hey all hope you like this next bit sorry its a bit short and there isnt much dialog but you get to see what each of them is feeling. please review i'd love to know what you think. the song in this chapter was written by me and i havent put all of it but you get the idea and the part i used fits to what jude is feeling!

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Lets hear it then' Tommy's voiced reached Jude and she started to play no questions asked. She really needed to release what was raging a war in her head, even if no on else knew what it was meant for.

I can't stand to see your face

Why are you every single place (I go)

I mean to say your everywhere

In the dark I see your eyes

I know your watching all the time

I deny that I know

But if you're listening, here I go!

I can't stand anything you say

You say I love you and I hate it cause you don't mean it that way.

Leave me on my own if you gotta

Can't stand to be alone…when I'm gone!

All the memories of the last few months with out him flooded her mind. She loved him. She didn't know what love was but to her it was this. It was undeniable. It was infatuation and it was wrong!

Tommy was awe struck by the passion in her voice. She wouldn't look at him though. He wished she would, he loved the way she looked at him. She had that smile, as the song says, that she did use only for him and he loved it. Damn he just loved her.

Jude finished singing and finally looked at Tommy through the glass. She may have been angry about what she felt but she loved how she felt. She just wished he felt it too. To him she was just a kid, he may have said once to Kwest that she got to him, but that's not love. He didn't love her the way she did him and it drove her mad. Maybe it was better though, what if he did love her back? They couldn't do anything about. He was her producer and she was his artist…she was just a kid.

After singing the track a few more times Jude had nailed it and finished for the day leaving Tommy to work with SME. She headed out for the factory. She really needed some thinking time. She was driving down the high street in the center of town when something caught her eye. She parked the car at the edge of the road and hopped out and headed for the small salon a few doors down. She had been thinking about it for a while and right now she felt like breaking out a bit.

Jude skipped going to the edge of town. By the time she was finished at the salon it was getting dark out and she had calmed down now. She headed home. She put the key in the door and entered. The lights were all out, her mom wasn't back yet and Sadie…well she never knew what Sadie after school. Jude decided to head for her room and write a little. She felt oddly inspired by her knew self. She had said she wanted to look different well she got that! She caught her reflection in the mirror in the hallway and stopped. She wondered how long it would take for her to recognize this new reflection when she saw it. The pale blonde framed her face angelically and looked amazing against her soft pale skin. She loved it but it still shocked her. She seemed less tough tomboy more pretty woman now. Well if this doesn't grab his attention what will she thought. Then immediately mentally slapped her self. She had done this so she was different, new her time for a new crush…no more Tommy Quincy.

Tuesday morning arrived incredibly slowly for Jude. She spent Monday evening in her room. Sadie didn't crawl in till late and Jude pretended to be asleep when she looked in her door. She wasn't though, she wasn't sure what it was but she hadn't slept for longer than a few hours for weeks.

When she was on tour she assumed it was because she missed home. Missed her bed. But she was back now and still she couldn't rest. Every time she closed her eyes her mind would run crazy with thoughts about every thing and anything. She just couldn't settle. Most nights she sat and wrote but she couldn't even have done that she could focus. Her mom wasn't home and when four o'clock came around and Jude had finally succumbed to the tiredness she still wasn't back.

She glanced at the alarm clock. 7.00am! Well she might as well get up now she thought. Jude headed for the bathroom and showered quickly, the cool water refreshing on her tired body. She dressed and towel dried her hair, twisting it up and gripping it. In the kitchen she decided to skip breakfast, she wasn't really a morning person but lately she had no choice. It was almost 8 now so she took of for the studio thinking she could put in a few hours before school.

Tommy stood in the studio flicking switches on the soundboard. He wasn't really interested in the track he was mixing. Some lame TV advert Darrius had cornered him into doing. He came to the studio early as he new Jude had been doing that a lot lately. He hadn't slept well and the thought of getting to work on some new tracks with her brightened his day. She wasn't here though. He was disappointed to say the least and now he was stuck doing this crap for his boss.

The main doors swung open and a young blonde hair girl entered. She glanced around and headed for the small studio at the back of G major. Tommy looked up when he saw movement in the corner of his eye. He caught a quick glance of blonde hair and then nothing. He decided to see who was here. He didn't recognize the girl. He opened the studio door where she sat with her back to him, guitar in hand. Wait that was Jude's guitar. Tommy stopped dead in his tracks…that was Jude!

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