Disclaimer: i REALLY dont own twilight.. stop making fun of me

A/n Hey you guys, i am so sorry i havent posted in forever, i had to pack up and go to school and now that i am settled in i promise to write more. I am even at this moment writing chapter 4 and i think i have total direction for this story now. so exciting:)

Chapter 3

While Charlie sat in the living room eating fish and watching the game, I crept outside to test this anomaly further. I was trying to figure out what I could do to hurt myself out here, but

then realized I could be standing completely still and still manage to trip over a tree route or something. It was starting to get dark outside so I turned on my flashlight and headed down

the forest trail for a bit. Charlie had told me ever since I was 2 not to go in the forest alone, especially at night, but with this recent development in my personal safety, I figured I would be

alright.

Apparently, this shield from pain didn't shield me from my own physical weakness so I soon grew tired and sat down in the middle of the trail to rest a bit before heading back. I was

suddenly struck by the fact that this was the first time in the woods since Sam had found me, since I had run deep into after…

I wish my emotions could be shielded from me sometimes. Tears were falling down my face and I suddenly had a desire to let out all the frustration and hurt I had been hiding within me

since he left. I took a deep breath, mentally prepared myself and then… I screamed. I yelled. I threw an outright tantrum by myself deep down this lonely trail. I demanded the memory of

Edward to explain, demanded him to apologize; but mostly, I just demanded him to come back to me, to make all the hurt go away.

Once my emotion and tears were finally spent, I stood and wiped off my dirty bottom and turned back home. But before I took a step, I had the odd feeling someone was watching me. I

looked around me, trying to figure out a logical reason for this paranoia, but there seemed to be nothing but trees around me.

"Hello?" I asked tentatively. I wasn't afraid, nothing could really physically hurt me anymore, but I could definitely still get creeped out. "Hello? If there is someone out there watching you

better come out where I can see you."

I heard a deep growl in response. It sounded like it came from a REALLY big animal. I almost turned tail and ran as my fight or flight instincts flared up, but then I remembered that I was

immune to pain and harm. So I just growled back. It sounded a little silly coming from my petite frame, but I hoped the point was made.

And it seemed to have been, because there was no response from my furred stalker. I kept glancing around for a few minutes, then started off towards home. It was only after I walked

through the door that I realized I hadn't been able to test my shield because I had been so distracted by memories and temper tantrums and growling noises in the dark.

Up in my bed, though, a few hours later, I started to wonder why my shield had manifested itself this way. I thought about the past week and if there had been any big disturbances in my

life, like nuclear contamination or meteors falling from the sky, but as far as I could remember there had been nothing like that. Dad had gone back to working full time. Without his

company, I had begun to lapse back into my lonely yet comfortable state of sad. I guess this is the first time that I have been without constant protection for over a year. First with…

Edward, then Sam, then Charlie. Maybe this is my body figuring out a way to keep myself safe now that I am without a guardian of some sort. If that's the case, then I guess it would

make sense. Plus, it would explain why I was immune to mind-readers. Well, I actually don't know if I had been immune before I moved to Forks, but when it first appeared was when

someone was trying to invade my mind.

My mind was spinning in circles so I just decided to go to bed. I turned on the CD I had bought from Amazon of Debussy pieces, including the closest version I had ever heard to the way

Edward played Claire de Lune, and allowed myself to float into that world between worlds and dream of things happier than my own life.

Hope to have chapter 4 up tonight