Half-Alive-Secondhand Serenade
Derek/Casey
What time is it? thought Derek as he rolled over searching his room for his alarm clock. Bingo. He found it under his shirt. 4am.
He rolled over and pressed his face into his pillows, it was becoming his routine. He inhaled deeply, her perfume calming him. Somehow she always left her scent in his room and it intoxicated him as he breathed deeply again. If only they didn't have to do this, the sneaking, lying, keeping up the charade that was eating at both of them. When he was with her he felt alive without her he felt half alive. Just get thought this night he told himself.
What they needed to was to live by their rules only then would they be free. Derek was no fool and new that day wasn't anytime soon. It was not their fault that men were fools and didn't understand the meaning of love.
He sighed as he tried to welcome sleep. It wasn't working, and then he heard his door opening. He held his breath hoping that it was who he wanted it to be. He waited and then the door shut and he heard the unmistakable sound of the lock turning.
"Hey," he whispered as he turned to face her.
"I thought you were asleep," she answered.
"I can't," he answered simply as he turned over again staring at the ceiling. When she made a move to stand up his hand shot out, grabbing her wrist.
"Stay, I need you to at least help me survive tonight."
She didn't answer as she slipped under the covers once again.
"Derek."
"Hmm."
"I'm tired of this," she said.
"Case," Derek said as he turned to face her. "It's not our fault men are fools."
"It hurts that we have to do this." Casey said, "I hate lying."
"One day. One day Case, we're gonna live by our own rules. We're gonna be able to live how we want."
"You better be right." Casey said as she inched closer to him.
"I'm always right." Derek answered. "I blame you."
"For what?" Casey asked defensively.
"You've got me wrapped around you Spacey. I can hardly breathe without you."
"One day?" Casey asked.
"Definitely," answered Derek as he wrapped his arms around her. For now that one day was uncertain but what was certain was his feelings for her and at least for tonight he'd survive.