Ianto felt the renewed hope that seeing his teammates working for his return gave him but also felt the tears that the desire to go home produced. He sat down on the stairs in the hub and allowed the tears to flow down his face before pulling his professional mask back on and telling himself he would be home soon.

He sighed and settled to watch another scene.

TWTWTW

'Ianto...will you stay with me tonight?' asked Jack wrapping his arms about the younger man's waist.

'Of course sir' answered Ianto smiling at Jack's antics.

'Tosh told you about the real Jack Harkness didn't she?...told you I kissed him?' asked Jack sadly.

'Yes' answered Ianto simply.

'It was only a kiss Ianto...I knew he was going to die...I wanted him to have a good memory' explained Jack.

'I know' said Ianto.

Jack looked at the young man and tried to understand their relationship. What were they? Where was this going? What did he want from this? What did Ianto want? He tried to talk.

'Ianto...since we ..' Jack stumbled 'I have fucked other people' he suddenly needed to know how Ianto felt about this.

'I know' whispered Ianto.

Jack raised his eyebrows. Ianto shrugged.

'I know what you look like after sex Jack...what you smell like...how you act' he explained 'there have been times when I knew it wasn't me that had done that to you'

Jack swallowed, it was a little disconcerting to have someone know him that intimately.

'Have you? Fucked anyone else?' he asked.

'I believe we covered my inability to have one night shags sir' smiled Ianto.

'But if you had met someone you liked and trusted...would you?' insisted Jack.

'Probably...I am only human sir' said Ianto wondering where Jack was going with this line of questioning.

Jack felt a tug at his heart as he realised that wasn't the answer he wanted to hear.

'Did it bother you?...when you knew I'd fucked someone else?' asked Jack curiously.

'I told you when this started Jack...I don't make demands' said Ianto.

He looked at his older lover who was obviously struggling with some inner emotions tonight.

'I'm not naive Jack...we don't fuck...I knew that was something you might want...something you might go to other people for...it's ok' he said softly 'different people...different ways of living' he finished echoing Jack's words to him when he had confessed his few lovers.

'When I was with others...I fucked them...when all I wanted was to come home and make love with you' admitted Jack quietly.

'Then why didn't you?' questioned Ianto.

Jack shrugged.

'I really don't know...could I now?' asked Jack.

'I believe I already told you I would stay tonight' smiled Ianto.

Jack took a deep breath. Tonight wasn't what he wanted, he wanted all the nights. He realised he wanted more from Ianto.

'What if I told you I didn't want you to fuck other people? What if I wanted you all to myself?' asked Jack.

'Then I would think you were feeling particularly sentimental...probably a result of your adventures in another era' said Ianto.

Jack thought for a moment. It had not been often that he had wanted to be the only lover in someone's life and it was less often that he had wanted to give the same in return. However he knew that asking for fidelity required a similar promise in return.

'I want it to be just me and you Ianto...Maybe not forever...but enough that we have to tell each other if we want someone else...would that be too weird for you?' asked Jack.

Ianto considered. It had never occurred to him that Jack would want this. He had not felt jealous when he knew Jack had been fucking other people but he was quickly feeling a pull of joy at the thought of no longer sharing.

'I'd like that Jack' he said quietly.

Jack smiled at him and tried to take his hand to lead him downstairs. Ianto resisted slightly and Jack turned to look at him in some confusion.

'Ianto?' he questioned worried Ianto had rethought his acceptance of a new turn in their relationship.

'Jack...if you're not fucking other people...you could fuck me' Ianto offered.

Jack laughed.

'That was not why I suggested exclusivity Ianto...it's ok..I asked for fidelity...you don't have to offer anything else' he smiled.

'I know' said Ianto 'But I've wanted to do it for a while...knowing you won't be fucking other people makes the decision easier' he explained.

'Why?...why is it easier?' asked Jack genuinely puzzled and seizing the opportunity to explore Ianto's thoughts about their relationship.

'I'm not sure' Ianto laughed at his own confusion 'perhaps because I feel this arrangement has just become a little bit more special to you...so maybe I can trust you that little bit more' he proffered.

'Ianto...it's been longer for you...maybe you should fuck me' smiled Jack.

Ianto gaped at him. He had assumed Jack would take the lead if they ever progressed this far. He was always in charge, he always led. He felt a surge of lust at the thought of dominating the man in front of him. He made his decision, grabbed Jack's hand and pulled him urgently towards the bedroom.

TW

Ianto smiled at the memory of the night. Jack's body had been so hot and tight and unbelievably good. He had watched the captain writhe under him and pressed him into the bed and claimed his body with swift and urgent thrusts. It had been several days later when Jack had fucked him and Ianto had been surprised at how enjoyable he had found the experience.

This was also the night that Jack had told him that he would possibly leave Torchwood if he found his Doctor. He had been told that the Doctor might have answers to questions that were important to Jack. Ianto was not foolish, he realised that Jack wanted more than answers from his Doctor. They had promised each other fidelity for now but they made no promises of a deeper relationship. If either of them found someone with whom they thought they could share their lives the other would be expected to accept that and relinquish their hold.

After Jack returned their relationship had started in earnest. They had begun dating and being not only faithful but involved. Emotions now had their place between the two men and Ianto had found he had wanted that more than he had realised. He missed that. He missed sex. Would he never touch his lover again?

TWTWTW

Ianto looked around surprised to see a young boy in the hub talking to an older version of himself. Surely this young boy could not be a Torchwood employee, he was only a child. Ianto was momentarily horrified at the thought that Jack would employ such a young person and at the thought that he had let him.

TW

Ianto sat and eyed the irate young man in the chair opposite. Jack was not thrilled that he was here at all but Ianto could hardly leave him wandering the Plass looking for trouble.

'I'm nearly seventeen Ianto...I shouldn't have to babysit my thirteen year old sister...I have places to go and things to do' he complained wildly.

'What happened to the title?' asked Ianto placidly.

'What?' Samuel looked up at him.

'What happened to being called uncle Ianto' asked Ianto again, trying to calm the situation by introducing an unrelated topic.

'Nothing...I just didn't think I needed to use it anymore...do you mind?' asked Samuel.

'No....but I liked being uncle...made me feel a part of your life' smiled Ianto wistfully.

'But you are a part of my life...that's why I'm here asking for your help' insisted Samuel.

Ianto sighed.

'This last eighteen months has been hard for your dad...since your mum died he's tried to be both parents to you...but he has to work to provide for you...and Annie is too young to be alone in the evenings' reasoned Ianto.

'But I have things to do' wailed Samuel.

'Do you?' questioned Ianto.

Samuel hung his head.

'No...well sometimes I do...but I don't want to have to look after my sister...she's really annoying at times...and then other times she starts crying over mum and I don't know what to say to her'

Ianto understood now. This wasn't a selfish teenager wanting everything his own way, this was a confused kid still traumatised by the early death of his mother who didn't know how to cope with, or console a younger sibling. The responsibility was too much. He made a decision.

'Samuel I'll come and talk to your dad....ask him if I can look after Annie a couple of evenings when he's on late shifts...after all you are both my God children and I should be helping more...I wanted to offer to help but wasn't sure how to...but if your dad agrees you have to cut him some slack...you're all still grieving so be nice to each other'

Samuel hung his head even lower and tears fell from his eyes. Ianto went and sat next to him and put his arm around his shoulder pulling him into a hug.

'I'm sorry...sorry I can't cope with this better...will Jack mind you coming to help' he sobbed.

'Of course he won't mind...and you are coping just fine...you're only a kid Sam..your mum would be proud that you recognised a need for help and came to find it' he consoled his Godson.

'Mum always said you could solve anything...that you could be trusted with anything and that was why she trusted you with me and Annie...she liked Jack...actually I think she fancied him...but she loved you' Samuel whispered.

Ianto gulped. Samuel wiped his eyes and kissed Ianto on the cheek.

'Thank you uncle Ianto'

Ianto smiled as tears gathered in his eyes at the renewal of the honorary title.

TW

So...not an employee then. This was obviously Gwen's son grown up and grieving over the loss of his mother. Ianto's heart contracted at the thought of the loss of Gwen, but he felt a stab of joy that he was able to help the boy and was obviously still very much a part of his life. And apparently he had a God daughter as well. Another joy.

More mist as the world lost focus.

TWTWTW

The hub refocused and Ianto took in the scene before him. He saw himself holding a gun to Jack's head and speaking quietly. What the hell was happening? He didn't look much older than he was now and he had already seen himself and Jack still together in his later years so what the hell was this? Were they having an argument? Was he threatening Jack for some reason? It seemed ridiculous given that Jack could not die, although Ianto was well aware that a bullet to the head hurt him a great deal. He could not imagine why he would be abusing his lover in this way.

TWTWTW

Ianto frogmarched Jack across the hub floor at gunpoint. Jack stopped at Toshiko's desk and turned to smile at the younger man.

'That won't work Harkness' snarled Ianto.

'Ianto' protested Jack.

Ianto smacked Jack across his face sending him spiralling to the floor. He looked up at him in shock.

'You will call me sir...down on your knees' ordered Ianto.

Jack was momentarily stunned, surely this was a little severe for doodling on paperwork for Unit. Admittedly the doodles were vaguely pornographic and it would be Ianto apologising and explaining if they had been sent, but even so.

He looked up at Ianto's face and noticed a slight wavering of the stern expression. His lover obviously wanted this. Ianto had suffered a difficult week listening to Owen's snipes and dealing with Gwen's moods and Toshiko's complaints about computer updates that were stubbornly refusing to install on all the hubs monitors. He needed to let off some steam.

Jack looked down submissively.

'Yes sir' he murmured.

Ianto grinned to himself. He should have known Jack would let him play this out. He was annoyed and frustrated with everyone but the captain was here and he was the one who would be punished.

He looked down at Jack on his knees before him and a jolt of arousal shot through his groin. The great Captain Jack Harkness on the floor ready to serve. Ianto's cock stood to attention quickly. He knew this was his moment to do to Jack exactly what he had dreamed of doing ever since the warehouse and dinosaur moment.

He grabbed hold of Jack's hair and pulled his head back to look him in the eyes.

'Hands behind your back..don't move' he ordered.

Quickly he removed his cock from his trousers and underwear and rubbed two or three times until it was rock hard.

'Open!' he ordered and watched in sheer bliss as the captain did just that, opening his mouth in readiness for Ianto's cock.

Ianto placed the tip of his erection at Jack's lips allowing the other man to lick and gently suck on the end. Without warning he thrust deep inside almost making Jack gag. Ianto held onto Jack's head to prevent his escape and pulled back slightly allowing him to breathe.

Ianto looked down at him to ensure compliance but read only lust in the captain's gaze and so gave in to his own baser instincts and began to thrust in earnest, going deeper on each inward swipe until he was seriously face fucking his lover.

Ianto's climax built quickly as he watched Jack struggle to contain the thrusting and the dribbles of saliva drip down his chin. He had rarely seen Jack look so completely depraved and he began to stumble in his rhythm, erratically pumping.

Jack desperately relaxed his throat and as Ianto's cock slipped further down the younger man lost control and gripping Jack's head to hold him in place he spilled his seed at the back of his mouth.

Ianto released Jack's hair, panting and gasping as the waves of pleasure still coursed through him. He heard Jack choking slightly and looked down alarmed but his lover was grinning up at him.

'Sorry' apologised Ianto grimacing slightly at his own behaviour.

'Don't be' grinned Jack 'I may have to doodle more often...I love it when my restrained Welshman loses control'

He stood up and embraced Ianto, pushing his own erection into his hip.

'Care to come downstairs and punish me further?' he asked lasciviously.

Ianto laughed but pulled him eagerly to the underground room in his office.

TWTWTW

Ianto did not know whether to laugh or be incredibly turned on. He was relieved as he realised his future self was not seriously threatening Jack with a gun and had quickly become engrossed as the scene had played out.

He often took the lead in their sex life but he was not naturally an aggressive person and to him sex was a loving act. However after witnessing that scene and seeing Jack's acceptance of his behaviour, this would be something he would reconsider when he got back. He had to get back, he definitely wanted to try this.

He rubbed his stiffening cock through his trousers and sighed in frustration. Find me Jack, he whispered.

TWTWTW

Owen and Jack came through the main hub door without speaking. Jack immediately made for his office and Owen requested help from the girls to retrieve an unconscious weevil from the back of the SUV in the underground car park.

Gwen had gasped when she saw Jack as he was covered in blood but he had disappeared before she could ask him anything or express concern. Both girls trailed after Owen to the SUV eagerly asking about the retrieval mission.

'What happened Owen?..why was Jack so messy?' asked Gwen.

'What do you think happened Gwen?' sneered Owen.

He sometimes got annoyed with Gwen when she asked questions to which the answer was obvious. Jack was covered in blood. Surely she must realise it was either his or the Weevil's and it was unlikely to be the Weevil's.

The whole of the back seat was soaked with blood and it quickly became obvious that Jack must have bled out for there to be that much staining.

'Did he die Owen?' she asked quietly as they dealt with removing the Weevil.

'Yep' answered Owen briefly.

'It should have been a routine retrieval...it was only one Weevil...how did this happen?' asked Gwen.

'He got careless...suppose his mind is elsewhere..Weevil caught his neck' explained Owen.

The teammates got the Weevil into a cell and Gwen quickly headed off to see Jack. Owen rolled his eyes and exchanged a sympathetic look with Toshiko.

'That wasn't the worst of it Tosh' said Owen softly.

'What happened?' asked Toshiko quietly, touching Owen's arm gently.

She could see her teammate was upset by something beyond witnessing yet another of Jack's deaths.

'When he came around...he usually has Ianto holding him' whispered Owen.

Toshiko nodded to show she was listening.

'I sat with him...waiting...but not like Ianto does...not holding him..comforting...he flailed madly when he came round...looking for Ianto...he was really panicked Tosh'

Toshiko waited for Owen to continue, she sensed there was more.

'He cried Tosh...I've never seen Jack like that...huge great rending sobs that I thought would break my heart...and then he swallowed it all and just sat in silence all the way home'

Owen looked up at Toshiko with tears in his eyes, he had been greatly affected by Jack's emotional state, he didn't know how to deal with the man who was always in charge losing that control, however briefly.

'I didn't know what to say to him...how do you comfort someone who goes through something like that and then is denied the only thing that would comfort him?'

Toshiko had tears in her own eyes. She didn't know whether they were for Jack, Ianto or Owen himself. She just hugged her teammate in sympathy and support and together they made their way back to the main hub.

Gwen had gone to see Jack in the office thinking to offer the man some support.

'Jack?' she questioned as she opened the office door.

Jack had his head in his hands and was staring unseeing at his desk.

'Go away Gwen' he said flatly.

'I want to help Jack' she said.

'Go away Gwen' Jack shouted but still did not move.

'Jack!' protested Gwen when the man raised his voice to her.

Jack looked up, he knew she was only trying to be kind but he could not deal with her right now.

'I'm sorry...please Gwen...just leave me alone for a while' he lowered his voice to soften his rejection.

Gwen saw the amount of pain in her boss's face and gulped before withdrawing quietly from the room.

She wandered back to Toshiko and Owen who had returned now.

'I think we better leave him for a while' she stated.

'Yeah' answered Owen a little aggravated with the Welshwoman 'we already knew that'

The teammates all ignored each other and returned to their work. Ianto was needed back. He was needed to be peacemaker and he was needed to hold their leader together.

Toshiko sat staring at the numbers running across her monitor in a never ending frenzy. Would the programme ever find the answer? Would the Doctor?

Find us Ianto. Come home.