Disclaimer: Yes people there are quotes from Twilight (The real one) in this chapter. Sorry Stephanie..no one does it like you! I ain't making no money off it I swear!!!

AN: Well holy hell two updates in one month??? Yes it's true I'm keeping them a bit shorter in hopes of writing more, lets see how it works out.

Many thanks to my fucktacular Beta ChangedbyEdward who is dinging me to no end on gmail to hurry this shit up. I love you BB!

Many thanks to Lillie, Amy and Tammy who let me pester them with stupid question I love you broads.

Ok ok on to the story….

EPOV

I watched as she flew through the trees, rushing past hurdles that would once have caused her to make friends with the floor. If I had blinked, I would've have missed it. Her lithe body flying past the scenery was something that my heart was not prepared to witness. I couldn't keep my eyes off her.

After the hunt, we found ourselves sated and sitting in a clearing near the house. Alice was talking a mile a minute trying to fill Bella in on our way of life. The simple tee and shorts Alice had dressed her in were full of grass stains and small streaks of blood. As she sat in front of Alice, I could see a small speck of blood on the corner of her lips. I stared, transfixed on that drop, quite jealous that it gets the pleasure of sitting upon her lips while I have to keep myself away from her because to take advantage of the fact she doesn't remember and try to charm her into liking me... again, would be quite… ungentlemanly. Though I couldn't help but wonder what would happen if I just walked towards her and licked the offensive speck from her otherwise perfect lips. As I began to get caught up in my would-be plan, I heard a loud growling and before I could even let her know it was just a passing thought, Alice was running towards me with fury written all over her face.

"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen! We are going to pretend you weren't actually going to go through with that. I didn't even need to have a vision to know what you were thinking. I can hear Jasper smirking from here." I glared at the traitor and he shrugged.

Although I knew my siblings were more than upset with me, I could feel us getting back into our usual banter.

Bella looked at us from one to the other trying to figure out the exchange. A slow smile spread over her face as she saw Jasper trying to hide his obvious affection for Alice. She slinked her way to his side and whispered in his ear. "Hey, pretty boy," she cooed and Jasper's head shot up. I willed God to kill me before I couldn't restrain myself any longer. Alice giggled at my obvious discomfort. "Wanna fill me in on what tall, pale, and sexy was thinking about that got Alice all huffy and horny?"

Earth, for all that is holy, open up and swallow me. I silently begged Jasper with all that was in me to hide the fact that I wanted to do unnatural and heavenly things to her, but he was too busy doubling over in laughter at my expense. Bella was never so forward and I didn't know how to react to her sudden boldness. In any other instance, just the thought of Bella still wanting me after all of this would have made my heart soar, but since she didn't remember me, it almost felt tainted. I wanted to tell her, show her how much I regretted the decision I made to leave and to beg for her forgiveness. I didn't want to have this unfair advantage over her.

"Darlin', you don't wanna know the things that boy has probably had floating through his mind right about now, but I know that I want show Alice a few things I have in store for her." Jasper nuzzled the side of Alice's neck as she purred in contentment. I quieted a growl as Jasper sent a burst of love laced with lust his wife's way and Bella moaned catching the contact waves. Fuck you, Jasper.

"Whoa, Alice, if he walks like he talks, where can I get one?" Alice sighed and melted into Jasper's side.

"He's like no other, Bella." She beamed up at him in way that made me wish for things I didn't deserve. "But, before I do things that are illegal out here, let's get to the house and get you cleaned up and we can talk some more there."

We walked through the clearing up to the house, Jasper and Alice intertwined and leading, and Bella beside me, looking around and taking in the scenery. A few times I would catch her looking my way, but just as quickly she would be staring at something else. I wished I could do something as simple as hold her hand. I wished she would say my name again. I wished too many things that I fucked up by leaving. Even if she hated me, I wished she could remember me. Then I remembered Alice's words that it wasn't about me, so I did the only thing I could do. I gave Bella her space so she could figure things out on her own without my interference.

BPOV

Edward grew uncomfortably formal with me all of a sudden. Instead of sidelong glances, he would look at me with a careful expression on his face. I couldn't quite make it out, but I felt like he was holding back. Not that I felt like I should expect anything from this guy with the way he would freeze around me like I'm this pink elephant in the room.

I couldn't keep myself from looking at him though. Once, I started feeling my skin itch for him to touch me so I sped up and caught up with Alice and Jasper. We walked up to the huge, and now slightly damaged, door and Alice opened it.

"Welcome back home, Bella," Alice whispered as she ushered me in. I walked around the front room and instantly felt at ease. I shot a smile at Jasper, silently thanking him for making me feel at home. As I passed the staircase, I caught a glimpse of a huge kitchen so I made my way towards it. Beautiful, simple and spacious was all I could think about this kitchen and then it dawned on me.

"Why would you need a kitchen if you don't eat food?" I mused as I looked around to see they had all the necessities for a full functioning kitchen, coffee maker, toaster, and all. Alice and Jasper stood in front of the large window and turned towards me.

"Hi Bella!" Alice ran towards me and gives me a kiss on the cheek.

I shook my head just to see Alice and Jasper still standing in the same spot as they were before. Alice was giving me a knowing look, but she didn't say anything. Jasper, on the other hand, gave me a puzzled look and started walking towards me. I took a step back, hoping to dodge him, but when I turned around, he was behind me. I blinked and noticed that I could see myself on the other side of him, only I looked scared and my eyes were brown, and I was standing on the far side of the room.

The Jasper that was interacting with the brown-eyed version of me seemed unaware that I was near him, so I backed up a few paces. As I watched the scene unfold in front me, I wondered if this was going to be an often occurrence because if so, I thought maybe I should be carrying a notebook with me or something.

I watched as Pretty Boy made careful movements around my former self. He looked as though he was hurting a bit. The brown-eyed version of me across the room was looking at him with the same kind of hurt on her face.

"You're wrong, you know," he said quietly, his voice holding the same velvety quality that Edward's did, only with a southern twang to it.

Brown-eyed me gasped and looked confused. She asked him, "What?" and he smiled a bit with his reply.

"I can feel what you're feeling now - and you are worth it."

"I'm not," she mumbled. "If anything happens to them, it will be for nothing." His smile grew a little wider as he looked at her with nothing but kindness reflected in his eyes.

"You're wrong." He repeated once more.

I watched in awe of the trust that I apparently had in Jasper. As I waited for her reaction, the door opened up and in stepped Alice, arms outstretched.

"May I?" Alice asked with quiet reassurance. Brown-eyed Bella smiled an unsure smile but walked towards her.

"You're the first one to ask permission."

I closed my eyes and when I opened them to see Alice and Jasper in front of me, mirrored faces of worry, I felt elated.

"You guys… were saving me from something. Pretty Boy, you said I was worth it." Alice let out a small gasp and Jasper chuckled.

"You still are, darlin'." I realized that these two must have been a big part of my life and I leapt onto both of them. I didn't have a clue what was going on, but at least I had people who cared about me who were there for me and helping me find my way.

"Bella, I'm thrilled you're starting to remember, but, ugh, hon, you're squishing me," Alice grumbled from under my arm so I let go of them, laughing along with them as they took a couple of uneasy steps back. "I'm so glad you remember me! Did you see anything else? Do you know why we were protecting you?" Alice continued, seeming a little nervous.

"No, I just saw you guys there and I know we were, well I don't know. I know it wasn't happening here and now. It was like it was something that happened in the past and… I don't know. It's weird. You guys were protecting me, but I don't know what from."

"Bella, we were there because…"

Edward cut her off. "I think she should regain her memories on her own, Alice. I really don't want her thinking about that as her first memory of us," he said from across the kitchen.

"What would you prefer her to remember, brother dear?" Alice asked with anger lacing her words.

"She should let her brain remember on its own, not strain herself. We don't need to fill it up with a bunch of… extra." He seemed uneasy as he started to pace the kitchen. I started to get nervous as I felt the tension pick up between Alice and Edward.

"You just don't want her to remember certain things! Are we coming back to this again, Edward?" Alice started to pace as well but Jasper stood in front of her. He placed his forehead on hers, swaying back and forth a bit in their own little dance.

"Calm down, my Alice. She'll remember what she needs to and all in time. It's been a long couple of days and all of us need a moment to regroup. Let me help you unwind, sugar, and I promise, all this is gonna work itself out."

As I watched them, so entranced by each other, I started to get hypnotized, too. I almost missed when Edward took one pained look at me and slipped out of the kitchen.

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