AN: I know I said the POVs were going to be separate but this were short so I thought I would just put them in the same section. Besides, technically, they are separated.

K R I S

Why did I ask him to go away? I shouldn't have done that. I should have heard him out before breaking up with him. Turns out the whole Tina Sharp ting wasn't even his fault. I can't believe he's gone.

I just can't believe it.

Matt isn't doing so well either. I mean he and Junior have been best friends forever. And Dani… well, she's really taking it hard. I really feel bad for her. She and Junior were so close. I don't know what to say. Or what to do. Granted.

She was quiet the whole ride

I can't believe Junior's dad isn't here. What a jerk!

Maybe Dani didn't call him yet. Either way I feel more sympathy towards Dani than him. Sympathy? Dani? Whoa.

I don't know why but I just can't trust him. It's like this gut feeling. Like there's something about him that……doesn't feel right.

I wouldn't blame Dani if she didn't call him. I wouldn't want to deal with him either.

M A T T

I can't believe this is happening. I mean, I saw the car. I heard what the officer said. But still feels so surreal. Kind of dream-like. I guess all that about denial being the first stage of grieving is true.

I think that's why Dani hasn't called her dad. It would materialize all this. Make it real.

Dani…

She's really taking it hard. She asked me if I minded if she went up to my room for a while. She hasn't come out. I asked her if she wanted something. I know she hasn't eaten yet. But she barely shook her head. I've never seen her like this. It's like this part of her that was in love with life died along wit Junior and all that's left's a lifeless shell.

I'm not giving up on her thought. I know Junior would want me to take care of her.

D A N I

Junior's dead. Junior's dead. Junior's dead. Junior's dead.

Maybe if I keep saying this to myself I'll actually believe it.

I feel like at any moment I'll wake up and see him. Alive. Joking with Matt, flirting with Kris…

Kris.

As much as I want to hate her, I just can't. She made Junior happy. I don't think I ever hated her. I think I was just afraid of loosing both Matt and Junior. Whoa. And on tonight's episode of "Things I wouldn't admit to myself if I wasn't feeling like I'm completely isolated from the world and hadn't eaten anything since the day before the honor's party."

That's pretty much how I feel. Detached. It's like all of this is happening to someone else. Like I'm watching a movie or something.

I don't want to call my dad now. Maybe I'll let Matt do it.

Whenever my dad went berserk on me, Junior was always there. He made me feel safe. Then when he got closer to graduating he gave me hope.

Now I'm gonna have to deal with my dad on my own.

For 3 more years.

Junior's dead. I have to live with my dad for 3 more years.

Maybe if I keep saying that to myself too. I'll also start to believe it.

Maybe it'll sink in. and this won't feel so dream-like.

Or more likely, nightmarish.