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first thankyou to everyone for reading and reviewing so far, i'm well happy so many of you like it. so this next bit i really love, hehe i love drama. so please let me know what you think!

The pale blue sky was breaking over head to allow the first bright rays on sunshine light up the streets. Tommy grumbled awake rubbing his neck. Sleeping on the couch was definitely not the most comfortable idea. He had been a wake for hours last night. Mostly drinking and blasting his stereo system. He was such an idiot.

Tommy strolled into the empty kitchen grabbing a glass from the sideboard and filling it with cool fresh water. His head ached from his large consumption of alcohol and the brightening room hurt his eyes. He drained the glass and returned it to the sink and rubbed his cool hands over his face.

All he thought about all night was Jude. The look in her eyes in the studio, he didn't think he would ever forget the deep disappointment that lingered in her clear blue gaze. The tears glistened and betrayed her as they slid down her cheeks. How did he always make such a mess of things. He could have told her. He knew when he got together with Mercedes there would be problems. But Jude was away and damn he missed her. But he isn't allowed to feel that way for Jude, and as bad as it sounds Nikki was a good distraction.

When Jude returned he planned to explain to her. She knew he had flings right? How was this different? But for some reason he could never bring himself to tell her. He knew why. Things would change between them if she knew she would never have kissed him like she did. Never be as comfortable with contact. He didn't want to loose that, he needed to be close to her. Now he had gone and pushed her as far a way as possible. He had to fix this. But first he had to find her.

Tommy spent hours wandering around last night, her house, the rehearsal space, Jamie's house (a long shot he knew), Spiderman's place and even Kwest's apartment…nothing. He had called her so many times it probably officially counted as stalking. No one had heard from her, and if they had they weren't telling him. Sadie wasn't panicking when Tommy stopped by the house though, so at least she must be safe.

Jude's eyes opened then closed quickly at the harsh light. The thick layer of cloud mostly covered the sun but it was blinding non-the less. She pulled the think blanket closer around her as she shivered in the drafty room. All the events of the evening before rushed back in to her mind. She shook her head lightly. Jude finally stood up and brushed her clothes down, she gathered up the stack of notes around her and her guitar and headed out into the main room. She crawled straight out of the small opening in the factory wall and headed for her car.

When on the road she turned the radio up, Stereophonic's echoed all around her. She bobbed her head to the beat and joined in the chorus.

'You can do all the things that you like to do…' she smiled briefly at the words. They were right. She could and she wasn't gonna mope over Tommy Q any more. The song faded out as another took its place. It was one of her own. She listened deeply as her own powerful voice cascaded about her ears.

Your eyes are holding up the sky
Your eyes make me weak, I don't know why
Your eyes make me scared to tell the truth
I thought my heart was bullet-proof
Now I'm dancing on the roof
And everybody knows I'm into you

Who was she kidding? She wasn't even close to being over Tommy. She never was. She had fallen in love with him almost two years ago and nothing else had ever compared. But she could have him and that was that. But she wouldn't keep it all to her self any more. Jude pulled up the street towards the studio. If her own song had reminded her of anything it was that getting it out there, recording that song that held all her heart. It would finally make him see. Maybe he would see the pain her caused her and the state of her broken heart.

She entered the studio and planned on getting straight into the recording booth even if she just rehearsed. But no there he was, and he saw her the moment the door opened.

Jude held her head high and crossed the lobby towards Sadie's desk.

'Hey sis. You okay?' Jude started chatting with Sadie determined not to look at him.

Tommy saw her the moment she entered. Right now was the time. He needed to explain to make her understand. Make her not hate him.

Tommy walked straight over to Jude and Sadie who were chatting quietly.

'Morning Girl.' Tommy said sweetly and calmly to Jude.

'Do not 'girl' me!' Jude all but growl at him, with out looking him in the eye. Sadie just stood back not sure if she should get involved. Jude and Tommy always had a way of sorting their problems. Even if it was in a highly dysfunctional and stubborn way.

'Jude, please can we just talk. I don't want to argue with you.' Tommy asked, keeping his tone friendly even though her reluctance to look at him was driving him mad. She was so stubborn some times, even if he was in the wrong couldn't she deal with this maturely.

Jude decided she would have to talk sooner or later, so why not get it over with. 'Fine.' She answered he looked shocked.

'Fine' He repeated. 'Err…studio A?'

Jude didn't answer him and just stomped over to the studio, she would go willingly but she wasn't gonna make this easy, not at all.

They both stood in the studio, Jude by the soundboard and Tommy lingering near the door. They were silent for a while before Tommy finally spoke.

'Mercedes is err my girlfriend.' What a great start he thought sarcastically and mentally beating himself about the head. Jude fiddled with the hem of her T-shirt, still not looking at him.

'We met about three months ago and sort of became a thing whilst you were on tour.' Tommy continued.

'I really don't need to know all this.' Jude interrupted.

'Okay, well I thought it would be better to explain it all. I never lied to you Jude I just…'

Jude laughed out loud. 'Never lied to me, never meant to hurt me, just hadn't found the right moment to tell me, which one is it gonna be this time Tommy?' Jude spat out viscously.

'Jude.' Tommy tried to calm her.

'What? You are a joke Tommy. You lied to me when you regretted to tell me you were taken. I mean come on did your girlfriend not cross your mind as our lips met.' Jude's voice literally oozed with anger all of it aimed towards Tommy.

It just hit her then. She had kissed another girl's guy. That isn't right. She hated cheaters and liars and promised herself she would never be one or a part of it. Her father had done that to her mother and her family fell apart.

'I'm such a slut.' She said mainly to herself.

'Jude you're not a slut, you never would be.' Tommy moved closer to her as her saw the pain in her face.

Jude finally looked at him, that look making him stopped in his tracks. So much hurt, so much regret and yet so lost and vulnerable.

'Your right.' Her voice shock with the sobs that threatened to come out. 'im an idiot, for falling for a bastard like you. Your slut Quincy you knew you had a girlfriend and you let me kiss you, let me believe in us, let me love you!' Jude was shouting now. She smacked her hand over her mouth, she hadn't meant for that last bit to come out.

Tommy opened his mouth to reply but couldn't. Its like all along he knew he had loved her. But he had coped with knowing he couldn't have her. But to hear it come from her own mouth…she loved him. Its like he always knew that she did but now it was different… it was out in the air now. No denying it!

Tommy couldn't form words he was just trying to sort his head out.

Jude was quietly crying now. ' I thought you were my knight in shinning armor Tommy. Turns out your just another loser in aluminum foil.'

Jude stormed past him and out of the door. Tommy just watched her go as a single painful tear slid down his cheek.

So there it is...tut tut tommy. thanks to simoney for the famous 'Knight in shinnig armor' line! its her creative input lol. Love you girl!

preview for next chapter-

'lets not pretend like you alone tonight...i know she's there!'

'I can live without you but without you I'll be miserable at best'

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