Later that evening Jude sat at the dinner table with her mother and sister. They were chatting, mostly about Sadie's day, around her. Jude sat in silence playing with the food on her plate. As she successfully separated all the contents of her dinner in to their own groups her mom spoke.

'Jude honey, are you ok?' Jude's head snapped up form her plate. Her mom was giving her that look. The concerned, I know you're about to lie to me look.

'Yeah I'm fine mom.' Jude lied. 'Just thinking, had a bit of an argument with Jamie earlier.' That wasn't all that was on her mind but she wasn't about to go into detail about the rest. She could just hear it know. Yeah mom I'm fine just worried that I'm failing math already and I have only been back a week or so. Oh and yeah Jamie's in love with me…so he says, but I don't feel that way for him because I'm in love with Tommy. Yeah that Tommy my 5 years older that me producer, that's the one.

'Jude' her mom was still staring at her. She obviously missed something here.

'Sorry what were you saying.' Jude replied.

'I said what were you arguing about?'

'Oh you know,' Jude tried to stall while she thought of a suitable story. 'Just the usual, me being busy him feeling left out a bit. Don't worry though we'll be fine. We always are.' Jude wished this was the truth, this she could have easily fixed. The reality though, how do you tell some one you don't love them and don't think you ever will. Well easily like that. But Jude had already told him that and that didn't go so well did it?

'Jude!' Apparently she had missed her moms comments again. God she needed to get her head out the clouds.

'Hmm'. She tried to cover for her lack of interest.

'Are you sure that's all?' damn why do parents always have to dig. Jude was a terrible liar.

'Yeah, I just have an idea for a song do you mind if I'm excused.' She pushed her chair back from table before waiting for an answer.

'You've barely eaten.' Sadie commented, unhelpful as usual.

All she needed was her sister giving her mom more to think she needed to worry about. Truth was Jude just wasn't hungry. But that answer was never enough. Her mom was constantly stressing about what Jude ate, where she went, whom she was with, why was she so pale, why is she back so late. Just cause your sort of famous everyone thinks your gonna do a Brittany or Amy Winehouse or something.

'I ate earlier, at the studio, with Tommy.' She covered quickly.

With that said she left the dinning room abruptly. She really wasn't in the mood to answer a bunch of questions. She made it to the staircase before her mom caught up to her.

'Honey I actually need to tell you and your sister something can you hold on a second.' Her mom held her gaze. Jude walked back down the few steps she had climbed and followed her back to the table.

Once they were all back seated and her mom had cleared away the plates she spoke. 'Well you father is in town and he wasn't to see both of you this weekend. I told him that was fine.' she got this all out quickly knowing all to well the reaction she was going to get from one of her daughters.

'What?' Jude and Sadie said in unison. Their tone of voices the complete opposite though.

'I had plans.' Sadie said slightly annoyed but not too unhappy about it. She missed her father. It was weird to go from him being there every morning and every night, to only seeing him every few weeks.

'No way!' was all Jude said, pain in her voice.

'Your father hasn't seen you since you got back Jude. He is free and wants to treat you both to dinner.' Victoria said trying to sound positive. As much as she despised her husband she never wanted their girls to have to pick sides. She also knew that as much as she hid it Jude missed her dad, a lot.

'There's a reason he hasn't seen me. I don't want him to.' Jude shouted back. She couldn't help but be angry with her mom. She had made the decision with out even thinking about what this meant for her. She didn't need this not on top of the craziness that was her life lately. She also knew there was very little chance of getting out of it.

'Fine, you know what fine. I will go to a stupid dinner with him if that's what he wants. You know nice of him to schedule us, his own daughters, into his busy life.' Jude had clamed slightly, but no one missed the sarcasm dripping of her every word. 'Now if you don't mind I have a lot to do. Darrius wants a hit and fast so yeah night.' She got up and left the table this time not stopping at her mom's voice.

The next morning Jude got up earlier than normal. She really couldn't cope with school today. School meant annoying teachers, bitchy looks and Jamie. No, today she was just gonna skip it all. On top off this by the time she had finished stressing over her weekend with her father it was pretty late and inspiration just wouldn't come to her. So that made her even more angry. Not only did he destroy her family with his cheating and lying but now he was also effecting her music. What hurt the most though was that he wasn't there when she needed help. Not anymore.

She arrived at the studio around eight thirty, having slept about an hour and running on her caffeine in take. She had left a note for her sister saying she was walking to school with Jamie to talk. That should keep her quiet, plus she would never notice she wasn't at school. She didn't notice when she was.

Jude saw Tommy already here. He seemed to be here a lot this early in the morning. She shrugged off the thought and made her way to studio A.

'Good morning' Tommy smiled at Jude when she entered the studio.

Jude walked by him and slumped on to the sofa covering her face with a cushion.

'Grrr' was the only reply he got.

'Not good morning.' Tommy corrected swinging his chair round to face her on the couch.

Jude threw the cushion down at her side in exasperation.

'life sucks!'

Tommy tried not to laugh at her. 'What's up girl?'

'I'm a teenaged girl in high school who's kinda famous with a pretty impossible life. Every thing is up!' Jude replied angrily. 'And to add to that mess, which I would rather not discuss,' she added at the look on his face. 'I can't write a decent song!'

'You know that's a lie.' Tommy moved to sit next to her and Jude automatically lay with her head in his lap looking up at him.

She sighed loudly. Why was it just being close to him relaxed her. He always made her feel better.

'No it's not. I tried to come up with something for hours last night. I can't focus its crazy.' Jude talked animatedly with her hands. Tommy absent-mindedly stroked her hair. He loved the smell of Jude's hair. It was like strawberries and cream. And he had to say he was a fan of the blonde she looked amazing. Even at nine in the morning with probably no sleep if he knew her.

'Well what about your stuff from tour. I know you have loads. Let's do one of them. Which fits your mood.' Jude still hadn't let him she anything she had written when she was away. And he followed on and just agreed to work on something new. But deep down he knew there was a reason. He wanted to know what she was hiding in her music. Had some thing happened on tour? What could be so big to make an impact for a song but not allow her to show him it?

Jude hesitated before she answered. ok they could do one of her songs from the beginning of the tour. most of them were either about the new lifestyle or jamies bomb shell before she left. Nothing their he would notice to be about him, she thought.

'Fine but I pick.' Tommy smiled.

'What ever you say girl'