A/N: Thanks for the fantastic reviews! Some of you have asked whether Ryan will find out about Cate ad Baze, and the answer is yes, although I'm still torn on who I want Cate to be with. I mean, I love love love Baze and her together coz let's face it, they would make an amazing couple and we all know they're meant to be together, but I absolutely adore Ryan! He is the greatest boyfriend ever! And I love the fatherly role he's taken with Lux so no matter what I decide, both Baze and Ryan will play a large role in Lux's life. As always, enjoy and please review :)

p.s. FLASHBACKS ARE IN BOLD ITALICS!

Chapter 4- Can't Go Back Now

"Hello Lux." Doctor Sampson smiled sympathetically to Lux as she entered the room. "Glad to see you're awake."

Lux smiled politely, looking up. Cate was on one side of the bed, Ryan beside her, while Baze sat on her other side. All four had been starring blankly at the small TV in the room since Baze and Ryan had returned, lost in their own thoughts.

"How are you feeling?" Doctor Sampson asked, coming to stand in front of Lux's bed.

Lux shrugged. "Okay." Her voice was hoarse but, like Cate, she was no longer crying.

"Any pain? Discomfort?"

Lux shook her head but shrugged sheepishly when the doctor and her family looked at her questionably. "My stomach hurts a little."

Doctor Sampson nodded, moving to the side of the bed to examine Lux's stomach. She lifted up Lux's gown and Lux flinched away, squeezing her eyes shut.

Cate and Ryan hung back, unsure of what to do, while Baze moved closer to Lux and placed a comforting hand on her shoulder. Lux screamed and kicked furiously causing both the doctor and Baze to jump back.

Cate was the first to act, moving in and grabbing Lux's arms comfortingly. "Lux! Lux, it's Cate. Open your eyes, honey. Look at me."

Lux's screams dulled and turned into embarrassed sobs as she covered herself with the thin hospital blanket and curled up on her side, her back to Baze and the doctor, but starring past Ryan and Cate.

Cate bent down beside the bed and stroked a piece of Lux's hair behind her ear, smiling reassuringly. "You're okay now." Cate nodded as if trying to reassure herself. "You're going to be okay."

Lux's breathing evened and she finally calmed herself enough to look at the concerned adults. "I'm sorry." She whispered, more so to Baze than anyone else.

Baze hesitated before placing a hand on her shoulder, smiling nervously through his own tears. "Nothing to apologize for, kiddo." He coughed nervously. "I-uh…"

"Maybe we should wait outside." Ryan finished for him, looking between the doctor, Lux and Cate. Lux avoided his gaze, but Cate and the doctor both nodded.

Ryan kissed the top of Cate's head, Cate closing her eyes as she leaned into his touch tiredly. He paused before turning to Lux, the young girl still curled up and embarrassed.

"We'll be right outside if you need us, sweetheart." Ryan whispered and Lux nodded, finally looking up and meeting Ryan's gaze. She smiled slightly, relieved, and allowed Ryan to kiss her head before leaving the room.

Lux looked up at Baze nervously, fiddling with a loose thread on the bed sheet. He cleared his throat nervously and forced a smile. "Do you need anything?" He asked after a few seconds.

Lux shook her head no and Baze went to leave. "Dad, wait!" She called in a loud whisper.

Baze turned back immediately, wrapping his arms around Lux as she did the same to him, Baze knowing exactly what his daughter needed.

After a few minutes, Baze pulled back reluctantly and wiped his tears before Lux could notice. He rested his cheek against her hair, kissing her head lovingly, before standing up and following Ryan out of the room.

Lux finally looked up at Cate and Cate smiled back at her daughter, her eyes once again thick with tears and her arms folded nervously across her chest as she played with the necklace she was wearing.

"Lux, I'd like to do an exam, and take a rape kit for the police now if that's okay with you?"

Lux nodded nervously and shifted over in the bed so she was once again closer to Cate, gripping her offered hand.

"Would you like your mom to stay with you?"

Lux looked up at Cate as if asking if it was okay, and Cate nodded in response. "Please." Lux whispered to both the doctor and Cate.

"Okay then." Doctor Sampson smiled reassuringly, walking to the door to call for someone before positioning herself on a wheeled stool at the end of Lux's bed. A nurse entered a few seconds later and set up the bed for the exam.

When the doctor was ready, she signaled to the nurse to lift Lux's feet, positioning them in the stirrups. Lux tried to shrink further into the bed, gripping Cate's hand tighter.

"I'm right here, Lux." Cate whispered into Lux's hair, kissing her head.

Doctor Sampson moved in front of Lux's bed, lifting Lux's hospital gown and causing the teenager to flinch. "Okay, Lux, I'm going to start the exam now. You're going to feel a little discomfort."

Lux didn't seem to process what Doctor Sampson was saying, squeezing her eyes shut and trying to block the world out. She stifled a cry as the doctor began to take swabs.

His body pressed hard against hers, and Lux could feel herself bruising. "No…" Lux moaned, trying to push him away. "Jones, stop… please… stop."

"Come on, baby. You want this too. I know you do." Jones smiled, his body moving against Lux's as he positioned himself ready to enter her.

"Mom…" Lux cried, no longer able to stay strong. She could feel him on her, violating her.

Cate stood beside her, stroking her hair back. "I'm right here, sweetheart. I'm not going anywhere. Shh… it's okay."

Lux shook her head, trying to forget, and began to move away from the doctor's touch.

Doctor Sampson looked up at her concerned. "Do you need me to stop, Lux?"

Lux shook her head no and took a deep breath, trying to calm herself and moving closer still to Cate as her mom whispered comfortingly, yet meaningless, words to her.

"I said no! Jones please." Lux begged, tears streaming down her now sober face.

Jones ignored her, grunting. Lux cried out in pain as he finally pushed his way into her, over flooded with emotions.

"Stop!" Lux screamed, crying, and pulled away from the doctor. She turned into Cate's awaiting arms and sobbed agonizingly.

Cate rubbed her back, looking at the doctor, as her own tears streamed down her face. "Shh… shh…" Cate comforted, kissing Lux's head repeatedly in an effort to take at least a little of the pain from the teenager.

Lux coughed and tried to catch her breath, following Cate's breathing as her mom tried to coach her to calm down.

Lux's screams stopped exactly six minutes and twenty three seconds into her rape. The time seemed to take forever and she already felt numb. Numb and broken.

In what seemed like forever, Jones finally ejaculated and pulled himself out of her, rolling onto the bed besides Lux to catch his breath, a grin wide on his face.

Lux continued to cry silently, her face turned on the side and her eyes fixed on the wall, trying to escape.

Jones leant over her, placing a chaste kiss on her lips. "You're welcome." He smirked and climbed off the bed, dressing himself quickly and leaving Lux broken and crying.

Cate continued to rub Lux's back until the blonde calmed herself enough and pulled away. She felt numb, and like she had been violated once again.

She found herself nervous as she noticed all three adults were looking at her with pity. Finally Lux found her voice and looked up at the doctor. "Can we stop yet?" She whispered, sounding like a lost little child.

The doctor nodded and smiled sympathetically. "We have enough samples for the rape kit. Physically, there is only a little swelling which is pretty common for rape cases. I'll organize for your discharge papers if you'd like?"

Lux lay back into the bed, both exhausted and a little relieved, and allowed Cate to answer for her. "Thank you." Cate's voice was almost unrecognizable.

The doctor nodded and cast one final glance at Lux and Cate before following the nurse out of the room, leaving the mother and daughter in private.