My Mitsukai

AN: So I'm back! And I am SO sorry for not updating this in such a long freaking time!!

And also I'm sorry if this seems OOC, but really when someone is pregnant they are totally OOC anyway. I guess the hormones are just influencing the rest of the Akatsuki to behave strangely as well. Gomen to all who are picky!!

Konan's POV

'Ow.'

Konan winced, pulling herself into a pathetic excuse for a sitting position. The sun wasn't even touching the horizon yet; a small groan passed her lips. This caused Pein to wake up, gazing over at her.

"Konan…" He said, pulling her into the gentlest hug he could give her.

"Mitsukai, I thought I had lost you two." Pein said with a genuine tone in his voice.

'Aww, He really does ca- "I thought I had lost you two." WHAT?!' This thought ran through her mind. Konan pulled away slightly, and looked at him with a stare, before opening her mouth to speak. Nothing came out. 'You two?? Two?!'

Pein looked truly worried and confused. What had he said?

Konan shuffled off the bed, trying not to double over at the pain in her abdomen. Padding over to the mirror, she yanked her top up to her waistline, exposing a pink slash mark, with thick black stitches keeping it together. She definitely still looked 3 ½ months pregnant. Taking a shaky breath in, she felt tears well up in her eyes as she finally realized it.

Glaring at a slightly guilty looking Pein through the reflection of the mirror, Konan asked, just because she had to know for sure.

"I'm still pregnant?" It came out in a tone that seemed to be laced with ice.

Pein was looking at her now with a pained gaze, but was there sadness, guilt, anger, or all three?

"Yes. You're still carrying our child." Pein tried to stress the 'our' as a promise; he wouldn't let her do this alone.

"Where is Kakuzu." Konan did not ask this; she demanded it.

"Konan, why-"

"Where. Is. Kakuzu, Pein."

"Um… he's in his chambers."

Without warning, Konan yanked open the door and was gone. Pein jumped out of bed after her, yelling down the hall, "But Konan! You need to rest!!" But it did no good. He doubted if she even heard him.

'No, no, no, no, no!' Konan thought, rushing down the long dreary hallway toward the dungeon Kakuzu shared with his Jashin-worshiping partner.

"Kakuzu!" She demanded repeatedly, pounding her fists on the door.

'By gods, they better be awake.' She thought.

The door suddenly swung open to reveal a very sleepy, messy looking, and shirtless Hidan.

"Konan…" Hidan grumbled. "Do you have any ide- ah!" Hidan had been pushed out of the way by a very angry, hormonal Konan.

Kakuzu was still asleep on his stomach- a pillow over his head. With both hands, the blue haired kunoichi shoved Kakuzu onto his back, and he awoke with a start- throwing the pillow at the target that had woken him up, thinking it was Hidan. It missed by a mile because of the sleepiness.

"Kakuzu!!" She practically screamed at him. She was beyond angry now.

Kakuzu's face contorted slightly in confusion at being woken so suddenly, and by a very loud, angry woman that had been unconscious, lying on his desk, not even five hours ago.

"What?" he asked back, quickly.

"What did you do to me?! What the hell did Pein order you to do?!" She pointed at her stomach.

"Look, damnit!! It's still here! IT'SNOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE!!" She yelled at the stitched-nin.

Kakuzu rubbed a hand over his eyes, trying to fend away sleep. 'Konan is NOT going to be happy to hear this…' He thought to himself.

"You missed."

The silence was like no other. It seemed the bomb had been dropped and everyone was gone.

"Excuse me?" Konan said incredulously, realizing what he had said.

Hidan was just standing in the background, peaking from behind the door and taking in the situation. Konan's wrath was more than he was willing to deal with this early.

Kakuzu sighed, explaining in a bit more detail.

"Your stab wound was two inches too far to the left, Konan… You missed."

Konan stood, mouth open in disbelief. She almost wasn't able to fully process what he had just said.

"I-" Konan began- her eyes welling with tears again, and then threw herself to the ground in hysterics, sobbing. Tears streaked down her pail skin. She clutched her stomach and curled into a ball.

"Noo," She wailed, eyes closed tightly in pain and emotion and leaking tears.

Kakuzu just sat there wide-eyed.

"Uhm…" He gawked. Kakuzu was truly clueless. Hidan was the one that was good with dealing with women- or at least Konan.

Said priest was now kneeling by Konan, cradling her as she cried. As the sobbing died down, she spoke through the curtain of hot tears and blue hair strewn across her face.

"Y-you must h-have done something, K-kuzu. W-what did you do?!" She pleaded. She could still not accept the fact that she stabbed herself, but the baby wasn't even harmed.

"Konan, no. I did nothing but keep you from bleeding to death and, by Pein's request, find the baby's heartbeat."

Konan sniffed, and slowly found her way to stand, then walked over to him. Standing in front of the stitched-nin, a request was voiced.

"Kill it." She muttered. Kakuzu didn't move, just stared up at her. Starting to untie the bottom of her yukata, she exposed her still prominent pregnant stomach. "Please, just get rid of it."

"No." Pein said now present in the doorway. He had heard the request and all eyes turned to him.

Konan's eyes filled up with tears again, but these were full of defeat, shame, and maybe even a small amount of hate as she shakily pulled her yukata back closed. She knew Kakuzu would never go against Pein's word as a friend or a subordinate- especially on something like this.

The blue haired kunoichi then pushed past Pein and exited the room. Pein just covered his eyes with his hands and slid down the wall to sit, with a sigh. 'If all of this would just be okay…' Resting his elbows on his knees, he just sat in silence for a moment. It seemed as if no one moved. Kakuzu and Hidan were still recovering from being awoken so violently.

Then their orange haired leader just got up and walked away.

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Konan sat on the rock in Zetsu's Zen garden. In a comical moment, she thought about asking said plant-man to eat the baby. Then, she thought about the process and cringed, deciding against it.

'Why do I not want this baby?'

'Pein loves me, right?'

'The Akatsuki is no place to raise a child.'

'Pein would make it okay. He always does.'

'We don't have extra room.'

'The old library is empty now.'

'Pein's too busy to be a father.'

'He would make time for me.'

'I don't want to be a mother yet.'

'Kunoichi duties can wait.'

'No, they can never wait. Pein is about to capture the last jinchuuriki and the war will begin. He needs me.'

'He wants this baby.'

'Why?! Why me?! Why now?! I could ruin everything. It could somehow get to be a situation like the life of my lover or my child! I don't want to deal with this!'

'He's beginning the war of the world! Could my body not wait until the peace is restored to start a family?!'

These were all questions and answers she was dying to ask Pein right now as she sat, glaring at her slightly swelled stomach. But he was the last person she wanted to see her in this state right now.

'I need to shower.' She thought to herself.

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Walking into the shower room, she shed her clothes and turned on the hot water. Waiting for it to warm up, she peered into the mirror. She grimaced, looking at her profile.

'This is hideous.' She thought, thinking of her now slightly enlarged stomach.

Konan had always held pride in her feminine and near perfectly fit form. Years of work and her beautiful flat stomach were now gone.

'How can anyone stand to look at me like this?' she thought, stepping into the shower, her view avoiding the baby bump as much as possible.

Leaning her head against her arm, which was resting on the cool shower tiles, she failed to hear Pein open the shower room door, shed his clothes, and step in behind her.

"Konan." He said, calmly. He didn't want to startle her.

Konan nearly flinched, hearing his voice say her name so softly, so lovingly… like the times when they- 'Ugh! Stop it. I'm not worthy of those memories anymore. This wasn't supposed to happen… I can't even think about those times now…Pein is too honorable to have to endure seeing me like this… My body is so unsightly right now… He shouldn't see me like this. I don't deserve him right now…'

"Pein." She said in a small voice, almost as a whimper. She turned her back to him, not wanting him to have a view of her engorged middle and her tears of pity and shame that she could feel welling up into her eyes.

Pein's POV

'She turned away from me…' Pein was hurt.

A small sob met Pein's ears.

'My poor angel…'

Konan's shoulders were shaking slightly as he came up behind her, wrapping his hands around her: one around her belly and one around her upper waist, right below her breasts.

"Shhh…" Pein comforted, kissing the back of her neck and across her shoulders in comfort. This only made her cry harder.

"Konan, baby, what is it?"

Konan just sobbed out something Pein didn't quite catch.

"Mitsukai?" He said, taking her shoulders and turning her to face him. She couldn't look at him. She looked through her blurry gaze at his shoulder, instead. Her bottom lip trembled slightly as he placed one finger under her chin- forcibly making her eyes meet his.

Pein felt a pang in his heart, seeing his angel in that much pain. 'She's too pure to be under this stress; she deserves better; she always does.'

"I love you. Know that." Pein said, and the look in his eyes proved it to Konan.

"I love you too…" She whispered, letting Pein embrace her into a hug.

Orange and blue hair mingled underneath the spray of hot water.

Konan's POV

She didn't feel like voicing all of the questions and concerns swimming around her mind. Right now, Konan was drained and was just finding shallow, but comforting peace in the safe feeling of his strong arms currently possessing and still accepting her slightly misshapen frame.

AN: So yes. Zetsu has a Zen garden! Who'd have guessed? And all of the comments on how a pregnant body is 'misshapen or deformed' is KONAN'S opinion of her own body and is in no way, shape, or form a reflection of my views about pregnancy. It can be absolutely wonderful and beautiful. It's just that right now, Konan doesn't think so. Of course, I hope you can understand why!

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