mixed in by her evident dislike towards me.

Had her sadness before all been an act, an act in which to make me feel sorry for her? Again, my resentment towards Bella, threatened to rise to the surface, breaking my calm. But it didn't, I just replied to her steadily, hurt by all her statements, but making sure one was put straight.

"I am not getting close to Alice, to get near Edward. I happen to like Alice very much, we're going shopping if you want any proof." again, my voice was calm, a scary clam; one that was sure to break if put under pressure. Bella just stared at me, her eyes filled with antipathy, I couldn't blame her though, all apart from what she'd said about Alice, she had been correct, I was like a stalker. Wanting his voice; his presence, Bella was the only person who had her eyes open and who saw me for what I truly was.

"Lucie, I don't want to hate you." Bella said, looking at me her hair falling down each side of her face.

"Then don't, I don't hate you." I said, knowing my calm state was a fragile at glass now; ready to shatter.

"You have to stay away from Edward." she said, did she not know I'd already tried that, and where had that led me, oh yeah in a whole load of mess. What If I told her I knew about Jake? How would she react, would she beg me to keep it a secret? Deny it? Interrogate me to how I had known? I knew she would do the last, she was smart; smarter than I gave her credit for. She would interrogate, find out my secret and convince her family to run.

Leaving me. Alone.

I was far too close to shattering, I now felt like a sheet ice, thin as paper and I was afraid that this time, the pieces would not reform. I had to get out of the room, I couldn't stand to look at Bella anymore. I ran to the door, tripping as I went, the tears threatening to pull me under; to where re-surfacing would be impossible. I took one last look at the girl who had everything and knew nothing, I just whispered my reply.

"I can't do that Bella."

Then I ran.

***

It took me over an hour before I could make a decision; my meeting with Bella, still leaving me shaken and scared. Shaken because of what she'd said. Scared because of what she'd meant by it.

I knew It was fifth lesson by now and that I should return to class. But I couldn't, I simply couldn't. I was in my car, I hadn't driven home, I couldn't even turn it on, my hands were shaking too much. The snow, despite the rain previously, was starting to settle, the snow flakes larger now, each restlessly dancing in the air, never stopping, ever moving. Just like me. Only a thin white blanket was caressing the ground, but still it was beautiful, the trees around the school all had little snow flecked peaks. But even the snow could not stop the pain. Could anything?

I decided I would stop acting so pathetic, just like Lauren had claimed. Yes, Bella what Bella had said hurt, but that was the past, the old nursery rhyme rang in my ears: sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me. How wrong that stupid rhyme was. But that was enough feeling sorry for myself. I would forget about it, my human memory was no more than a sieve, hopefully this wasn't too big to fall through the gaps. I was sure Bella would not re-tell this to Edward, and neither would I, it would stay forgotten.

I needed a distraction and fast.

And then; I remembered.

Alice.

She had asked to go at the weekend, I was sure she wouldn't mind swapping that for an earlier date, I knew Alice all too well. Yes, that was what I would do, this way I could make everyone happy. Well, most people happy.

I called my dad quickly, the message went to answer phone, that was good, that way he couldn't ask questions. I briefly said I'd be home a bit late due to a shopping trip then hung up. No turning back now.

It was only a few more minutes waiting, before the first students started to come out of school, each of their faces lighting up considerably when they saw the snow. I was in my usual secluded spot in the car park, I was glad they couldn't see me. One by one, they filed out. Was it just me being impatient for my distraction, or were the Cullens always late out of class? Bella walked out. Her expression showed no sign of anger or pain, she was good at hiding her emotions, compared to me anyway, Edward's hand was wrapped around her waist; so loving, so protective. Thankfully, they didn't ponder and Alice came out just as they left, towing a subdued looking Jasper behind her.

I opened the door, and of course they heard me.

"Lucie!" Alice trilled, skipping up to where I stood. The pain had evaporated suddenly and instead I felt oddly excited, I wasn't sure why though.

"Alice…" I said, oh god, what was I doing to my self, but as soon as I thought that, again excitement arose… Alice's face was already beaming, she'd probably already foreseen this moment. "Um, do you mind if we go shopping today? Instead of the weekend?" I asked Alice's face fell fractionally, her tiny eyebrows furrowing in thought, it only took her two seconds to reply.

"Yes! But, only on one condition." she said, her voice became serious at the end.

"Yes?" I asked, prepared for the worst.

"We have to go shopping now and at the weekend!" She trilled, Jasper shot me a 'I know how you feel' look. Uh, why, oh why did I think of this distraction, but again, I felt excited.

"Fine.." I muttered, Alice smiled widely and started dragging me back to her Porsche.

"Jasper, you coming too!" Alice said, her eyebrows rising, excitement bubbling though every word she spoke. How did people get excited over shopping. Fear I could understand, but excitement? Jasper suddenly looked nervous, Ha, now he knew how it feels!

"Um, I thought It was meant to be an all girl thing?" said Jasper, smiling, I knew he must have been controlling her emotions as Alice's response was far too calm to this. She simply danced slightly up to him, kissed him on the cheek and whispered into his ear, something too low for my weak human ears to catch.

"Bye Jazz!" she trilled, pulling me into the bright yellow Porsche, I was surprised again at the size of it. Did it get bigger every time? Alice began chatting animatedly, but my mind was wondering again. My excitement had left as soon as we had driven away from Jasper, I knew I wasn't feeling straight… excitement, at the prospect of shopping? I hadn't been listening properly, so I decided to put my distraction to good use, after all I was paying a heavy price for it. She told us where we were shopping and then asked me some questions.

"So do you like shopping?" she trilled, looking at me, not needing to concentrate on the road, I pretended not to notice, but It was hard, Alice kept acting too normally around me. Dropping the human façade, I now more than ever wanted to tell her my secret.

"Um…" how to reply? "Sure It's fun." I said, unsuccessfully hiding my horror at the idea, Alice let out a tinkling laugh and pulled up against a very large white building. A very, scary looking, big white building. I gulped.

"Honestly Lucie, your just like Bella!" she laughed again, pulling me quickly into the crowd of on-coming shoppers, how was this place so busy? It was a Thursday… I looked around curiously, trying not to think about what she'd just said, at the mention of Bella's name. We walked up two flights up escalators before going into a very, very, very expensive looking shop, one that I would never have even considered venturing in and that wasn't just due to the prices. Two very thin looking plastic models were wearing clothes, if you could call them that…

"Alice!" I said, panic rising into my voice at the thought of wearing a dress that ended above my thigh, "We can't shop in here!" Alice looked affronted at this, and turned to face me.

"Why ever not!" she exclaimed, as if I was being completely unreasonable.

"Two things," I hissed, "One, none of those clothes will fit and two It's winter!" I gestured the short outfits and cocktail dresses, empathising the word winter. Winter meant cold, cold meant an excuse to wear large warm clothes. Not, skimpy, freezing ones.

"Lucie! You can fit anything, look at yourself!" I didn't have a chance to reply, Alice was already muttering furiously "They're not that short." she said, but thankfully we walked out and Alice was now briskly towing me towards more shops.

"They looked pretty damn short to me." I said in an undertone. Alice smiled at me and then said darkly.

"Believe me, I've seen shorter." I didn't doubt her.

The next shop was smaller than the first, and less skimpy, but still, these prices where ridiculous. Alice seemed to want me to change into every item in the shop, I groaned internally, but nevertheless, did as she asked, not wanting to upset her. After several minutes, my shoulders were aching from too many different top garments; all of them had- in my opinion, not only been ludicrously over priced, but also far too revealing or uncomfortable- and I let out a sigh, Alice merely tutted and assured this would be the last one. A midnight blue top came over the changing booth, highly intricate with a selection of pale flowers that looked like orchids, I tired it on, it was surprisingly well fitted to my shape and it was comfortable.

"Alice?" I said, she'd ran off, trying on some clothes of her own, but she was by my side quickly and she gave an approving nod of my appearance, she looked slightly strange. "Shall I get this?" I asked, it would blow my whole shopping fund, but hopefully Alice would no longer feel the need to make me try on much more. Alice stared at me, but I must of imagined it, as she scooted to my side and began picking out various clothes from the discarded pile, before saying in her chirpy tone:

"No Lily, you're not getting any of these," my heart leapt, yes, no more clothe shopping, result! But I should have known better, "I am!" she sang, "Now, get changed out of that, and I'm getting you these ones as well, I don't care what you say, they look adorable on you." I got changed, but honestly this was getting more terrible by the second.

Alice skipped off towards the till, I didn't think I could bare to see how much that had all cost her, and came back to me, her tiny figure masked in bags. I took some, and cringed at the things she had bought, all no doubt, for myself.

We carried on like this, going to shops, me feigning enthusiasm to keep Alice happy all the time, was it just me or was she acting a bit strangely, constantly checking I was with her, honestly, I knew it was obvious I didn't exactly enjoy shopping. But did it really look like I was about to run off?

Last on Alice's shopping trip of doom was a shoe shop. As we arrived outside it, I nudged Alice, getting her attention, I had to do it with a free elbow. My arms were hurting now from the weight of the bags. Ok, admittedly Alice was half the size of me and still had about three times the amount of bags, but come one, vampire strength, remember?

"Alice, you've already got me some shoes" I looked down at my feet, but I couldn't see them, too many bags blocked my line of sight.

"Yes!" Alice trilled, how was she still excited? We'd been traipsing around this place for practically days- or at least, that's how it felt. "But, you've only got one pair of new shoes, you need at least three-"

"No, Alice, one is fine thank you very much."

"Nope, It's appalling, It simply cannot be done,!" I just looked at her, not bothering to hide my expression, she gave a puppy dog eyed look at me "Please Lucie!" she was even pouting now, I gave in, what ever made her happy…

"Fine, but only-" But, I was cut short.

"Only three, only three!" she trilled, ecstatic at having the thought of me trying on more overly priced and expensive items of clothing, did she really enjoy torturing me?

I learnt something in that next hour. Whilst having tens upon thousands of shoes rammed upon to my now, probably bruised feet. Any type of shoes Alice approves of have to be two things: one they have to look good. Two: they have to be incredibly uncomfortable. Yes, admittedly, The shoes Alice had gotten me previously had been an exception to this rule, however, that did not mean the hour was any less painful. My arms were now so heavy, they seriously felt like they were going to pop out of their sockets, how may things had Alice bought?

"You want to go have a coffee?" asked Alice, as we left the shoe shop, a full hour and a half, after entering it. I tried not to stare, or look surprised, after all, Alice didn't know I knew about her, but I knew her trying coffee would be the equivalent of me drinking mud.

"No, I'm not thirsty," I lied, my mouth was parched, when was the last time I'd had any drink, or food for that matter. Alice raised her eyebrows very suspiciously, I knew she was about to ask if I was hungry, and so I hastened to add "or hungry." but I knew my words had escaped my mouth too quickly giving me away.

"Lucie, that's it, we're going to get you some food!" She said, while I feebly tried to convince her otherwise, but I soon gave up, I really was, very hungry.

We arrived in a secluded café, so different from all of the large luxurious shops we'd visited and stayed in earlier, It was so much more peaceful, so much more like home.

"So, what do you think of the shoes!" Alice said happily as we found a cute table, tucked away in the corner. We ordered food-no, well I ordered food, while Alice ruffled though her copious bags and so I looked down at the three bags possessing the shoes, each of which were a pale lilac colour. I never knew there were so many different colours bags came in these days. I almost forgot to answer her question, but was reminded when I saw her eyebrows raised, poised for my answer.

"I love them!" I said happily, not sounding too fake, I felt warmed at the prospect of food, at least this was nearly over now. My shoes weren't that bad, albeit very uncomfortable. I now had a pair of boots; stilettos and pumps to join the masses of clothing Alice had brought me.

Alice brightened considerably at this and we chatted happily throughout the time in which I ate, I was careful to avoid mentioning her siblings, afraid the subject might ruin my distraction. But, all too soon, the subject came up.

"So, do you like Edward?" Alice asked curiously, playing with a loose strand on her sleeve, carefully avoiding my eyes. I knew all too well the double meaning she was applying and so I replied smoothly lying through my teeth.

"Yeah, he's ok I guess."

"Only ok?" asked Alice, was she surprised, she looked closer to shocked.

"Well, he's really nice and all that, but…" I trailed off, I needed to end this conversation and fast, I could already feel the pain mounting inside me, threatening to leak out into my words, my conversation with Bella swam before my mind.

Bella's words rang in my ears: 'You have to stay away from Edward' Impossible.

"But…?" Alice prompted, and now her face was filled with concern and sympathy, I felt sick slightly and stopped eating, why was everyone so worried about me? Couldn't they see that letting me suffer was the only way, that they could be happy.

"He's just not my type." I Lied, not my type… wasn't he everyone's type?

"Oh," Alice said, and thankfully she let the conversation drop, her eyes once more looking at the bags and then back at me, longing clear in her expression. "Lucie, could we, you-know, maybe have just one tiny more-"

"No, Alice!" I shouted, smiling though, seeing were she was heading, any more shops, and I would literally keel over dead. No joke. "besides, you don't want to ruin the fun for this weekend, do we?" I said, trying to brighten her now forlorn looking expression, it worked.

"Yes! I forgot!" She trilled. She forgot! I could have gotten out of it?! No…

Too late now. I finished up my meal of spaghetti and paid the bill, refusing Alice's demands point blank. The food, now that had been money well spent.

We walked out, well Alice did, I staggered out, weighed down by twenty or so bags, some containing horrors I couldn't even look at, let alone wear…

"Alice!" I said, suddenly worried. "This isn't going to fit!" I gestured with my eyes towards the mountain of bags we had, far too many to be considered a healthy amount.

"Of course It'll fit! I don't get cars unless they can fit a good day's shopping in them Lucie, honestly what do you take me for." I just smiled as I remembered.

"But of course, your own personal yellow Tardis." I said quietly, oops, had I said it out loud?

"My own personal, yellow what?!" said Alice looking mortified, evidently taking my remark as an insult. How was I meant to explain this?

"Err: 'Time. And. Relative. Dimensions. In. Space.' Ring any bells?" I said, smiling, of course she didn't know what the Tardis was, only weird people Like I knew that.

"Um, I can honestly say no." said Alice, looking completely and utterly bemused. We got into the yellow Porsche, and amazingly, Alice was right, all the bags fitted with ease, proving the car's Tardis like abilities…

As we sped home Alice turned on her music, leaving me to think. A very bad thing. I couldn't help it. Bella's words continued to float around in my head. I sighed, so quietly, that even Alice didn't notice. Edward Cullen was no longer a mystery, I had no reason at all now to feeling so drawn to him. I wasn't running away from the vampires. I was slowly torturing myself to stay with them, as long as they stayed, I would live, If they left. I could not. Alice's shopping trip, although long and arduous had been a success. For about four hours I had been able to forget about the thing I craved most, the thing I most desired, with only an occasional odd slip ups.

Alice at least, I could trust, I knew she would not leave me, or at least she could; but I knew she would feel regret for doing so, a rueful smile passed my lips as I thought how Bella would react to me leaving. She would probably be over the moon. Yes, Alice had been great, a prefect diversion to my thoughts, she'd been the best the distraction I could have hoped for.

Distractions; such a beautiful word, with only one flaw attached.

One vital flaw.

They never last.

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