Sorry this took forever. school work been killing me these past few weeks. Much love to my best friend and beta, Little Silver Rose. As usual you are all kinds of awesome! XOXO!
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Let It Go
Chapter 3
I slipped the key card I always kept in my wallet into the slot and when the little light turned green I pushed the door open. Bella followed me in and I could hear her gasp. I watched her as she took in the high beamed ceilings, the window wall, the 60" plasma TV and love seat and couch in the living room. She walked around the corner and took in the kitchen with the latest appliances, marble countertops, and island. She walked down a hall that led to three bedrooms and a den. If she walked down a little more she would've encountered the door that led to the private pool upstairs.
"You own this place?" She said breathlessly as she came back to the living room where I was standing.
I shrugged. "Well, technically my parents do but I'm the only one that ever really uses it."
Bella turned her soul piercing gaze on me and I again felt scared yet excited. There was something about her that made me want to be what she needed me to be, who she needed me to be. I didn't want to dwell in the world of darkness that I spent the last seventeen years of my life in.
I wanted to be different.
But I was still scared. I was still bitter, even if I hadn't shown it since the cafeteria earlier. I could feel the hate and rage in me that told me that was not who I was. It told me I was hated and would always be hated. It told me that everything was my fault and that it would always be and nothing or no one could change that.
But the side that Bella brought out, no matter how small, told me that I wanted out. I didn't want to live like this.
Bella came up to me slowly, like any sudden movement she made would start the onslaught. But I could never hurt her.
She walked up to me slowly. She raised her hand and caressed my face from my temple to my jaw. I shivered at the touch, my eyes closing of their own accord. My hand shot up to catch hers and held it to my face.
"Why?" I whispered against her palm. She knew what I was talking about. I didn't have to look at her to know that. She had to know I was going to ask her why she wanted to help me. Why she was here…why she cared….
"Because you were the only one who looked me in the eye without flinching,"
My eyes snapped up to meet hers. What was she talking about?
I voiced my thought. She sighed and I felt her breath on my neck. It momentarily distracted me.
"Can we just…I mean…" She sighed again. It sounded like she was berating herself for thinking out of turn. I didn't want her upset and I didn't want to ruin the moment so I gently took her face in my hands and kissed her with everything I had.
The moment her arms wrapped tightly around my neck and she opened her mouth to me I knew it was end of the conversation. We would talk about it later. Right now, I needed her and she needed me.
Bella's fingers gripped my hair and I groaned at the sensation of it. My hands moved down to her waist and pulled her body flush against mine. She whimpered in my mouth and I smiled. I moved my lips to her neck, kissing every inch of skin I came in contact with.
"More," She whimpered. "I need more." It about cracked my heart in two to hear her sound so desperate. But I wasn't going to disappoint her. She was too important to me.
I moved my hands down the back of her thighs and lifted her legs up around my waist. I made my way to my bedroom. I kicked the door shut behind us just as Bella bit my neck, quite hard. I slammed her into the closed door and growled at her.
"Biting, now, Bella?" She grinned at me. Her chocolate eyes burned with lust and challenge.
"You liked it." She nipped my bottom lip.
"Vixen," I muttered before taking her lips in a bruising kiss. I moved us towards my bed. I laid her down and leaned over her. My hands ran up and down her sides and she shuddered.
"Edward," she whimpered.
I pulled her shirt up, all the while kissing each bit of skin revealed to me. Her skin tasted like fresh strawberries. The ones grandpa used to have when I was little and I would go to his house. Her shirt was gone in a few more seconds and I raised myself up to gaze at her heaving chest. The white cotton bra she was wearing was barely containing her and I gladly slid my hand under her to unclasp the bra.
I'd never unhooked a bra before but I did it and I took great pleasure in hearing Bella moan and writhe and grab at my hair while I pulled, bit, sucked, and licked at her breasts. Eventually I came up for air and grinned at her flushed face and neck. She looked so beautiful.
Suddenly she grabbed my shirt and pulled and it ripped down the middle. She grinned up at me and whispered, "Move it, Cullen."
My eyes flashed and in a second we were both naked. Bella scooted back to the middle of the bed and I followed, readily. I kissed up her body until I reached her lips. I wrapped my hand around myself and slowly slid into her heat.
I almost came right then at the feel of her. My legs shook and I struggled to stay up and not crush her with my weight. Bella groaned under me and hooked her legs around my waist, which allowed me to go deeper and I couldn't help thrusting.
I groaned.
Damn that felt unbelievably good.
Bella's hands shot to my back and ran up to my neck, scratching my skin. It was a delicious pleasure and pain. She whimpered again. If she kept that up I was going to pummel her. And suddenly, the thought of pummeling her, of destroying her, made me freeze.
It made me remember all the things that happened to me. The hate I'd lived with all my life. The hate I believed I was born from. The seclusion I lived in for seventeen years. My grandpa.
Everything.
And I didn't want to lay any of that on Bella.
She was too important to me, even in this short amount of time, even if I didn't know her like I wanted to; I didn't want to corrupt her.
Bella's hands rested on my face. She brought my face down to hers and kissed my lips softly, tenderly. She knew I needed it. I stared into her eyes and saw everything I'd been looking for and everything I didn't know I was.
And she whispered the three words I never thought I'd hear from someone who actually cared about me.
"Let it go."
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