*~I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT....I OWN 'La Pomme D'Armor'~*
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*Bella*
I had spent the morning rattling my brains, Sebastian had been a doll and brought mine and mum's stuff back from the flat that he rented out...I was beginning to miss my wash things but now I was able to have my own things back again, much to my relief.
"Bella what is it?"
I had been gazing out of the window, in deep thought over the fact that I was going to meet my long lost Aunt Gilly – after not seeing her since I was around three years old...I can't remember much about her, it was essential for me to know that mum was going to be in the best hands possible....I turned to find Edward sitting up in the bed, a frown clouding his still-sleepy expression.
"Sorry...I couldn't sleep" I answered him folding my arms to my chest but never moving towards him.
"Is it about your mum?"
"I forgot to tell you yesterday...Aunt Gilly...The aunt that I haven't seen since I was three has offered to give mum a place to stay..She is adamant that she return to England"
"You're wondering whether to go with her?"
"Oh Edward, I never want to leave you...I just worry that my dad can find a way to track her down and hurt her again"
"Come here, Bella"
"I didn't mean to wake you...Go back to sleep"
"Now is not the time to shut me out, come here" Edward lifted up the cover to my side of the bed...I unfolded my arms and climbed into the bed..Edward instantly wrapped me in his arms and pulled me down so that my back was against his chest, the right side of my body sinking into the mattress beneath us.
"If you want to go, Bella...Then you go...I have no problem with you wanting to see if your mum is safe – she deserves to be safe"
"No, Edward I want to be here with you...I have only just got you"
"I know, but when you get there...I already know that you will find a way to come back to me – just like I, would find a way to come back to you"
"I don't know what to do"
"If I ask you to stay it would be selfish..As much as I'd want you to stay with all my heart, your mother is more important than me...I no longer have my parents and I wish so much that I did, still...But parents are important, Bella"
"Even mine?"
"Even yours...They made the wrong decisions but your mum is so adamant to be a proper mum to you, now"
"Will you come with me to see my Aunt?"
"Oh god, not more family!" he teased snuggling his head into my neck and making me giggle at the stubble prickling my skin. "I always know how to make you laugh"
"You need a shave...So is that a yes, then?"
"Of course I'll come with you, Bella...I'd go anywhere with you"
Smiling contently...I brought his hands around my waist and stayed still for a moment in the warmth of his arms and the heat of the duvet wrapping the two of us up safely.
"I better be getting ready" I whispered climbing out of the bed, again and taking my wash bag with me to the bathroom...My one this time around..Well I call it mine; it isn't mine it's a spare one.
Leaving Edward...The thought of leaving him made me feel physically sick...I had already left him once and that was hard enough to endure...A second time would be purely unbearable. He will only make me go –selfless being that he is, never thinking once about his own aching heart. It may have been nice to have met his parents one day if they were still alive and I was thankful in return that my mother had welcomed him so nicely, as it goes, Edward will probably never meet my father and it was better that way.
It was nice to use my own products, I made a mental note in the shower to thank Sebastian for bringing our stuff back – mum was going to need it when she was carted off by Aunt Gilly. Gilly, from what I can vaguely remember hacking my brains last night and not being able to sleep properly for the first time, even when I was in Edward's hold...She was a little too eccentric – always barking on about the latest antique deals or vintage jelwelrey she brought at an auction of some sort – I had never once had a proper conversation with her and after I was three she disappeared from the face of the earth...God knows why she never once asked about me, her and mum had spoken on the phone but I was never really that interested in picking up the phone and speaking to her on my own....Chances are she will never know much about me when I meet her today and it will no doubt cause awkwardness but hey...Not all family reunions are rosy are they?!
Once I got back to the bedroom, the bed was empty...Edward respecting my privacy to get changed without his eyes studying me...Now that we were together, I didn't care a jot about him seeing me in only a towel – If I am continuing to be honest with myself I wanted him to see all of me, intimately but being the Gentleman, he would never intentionally make me feel uncomfortable and that is one of the reasons I had a huge amount of respect to him for.
Quickly getting changed in some comfortable, already washed clothes...I clipped my hair at the back of my head, half-up, half down and let the curls fall across my shoulders...Using the hairdryer was not so much of a routine for me in the mornings when I washed my hair anymore because everyone had already seen it frizzy and made no comment on it...The no comments made me feel like the frizz didn't matter so much, anymore.
I hung my towels back up in the bathroom and sitting on the edge of the bed...I put some socks on my feet the breeze from the open balcony door still lingering in the air even though now it was closed. I didn't mind the cold, I never had done – mum said it was because I was born in autumn and for once, I agreed with her.
As I secured both socks on my feet properly there was a soft knock at my door...It opened slowly and Edward peered around, the peering an indication that he was checking to see if I was decent...Once he saw me in clothing looking me up and down he walked into the room, properly.
God...I loved the colour blue on him, I had seen that V-neck sweater once since being friends with him and had always had a soft spot for it...The colour brought out the bronze tints in the ends of his hair and made the lushness of his evergreen eyes brighter than usual...The sweater also defined the muscles on his chest and it was definitely hard not to notice the tone of his figure through the thin material.
"You okay?" he asked walking over to me, I looked up at him.
"I haven't said this before, but I really love that sweater" I replied with a smile, trying not to sound too seductive and scare him off – I had things to do, today and all of the honesty and remarks could be saved until later when we were both alone.
"Thank you...I will say you're beautiful...But then again, you always are...Besides, you will only brush the comment off"
"You think you know me so well?"
"I do...More than you can ever comprehend to know anyway" I smiled at him and shook my head "are you ready...I was thinking we can make a quick coffee stop on the way down there...You look exhausted"
"Thanks...I think I am going to need it" I took his hand and he helped me up to standing from the bed and we walked out of the room together.
The weather outside was chilly, but too uncomfortable – I still did the buttons of my top up in front of the apartment door before taking Edward's hand and stepping out into the day.
The square was quiet..As it usually was this time of the morning, the more livelier it was the later the time...people may only like it in the nightime but it had officially become one of my favourite spots....I smiled a little uncontrollably as we passed the fountain – the two wishes I had made on it had already come true and I released Edward's hand as I led the way into the cafe.
"Bonjour ma cheries!" Sebastian greeted us...It didn't take much for him to make anyone smile at the beginning of the day...Customer service in England was rubbish most people never having any enthusiasm or want to be there working and you as a customer ended up in a mood at the end. Sebastian always brought a smile to my face, that man could light up an entire room by just saying hello...It was an amazing gift.
"Two coffees please, Seb?" Edward asked his friend politely.
"Anything for you!" Sebastian said winking at me before turning to make the coffees...Edward played with my fingers in his own underneath the view of his friend..I bit my lip to keep from laughing.
"There we go!" Sebastian exclaimed placing the cups on the counter...Edward handed him a couple of notes and gave me one of the cups before walking out of the door – not stopping to have the usual conversation and banter with his friend...I had a lot to do today, seeing a long-lost relative does put a new respect on anyone's day.
"Sorry about the whole hand thing...I have told Jake but Sebastian still doesn't know" I said to Edward as we walked side by side.
"Bella...Don't apologise for anything" he answered me simply.
Discarding our cups in the nearest bin in the hospital we walked down the corridor to my mum's room...I spun around suddenly outside to Edward who had also made a quick and abrupt halt.
"Listen, I may have to apologise for my Aunt now, she used to be a little too enthusiastic about the littlelist things, if you want to go now...I will completely understand but still know that I love you" Edward placed his hands on both my face and rubbed his thumbs along my skin, the familiar tingling sensations coming back. "I don't care about that, Bella...I love you and I will stay with you" he whispered kissing me tenderly but lovingly before releasing me, I nodded taking a deep breath walked into the room.
"Well...If it isn't Isabella!" Gilly squealed closing the distance between us and wrapping me into a crushing hug...I held my breath and let it out a little too loudly as she let go of me...Her hands were still on my shoulders.
"My haven't you grown into a pretty young thing!" she exclaimed tilting my head from one side to the other to get a closer analysis...I could feel Edward's eyes on the back of my head and guessed immediately that he'd be trying to keep his laughter in.
"How are you, Gilly?"
"I am well, pudding...When your mother rang me to explain what happened I just had to come and see for myself...How did you end up in this place, Isabella!"
"I actually quite like it" I replied in defence, clenching my fists together at my side ever so slightly...This is where the snobby comments started.
"Hello Edward" Mum greeted with a smile.
"Ah my, who is this strapping young Gentleman?" I wanted so much to take the vase that was still filled with Edward's flowers in it and smash my Aunt around the head with it.
"Gilly this is my...Best friend, Edward" as I finished...I saw mum shoot me a glare, not out of anger but more astonishment as she knew that we were more than best friends, now.
"My...I bet you have the girls all fighting over you!"
"I only have eyes for one" Edward replied as he shook her hand...I bit down on my lip at what he said but Gilly seemed too busy studying him to notice the hidden meaning in his remark.
"Gilly-" I called her name to take her eyes off of my boyfriend, which she did eventually "mum was saying that you had offered her a place to stay"
"I sure have...She cannot stay here, it's bad enough that you do, Isabella and don't you worry your pretty little head about a thing...I will not let your daddy anywhere near her"
"Okay"
"I have never liked your father and now, I can say it freely"
"Gilly-" mum tried to warn her sister but it fell on deaf ears.
"Always so superior to everyone around him and yet...A coward through and through"
"Gilly-"
"I mean, I know I am not one to talk...Marrying a Police Officer and everything but my hubby is no coward...He knows how to defend himself and he sure as hell does not hit a woman!"
Now I know why I had never made any contact with her...In my anger, I flew out of the room...Her remarks making me see red. How dare she have the guts to say such things about my dad in front of my mum, they had married because they were in love with each other and Gilly is not so faithful, I had heard information from my dad regarding her flings and soirees of cheats on her husband.
Sitting down on a nearby chair, I put my face in my hands breathing deeply to calm myself.
"Bella, baby" the velvet voice I adored so much made me lift my head from the darkness.
"I'm sorry...I just saw red...She infuriates me, now..I am glad I didn't stay in contact with her"
"Not all relatives are nice"
"She's not so perfect...She flirts all the time behind her husband's back and in honesty, I was always fond of my Uncle Geoffery"
"Bella it's okay...You have every right to be angry"
"I need to do this...If I can get through this one day then we can go back home and be alone"
"Of course we can!"
*(Evening)*
Gilly had gone from the hospital early so Edward and I could spent some quality talking time with my mother...She was so apologetic but the two of us kept brushing them off..It was not mum's fault that her sister was bonkers and heartless.
I had to check with the doctor on mine and Edward's way home on mum's progress...In simple English he said that she could be discharged either today or tomorrow.
Mum understood my exit, the sleeping meds already taken their toll on her for the undisturbed sleep ahead.
Edward and I walked home in silence, hand in hand...It was almost as if we didn't know what to say to each other and this day was already a first for everything...I sat down on Edward's bed putting my head in my hands as he walked out of the room...He said he was going to do something but I was deep into my own overloaded mind that I never heard what he was actually doing.
In my system of emotional state, which I had grown to know for a long time now usually consisted of either anger or sadness...Never having or experiencing both at the same time but as I sat alone on my boyfriend's bed...The tears made an unwelcome entrance the wetness seeping onto my hands. I didn't know whether I was crying out of anger, sadness or another feeling unrecognisable because of the repeat of my Aunt's words in my hand banging through them and making the tears fall harder.
"Hey" Edward soothed, his voice so sudden that it had made me gasp in the darkness his hands soothing my wrists. "Bella tell me what is wrong?" he asked me taking my hands away from my face...At his touch, I could do anything that is why I needed him in my life so much.
"I don't know...You must really hate this!"
"Hate what?"
"Meeting my family...It would have been easier to not meet them at all – if my dad hadn't been such a prick and treated my mum like that!"
"It's not your fault, Bella...You do get some crazy ideas in that head of yours"
"I just wonder what you are thinking...Please tell me what you are thinking?"
"I am thinking that you are the most amazing thing in my life...I never once thought that I'd find it in my heart to love again through my grief but along you came, Bella Swan...Turning me around in more ways that one...I am so grateful for you, sweetheart"
Edward always spoke with such honesty...The kind of honesty that made someone feel so much better about themselves beyond normal word descriptions...The best thing about it was, he was mine...And I was his.
"Kiss me, Edward?" I asked him in a whisper...He leant his head in and I wrapped my arms around his neck bringing him closer to me the moment our mouths touched, lingering on each other before I opened my mouth further and caressed my tongue with his...His moan vibrating on my lips...I desired him more than ever, now and my body had already turned onto auto pilot – my actions hopefully gushing out my feelings for him. I stood up, he being in sync with me came up from his knees and wrapped his arms around my body, securing me as our mouths moved.
I would do anything for Edward...Absolutely anything in the world...Love had never been something that I had experienced mutually with my ex boyfriend but this, with Edward...This is love, this was my love..All of it waving out from my heart and into the movements of my mouth.
I took my mouth off of his, needing to breathe but also to trail my mouth down along his defining jaw line and soft flawless, skin along his neck...His Adam's apple bobbing as he swallowed above me...I was not embarrassed to show my affection for him, not embarrassed about taking the lead with my kissing trail...I needed him. Without lifting my head, I took my arms away from his neck brought my fingers up to the hem of his shirt...I held it tightly in both my hands and lifted my mouth off of his collarbone to lift it off of him completely...Edward lifted his arms a little shakily – in my haste to have my fingers on his skin, I threw the jumper across the room and touched my hands flat on his chest.
"Bella" Edward said huskily but steadily.
"Ssh" I silenced him softly and trailed my fingers along his toned Pecs, abdominals and hips...Kissing every spot that my fingers left behind always making him feel special as much as I could because he was special, the most special person to me..Ever!
With shaky fingers due to my desire for him, I undid the button of his jeans and trailed down the zipper managing to do both those things when he grabbed hold of my wrists and held them away from the area – I lifted my head.
"Bella...We don't have to do this...I don't want you to feel uncomfortable" DAMN him and his gentlemanly ways...He was obviously needing this as much as me and yet he was willing to stop if I wanted to...How did I get so lucky to have a man like him love me?
"I want this...I want this so much, Edward" I whispered running my hands through his hair as he groaned uncontrollably at the feel of my hands. "Make love to me, Edward" I whispered...He grabbed a hold of my waist again and crashed his lips to mine, urgency and passion enhancing from the hasty movements of his mouth on mine...I could never get enough of him, I would spend the rest of my life just kissing him because he was such an amazing kisser...I kept my mouth at his pace but stopped them suddenly when he hoisted me upwards into the air, I wrapped my legs around his hips feeling his erection against me...How was I able to do that to him...He could make me do anything with one touch to my skin but...Me, how was that possible?
Indulging in my mouth, he twisted us around and walked to the bed, his mouth all over my face and my neck, not in a horrible way but a beautiful way..Every mould of his mouth to my skin set my soul alight...He bent down and pulled the duvet cover back and then landed with me gently onto the mattress...I sunk my head back into the pillows beneath my head gasping as he moved his head down to kiss my neck...At the same time as my head went back, my neck pushed forward needing more of him.
This man was going to be the death of me!!
"I adore you, Bella Swan" he whispered against the skin on my collarbone..All I could do was squirm underneath him, my hips bucking against his without my brain ever registering if that was the right thing to do or not in this kind of intimate situation...Lifting my arms, Edward then took off my top, our almost bare chests melding together as he kissed me again on the mouth...I had never really liked my body, even though I was thin – I still had my self-conciousness like the majority of the world but having Edward see me never once made me want to cover up – he made me feel amazing.
Edward disconnected our mouths and moved his to my covered breasts, the skin but also the skin underneath the fabric of my bra...I needed it off so badly but I didn't want to look too eager or persistent in that moment of my want and pure need.
Like magic...Edward undid the clasp of my bra at my back and removed it slowly letting the straps fall down my arms the sensations of both his mouth and the lightness of the straps giving me goose bumps...Lifting my hands from the mattress, he removed it completely and his mouth began to work on my breasts...His hand coming to knead one as he worshipped the other one and vice versa...The tingles and ecstasy through my body were indescribable..I moved my hands to his hair massaging his scalp that I knew he loved me doing so much.
"So beautiful!" Edward said after finishing with my breasts moving down my stomach...I flinched as he got to my jeans...The being half-naked didn't worry me as much as being fully exposed to him, wanting it and thinking about it was a lot different than doing it in reality....I took in a deep breath needing to rid myself of these feelings and thoughts of doubt..The need to have Edward was much larger and the worst thing to do is burst the bubble and ruin the moment for the both of us.
"Are you okay?" Edward asked looking up at me, his thumbs hooked around the waistband of my jeans..I nodded my eyes heavy in lust as he undid my button and trailed down the zipper..In anticipation, I clenched my stomach muscles tightly...My jeans moving slowly down my legs to my feet where Edward took them off completely from my body...I was now in nothing but my knickers...Feeling the blush rise to my cheeks.
Closing my eyes, feeling like I wanted to hit myself...I rubbed my face a couple of times and took my hands away, gasping as Edward's eyes locked with mine....I swallowed.
"I have never been very confident with my body" I stated simply keeping my voice low.
"Why...You're exquisite?" Edward asked, I smiled at his choice of words.
"I guess having the person you love seeing you makes you a bit paranoid" I was truly ruining the moment...Of course, something so perfect had to be run over by my own self-opinion.
"Bella...Look at me...I am not going to pressure you into anything...I will stop if you want me to, but know this, Bella...No other woman has ever come near to you...Nothing in my life has ever compared to you...My feelings may not be much but they are genuine..You are the most stunning woman on this earth...Your soul, your heart...Everything about you and I love you so very much, Bella"
"No...I don't want you to stop...I love you, Edward...Please know that!"
"I do, baby...I am here and no one is going to hurt you, not anymore...It's just us...Me and you, Bella"
In assurance, I kissed him deeply before he lifted himself up off of the bed, taking off his trousers and revealing his black boxers...It was so hard not to throw myself at him then and there, he can say that I am beautiful but he is a GOD! In silence, I lifted my body up and crouched on my knees, the mattress soft underneath me..He looked at me wearily...I reached out one of my hands to the waistband of his boxers and pulled them towards me, making him move with them once he was in touching distance...I attacked his mouth his hands going into my hair and massaging my scalp.
Needing to have him surrounded me once again I took my mouth away from his and hooked my hands on the waistband of his boxers..Only this time trailing them down to his knees...He kicked them off easily...Bringing my head up...I lay down flat on the bed and took off my own knickers allowing him to see me, I was putting myself in a very vulnerable position by doing so but I needed to see the look on his face.
Edward moaned as the last garment left my body...He climbed back onto the bed and over me..I scooted my body so that it was facing length ways from the headboard to the door...His moan was enough to make me believe he wanted me in return.
"This may be uncomfortable for you, Bella...I will be as gentle as I can" he assured me, reaching over and taking something out of his bedside drawer..Which can't be anything else but a condom and put it on swiftly before positioning himself.
"It's okay, Edward...I trust you" I replied to him...With a deep breath Edward entered me, it was a little discomforting to start off with but he was gentle..Pulling out and back in a couple of more times before completely filling me.
It felt strange but a GREAT kind of strange...Edward was everywhere – we were both connected in every way possible...I held onto his shoulders and brought him closer to me kissing him as our hips moved beneath us...In perfect synch...He was gentle and it felt so amazingly good to feel someone like that, again...Only this time having your love returned.
"I love you" I whispered moving my head to his neck...His hips gradually moving faster...Increasing his speed inside me, reaching every area and hitting every amazing spot...Edward had done this before, there was no doubt in my mind about it...He hit a good spot throwing my head back up he kissed my face never leaving anything left...The tightening sensation I had only experienced once came into my lower abdomen as I slowly began to build, moving my own hips faster against his – making him go deeper.
Both our breathing picked up as we climbed together, his breath all over my face before burying his head into my neck groaning against my shoulder, his sound muffled so as not to draw attention to ourselves.
I was so close to release...I hoped then that he was too, not holding on anymore...I let go riding the waves of ecstasy as I came down from the most amazing orgasm...Ever, I have never had experience of them to count on both hands but Edward Masen was a master.
He was my master – and that was the best medicine of all to swallow.
Thanks for Reading!
*Samantha*
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