This one is a little something about Ginji's thoughts on being Raitei, in first person. This is my take on how being Raitei feels for Ginji, since Raitei is a completely different part of Ginji. It might be a little weird, but I like it. If there's really a time frame for it I would say it's before the start of the series, close to after he meets Ban.

A Dream

The first time I became Raitei it felt like a dream. Longhua was dead and the beltline guys were coming and Teshimine was yelling my name and all I could feel was rage and hate and intense sorrow. There were so many negative emotions bottling up that I thought I would explode, and then I did.

I don't remember much directly after that; I look back on it and it seems unreal, like I never really experienced it. My next clear memory is of me standing, Longhua still in my arms, and Teshimine staring at me with wide eyes. The clearest part of the memory is the smell of the burnt flesh of those from the beltline.

I didn't know what happened to them but I instinctively knew I did it. I didn't care; everything felt cold and strange, and there was something within me that I didn't think had been there before.

After that day I learned to control my power. As I improved I could sense more and more the presence of something or someone else within me.

When the beltline people came again, I felt like I was dreaming, I wasn't in control. I watched as the other me decimated the monsters in seconds, destroying anything in his path. I remember sincerely hoping nobody but the beltline monsters were in his/my/our way.

People dubbed me Raitei, and came to me for protection, but I knew that wasn't who I really was. To me this "Raitei" was like a dream. Try hard as I might to catch him, I never could; slowly he began to eat away at who I really was. I felt like I was dreaming more and more.

The last time I had a Raitei dream was the day I left Infinity Fortress for good. This time instead of waking up to destruction I woke up to the most beautiful pair of blue eyes I've ever seen.

The blue eyes pushed through the dream and kept it away, bringing me back to myself, giving me freedom I had never known. Ban-chan and his blue eyes took me out of Infinity Fortress and into a world I had never known before; a world where I didn't have to be Raitei, I just had to be Ginji.

Now I dream of Raitei only when I'm asleep, although the dreams feel just like I were awake and watching as Raitei decimated everything. But when I jerk awake, sometimes smacking my head on the roof of the Ladybug, Ban-chan is always there to tell me it's ok, it's just a dream; his eyes remind me I'm safe.

I know that no matter what kind of dream I have, Ban-chan will always be there to wake me back up.