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*Bella*

"On my lap, Bella!"

I had successfully managed a day out with Alice and Edward – hiding the fact that I was now doing something so awful that even they would never find it in their purest hearts to look at me in the same way, again. An excuse for basic 'survival' was never going to be enough on my part. I was now, in the presence of Carlisle once again, the outfit that I had been forced to wear was causing me to shake uncontrollably...From the coldness of the blasting air conditioning in the office and possibly out of nerves....I had always been slightly self-conscious of myself but being with Carlisle for only a day made me realise that it was time to bring out some unused acting skills if i am to ever see the end of this nightmare. So far, I had been hiding my fear and uncontrollable nausea and paranoia at bay.

At Carlisle forceful demanding voice, I obliged sitting down on his lap and facing him...He had taken off his trousers and pulled down his boxers (actually they were not even boxer shorts, they were like the Speedo swimming trunks that people get in England...Tiny and tight and a sight, I have to disclose that caused no sense of excitement within me) to his calves...I, on the other hand was wearing a tiny little corset and a pair of underwear...The goose bumps appearing all over my legs, feet and arms from the freezer of an office.

"Show me what I have been dreaming about Bella...Move your hips on me"

Carlisle was already...What was the best word....'Hard' as I began to move my hips slowly against his own in forwards and backward motions, inwardly thankful that I still had my underwear on at this point. Carlisle's breathing had deepened and become somewhat husky as he leant his head back and closed his eyes prolonging the moment of my hips on his – he was actually enjoying this...How can any decent human being be enjoying this?!

At his silence, I decided in that moment in my mind that the best way I was to be able to keep my clothes on was to pace up my hips and show him some more things that I can 'do'. Instead of course those things having to be pulled out of the hat at the last minute to get paid and get out of here without people getting suspicious.

Taking a deep breath in...I moved my hips harder against his...Banging my hip bones against his own body, hard...Not out of pleasure but out of anger...Keeping my lower body moving...I lifted up my hands, which were still shaking and ran them through his hair from the tips to the roots...Getting a guttural moan from him in response.

"Bella...You feel good" he breathed...Clearly in such a state of arousal that it was hard to form words from his mouth – at least the majority of them not making sense.

Blinking back tears again I moved my lips to his...Kissing him with too much forced 'passion' that it made me a little doubtful that he may be able to see that this is all an act from my side. Carlisle responded violently groping my hair in his hands forcefully to push our lips closer together...However this was not the kind of kiss that I would want to spend the rest of my life having, the arousal from Carlisle is something that I desired to have both myself and the guy I end up with to have as a joined effort – both of us having each other intimately and want each other in the same way...In other words, mutual feeling.

Without thinking, I climbed from his lap and backed away from him as he brought his head forward and opened his eyes.

"Sorry...I am just a little thirsty" I lied, feeling the sobs desiring to escape from the confines of my stomach and my mouth...Forcing them down was becoming unbearable as I stood there, shifting my feet from side to side not knowing how he was going to react.

"I am sorry...I should have thought about that, Bella....LUCY?!"

At his shout...I backed away from my spot – originally where I could be seen from the doorway as people stepped in and out. Moments later, the door opened to the office – the music from outside and various random (mostly men) screaming and whooping blaring through my ears and muffling again when the door closed. Lucy faced Carlisle for a moment and turned to face me....I shot a look that hopefully should have shown her how uncomfortable I was feeling and how much I desired to be on my own and cry.

"Yes Carlisle?" she asked....Lucy was also dressed in a skimpy outfit like mine, she had heels that lifted her height up at least six inches but she in all honesty looked much more comfortable than I did.

"Can you fetch Bella here a drink...She will be here for a while" at his answer, the sneaky bastard of a man shot me a smirk...The kind that may have been a clause to get women to fall at his feet and their hearts melt in his presence...But I am different to the entire country and so being different in new situations was not surprising news to me anymore.

"Actually, Carlisle...There have been requests made outside for Bella...I know that she has to make a payment to you but think of how happy the regulars are going to be...I shall take her place in here"

I gawked at the offer that Lucy had made Carlisle...Who was asking for me outside?! Please to God don't let it be Edward, Alice or the roommates...I couldn't face them dressed like this...As I had already spun them a lie of my whereabouts tonight having them find out the exact location of where I was is too much to bear for my mind – even the idea rather than the reality.

"Very well...You are always looking out for the business, Lucy...Are there any other of my girls out there working the bar?"

"Yes, boss it is all taken care of"

"Bella...You may go...Make us more money, chica!" Carlisle said using his index finger to gesture Lucy towards him...Lucy mouthed a quick 'go' to me before straddling Carlisle's lap...Kissing him hungrily...His hands in response immediately undoing the lace of her corset at her back.

In haste, I ran out of the door into the blaring and ear-consuming music outside...I looked around and saw that most of the people in the club were distracted by a girl I hadn't met before making herself busy and irresistible on the catwalk...Lit up everywhere where no part of her was ever missed out. I dipped through the punters and reached the bar...I gained a few smiles from the staff wearing also nothing that can be categorized as clothing, ignoring the shouts of drink orders and wolf whistles from the bar hoggers I reached out for a bottle of 'Appletizer' and opened it taking a big sip out of it.

Standing around various drunks – I realised that Carlisle was going to be wanting money for proof of what I had done out here as Lucy was in my place (which I felt extremely bad about because she had saved me from a very awkward situation of having sex with a man I barely knew...Also having sex for money)...I glanced at the catwalk and saw that another girl had gone up there and men were slipping notes into her small amount of clothing as she danced in front of them...I was not much of a dancer but dancing seemed to be the best thing to do without having to get rid of my clothing.

Finishing the last of my drink in one long gulp; I plucked up the courage to walk behind the catwalk...In the security of the closed curtain..I took a deep breath and undid the garter that was on one of my legs and threw it to the ground.

The warm lights hit me as I stepped through the curtain and onto the stage – the other two girls had noticed me step on and had nodded once in greeting before going back to their customers. New cheers and bellows came from my audience as I walked down the catwalk not having to worry about staying steady in a huge pair of heels. This still felt wrong, but this was a much better option than having sex with anyone – or indulging in other pleasurable activities that I had no experience in.

I began to dance slowly and smoothly at the end of the catwalk bending down as many ways and has many times as I could manage to get their money into my underwear, corset or even in the insides of my shoes....After only five minutes, I had enough money in my clothes to buy my own house – that was going to be my rent money, even though Carlisle and this contraption of a company got a share...It would still be enough for Edward.

The music that had been playing dragged into another song and more cheers came as I turned to see Lucy come onto the catwalk...I backed away from my spot letting Lucy have her moments and contented myself with one of the poles. There were now four of us on the stage enjoying the money we were all being given.

Lucy shot me the occasional glances when she had a moment away from the desire-driven alcohol consumed men around us stretching up their hands, either with notes in them or not. The touching was not a welcome new happening to me; there were a crowd near the pole who had gathered from where I had originally been standing at the very foot of the catwalk that at every opportune moment slapped, pinched or palmed me...The heat from the lights and the deafening sound of the music had sent me into over-drive...The sweat was beading from my forehead without warning and I, remembering the rule that Carlisle had given me earlier about not being able to have your makeup run...Makeup which a strange girl that I could not see in the club anymore had put on me the moment I had arrived.

I stepped away from the lights, and the catwalk altogether sinking into the sofa opposite the closed curtain and putting my head in my hands to get rid of the dizziness.

"Bella?"

I looked up and saw Lucy on her knees in front of me "are you alright?"

The tears that I had been trying so hard to keep away then washed over me at the concern radiating from Lucy's voice...She had been such a good friend to me, a good friend who did not deserve to have this kind of job just to earn some money...I was no longer the stranger British girl in France, anymore.

The change was not a welcome one!

"Do you have a cigarette?" I had not had a cigarette in weeks but I knew already that Lucy was a smoker, going outside at various times to have one but in all honesty I had always assumed it was because she had needed to take five minutes to clear her head...The clearing of my head was definitely needed right now.

"Sure...Come on, we'll go together" Lucy took my hand and helped me up to standing.

"Where's Carlisle?" I asked her taking out the notes from the areas of my clothes and popping them all into one pile and into the waistband of my underwear.

"We won't be seeing him, again...Tonight, anyway"

I did not know what Lucy meant by her answer – but I couldn't find it in my heart to ask her about it.

The outside air was a comfort to my overly-flushed body as Lucy and I stepped out into the back of the club...Desertion and neglect surrounding us from the weeds and overly-grown grass.

Lucy took out a cigarette from behind her ear also a lighter out of her shoe and lit one up, giving it to me.

"Thank you" I said taking a drag, the endorphins from the much needed taste of tobacco surrounding my head, making me smile uncontrollably...Lucy had lit up her own cigarette from behind the other ear and smiled as she studied the look on my face.

"Good?"

"So good!" I breathed out taking another drag..."Listen Lucy, I need to thank you for what you did back there"

"Oh honey there is no need to thank me, naturally you were scared and Carlisle can have tendencies to be very scary at times but I have worked here long enough to know what he wants and to make him shut up for a night"

"Do you ever get....Turned on?"

"No, sweetheart...Fortunately getting more and more convincing that us girls are in actual fact aroused at the hands of our boss comes with experience"

"So it's all acting?"

"Yes...Acting at a very good price!"

"Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you had a boyfriend and had to do this job on the side?"

"Sometimes but then again, I haven't had a boyfriend in a long time...My track record with men has never been good and I guess the only thing to do when that situation arises is to cross the bridge when I get to it...Speaking of boyfriends...That man who carried you out of here the last time you were here...Are the two of you involved?"

As soon as Lucy brought up Edward...His face clouded my mind instantly – I had forgotten about him and the fact that he is also working at the moment until the early hours of tomorrow morning...The sadness ran through the surface and deep inside of my heart...The only reason I was doing this is because of him, the kindness that he had shown me since my very first night here had all been too much to take without giving something back. Paying my part of the rent money meant that he did not have to work even more ridiculous hours to make up for two lots of payment...However, he did not know what I was doing and that in, itself broke my heart.

"No...We are not together; he is offering me a place to stay?"

"Really?"

"Yeah...He doesn't know that I am here, though"

"I can understand that by the adamant way that he carried you out of here and away from the punters and the spotlight. Do you reckon he is interested in you?"

Edward Masen....Interested in me?! I don't think so!! A sweet, well-rounded guy like that does not need to have a whore as a girlfriend!

"Hell no!"

"I reckon he is....I saw his face briefly when he saw you up on that catwalk and I swear – if he wasn't your older brother then he had the look of a lover on his face. The shock was uncomfortable to look at and come on, any man who sweeps a woman off her feet and rescues her from the bad people is a man worth having"

"Edward isn't like that....He is a friend, a really great friend...The only friend I ever had in this country and...I mean, being grateful is something that I will always have for him for as long as he is in my life but no...Nothing more"

"Is he British?"

"No...American...I think...Anyway, he and I are both from two different worlds...He's from Pretzels and vitamin water and I am from Gin and Roast dinners!"

"How much did you get tonight?"

"A little over eight hundred"

"On your second night...Geez, even I didn't make that much!"

"Hopefully it can be enough to pay Carlisle the rest of his payment and then...I can go away"

Lucy's face dropped as she finished the rest of her cigarette...Her expression alarmed me, I flicked the butt away onto the grass and crossed my arms on my chest. "What?"

"Honey...I am so sorry to have to tell you this but...I don't think that Carlisle is going to leave you alone just yet"

"What do you mean?!"

"I mean...You have to have sex with him"

"What?!"

"Carlisle has to have a woman like that...It's all about his power and as much as it hurts me to have to tell you this, it is something that is never going to go away"

"Lucy...He is old enough to be my father...It was bad enough having to kiss and straddle the guy!"

"I know, Bella...You have more strength than all of us in here, you want to get away from here but we are too much of cowards to say no to the money"

"I can't do that, Lucy...I have to be in love with someone to have sex with them"

"Act....Bella, you have to learn how to act!"

"Is there any other way to get out?"

"No"

"What about cameras...We can bug his office with one?"

"We can't...The last girl who tried that got beaten to a pulp and ended up in intensive care by one of the bouncers...Carlisle's office is like a bank it is always guarded"

"The police?"

"Know nothing...The only inspectors that have been here in the last five years are ones that have gone home with a worker no doubt for a night of fun"

"How does this happen?"

"France may come across to travellers as a safe country and in all honesty, most places are...Here....Here is all forgotten about...Not an inspector or camera in sight for miles"

"What am I going to do?!"

"The only thing you can do....You have to give Carlisle what he wants"

"Even if I do, there is still no definite chance that he will leave me alone...It's not like he is sending letters to my own house...The letters end up in Edward's and if he sees one note from Carlisle then god knows what will happen...He will chuck me out or even worse, end up in prison...If Carlisle is the bum-sucker you make him out to be to the authorities"

"Can you not tell Edward, anything?"

"No...I would never tell him – he would move and that is too much hassle as he is settled...Has a job and an income...The life that was already in place before I even came into it. Before I wrongly came into his life"

"Why do you think that coming into his life was wrong?"

"If I had never stepped through that park and had him greet me...He would never have to live with a whore"

"Bella-"

"I'm sorry, Luce...But that is what we are...We are whores!"

"I hate doing this as much as you do...But Carlisle offers me so much more money than I could ever dream of getting anywhere else sitting behind a desk and answering the phone when it rings...I need to live and I need to survive"

"I know...So do I...But I can't survive living in someone else's house which they pay for in order to keep lying to them and doing this"

"So what are you suggesting?"

"I have to move out"

"Move out...Where are you going to go?"

"In a cheap hotel...Under a bridge, anywhere the shame of working in this hell-hole does not follow me or affect anyone else I care about"

"Bella...I may be changing the subject here but, if you care that much about Edward then why don't you tell him?"

"For one reason...I cannot bear to think that he is alive on the earth and thinking badly of me"

"His thoughts mean a lot to you?"

"Not so much his thoughts but the way he thinks about me...I have never cared about first impressions at least not as much as I do now, maybe it is a way of keeping the pretence of normality alive in our friendship or maybe...I just can't live knowing that he hates me"

"Bella...If I had a room...A spare one then believe me, I would offer it to you but I don't....You can't move out because Edward will find you again and he will want to know why...He will take offence at the fact that you have left him...He seems to really care about you"

"I know...He has always cared way too much about me, every time I look him in the face...It breaks my heart, every time his voice comes into my head I want to hang myself in shame or scream at the top of my lungs. Lucy, I am a bad person...I am a bad person for going ahead with something like this...My parents were right!"

"Now I can listen to you go on for hours about Edward but I will not hear that coming from your mouth again, Bella do you understand me....You parents were wrong sending you here, if they had never wrongly sent you out here to learn a lesson that no rightful parent does anymore then this situation need not have appealed to you!"

"I want to go home!"

"I know you do, Bella...I can try and get Carlisle to tell me exactly what he wants from you and then maybe get a chance to persuade him to want only that"

"Lucy I can never ask that of you!"

"I want to...Bella, as strange as this may sound...I want to see you live a better life than me, a better life than this place....You have the intelligence to go onto whatever it is your heart desires...Believe me, honey...I will help you!"

"Thank you"

I stepped forward and gave her a meaningful hug as she wrapped her own arms tightly around me.

Nothing else was needed to be thought or said.

Thanks for Reading!

*Samantha*