I woke up the next morning, and before I even opened my eyes I was trying to figure out if it had all been a dream.

Had Chad ever left? Had I ever had my baby?

The second I opened my eyes, those questions were gone from my mind. I could see that my light blue comforter was wrapped around me, and my dark brown dresser was to my left. I was in my new room.

But then I started to wonder about the night before, had Chad really said he loved me? I decided her must have, The memory was too clear in my mind. I could remember how his face had looked when he said it, his eyes had sparkled, and he'd smiled just the tiniest bit.

I crawled out of bed, trying not to remember the look that was on his face later.

I quickly threw on some jeans and a yellow t shirt.

Somehow I'd slept through the entire night, I guess Tawnie got up with Autumn.

I slowly walked into the room across from mine, Autumns nursery.

Tawnie and I had so much fun decorating her room. The walls were painted a soft periwinkle, and Autumn's bassinet's dust ruffle was in three layers. The top was a pale yellow, the second was the same color as the walls, and the bottom was a darker blue. There was pale yellow curtains in the windows and a small white nightstand sat beside her crib. On it we'd placed a small dark blue lamp, a small teddy bear, and a framed photo of Autumn in the hospital.

Autumn was laying in the crib, making happy baby noises.

"Hey there!" I peeked my head over the railing of her crib and said in a silly voice. "Did you know you're a month old today!?" Autumn just wiggled and made a high pitched squeal.

I giggled. Then I leaned in and scooped her up in my arms. "Okay, lets get you dressed.

I walked over to the double door closet and slid on of the doors open. It was a sea of pinks and purples, of polka dots and stripes, and lady bugs and flowers. It looked like the whole premature, girls section at Babies' R Us.

I grabbed one of the first outfits I saw, a sleeveless red dress, with two big red buttons, on the front. Then I grabbed a yellow shirt to put under it.

I took her over to her white changing table, that was straight across from her crib.

I quickly changed her out of her used diaper and dirty night shirt, and into a fresh, clean outfit.

"Don't you look so pretty!" I cooed. She wiggled again. "I bet your hungry!" I continued, in my high pitched voice I reserved for her.

I walked into the kitchen, now spotless, and found an already made bottle. I quickly placed it in the bottle warmer.

While I waited on that, I wondered why Tawnie hadn't already gotten her up. Then I noticed how quiet it was. "Where is everyone?" I asked myself as much as I asked Autumn.

Then the bottle was done. I pulled it out, and carried it and Autumn to the living room.

I sat down on the couch and slowly fed Autumn her bottle. She'd kept looking up at me, I suppose studying my face. I kept smiling and cooing at her.

I realized that Tawnie must have gone somewhere, and Chad… well I could understand his reasons for staying away.

Autumn dozed off in my arms, sleeping despite that fact that she'd woken up not long ago.

I'd held her in my arms, just treasuring her beautiful face, until I heard a knock at the door.

I slowly stood up, crept over to her playpen, and ever so carefully laid Autumn down inside. She didn't wake up, which was good.

I walked over to the door. I hoped it was Tawnie, I really didn't want to see Chad right then, but I'd guessed I'd have to.

I opened the door, and my fell open in shock.

'W- what…what are you doing here!" I said rather loudly, then I glanced back over at Autumn to see if I woke her up, I didn't.

Her walked inside pushing his way past me. "Sounds like you don't want to see me." He said in a sarcastic tone.

I blink rapidly, very confused. "How…." I started to say before shaking my head and starting over again. "Why…" Finally I pulled myself together enough to be angry.

"How dare you!" I said as loud as I could without waking up Autumn. "What is your problem, James!"