Very sorry for the late update!! Well I am now 18 yrs old and I am loving it! It has been a very stressful and sad period in time for me since I last updated. A classmate of mine died about four weeks ago in a biking accident during our spring break. It was a day before my Bday when I found out. But things are better for me and most of my classmates now. We have become much more closer than before. I am also going to college soon which is awesome! Which also means...get ready... ACEN 2010 in in three weeks!!!!!!! Yes Anime Central the huge Anime Convention in Chi-town (or near Chi-town...more like rosemount) is coming and I'm so excited!!!!!
So I dedicate this chapter to my classmate Faith, who has live her life to the fullest and has brought a smile to me and everyone else who has crossed her path. =) 3
Disclaimer: I don't own G.A or A walk to Remember (PS: I don't support his decision to base The Last Song off of Miley. Not a fan of that decision...=P)
I remember the first time I met Mikan. I had just come back to Japan from England when I was about ten years old. Our teacher sat me down next to her since there was no other spot.
"What's your name?" I asked her.
"Sakura. Sakura Mikan." She said smiling.
"You look ugly while smiling."
"Well I can't help it can I Hyuuga-san? God created me like this and I am glad."
After that moment we never really talked again. She was always by herself except for the times she was talking to Imai but even then they didn't really talk.
Throughout the years of being in every single class with her, the only thing I learned about the girl was that she might become a nun one day because she loved God so much. Also over the years, I had dated many girls who were lucky enough to become my girlfriend. They would always compare themselves to Mikan saying stuff like, "She always wears pigtails" or "She doesn't have a chest! She should have asked God for that instead!" In my mind, whenever they compared themselves to Polka, that meant they were insecure about themselves and they saw Mikan as a threat. Who would have thought I was paying so much attention to her over the years?
At this moment I ignored all of those memories and looked at her small figure beside me. Her long brown hair was flowing down her back and her small hands were covering her face. She looked so small right now, I felt horrible.
Leukemia, if I remember, was the cancer of the blood. Doctors have now found some treatment to it, but it only slows down the process of it growing. Many people still die from it, and Mikan was going to be one of them.
"So?" I finally said to her.
"What do you mean so?" she asked with her hands still on her face.
"So what you have cancer, I liked you before I knew you had cancer. I will continue liking, no, loving you. I will do whatever it takes to make you happy."
"I told you not to fall for me." She chuckled.
"Well, I guess I couldn't help it." I said softly patting her hair.
I then brought her head close to mine and softly kissed her. Sure I was scared about her dying, but I wanted her to know that I was brave and that I loved her.
"Natsume," she said after parting from me. "I want my dad to know that you found out. Is that okay?"
"Hn." I simply stated. I know that her father doesn't like me, but I want to be part of this journey. I want to be able to remember every second with her just like I did when I first met her. I am greedy, I know, but I don't care. I just don't care.
"YOU TOLD HIM?!?!" Her father exploded.
"Yes daddy." She softly said.
"But why Mikan?"
"Because I trust him."
"What about Imai-san? She is your best friend."
"Yes but I feel that God didn't want me to tell her right now. I think Natsume was the one God sent to help me. Just like Gabriel was sent to the Wise men."
I was quiet during the rest of their conversation. After thirty minutes, Mr. Sakura told Mikan to rest while he spoke with me. She bowed before retiring upstairs.
"She sleeps a little more than she usually does now days." Mr. Sakura said taking off his glasses. I took a minute to look at him. He looked older then he was. And Mikan said he was in his lower forties. His blonde hair was turning white and there were black circles under his eyes. I guess dealing with Mikan's cancer has taking a toll on him. I feel bad for him.
"How long has she had it?" I asked him.
"We found out about it last spring. She had been experiencing dizzy spells and fainting since she was in her sophomore year, but we thought it was something else."
"What is it going to be like for the next few months?"
"Why do you care?" He sneered.
"Because as her boyfriend, I want to know what I can do. I want to be prepared" I simply said. Mr. Sakura was getting mad at me. But I was now part of their secret. I was a major part of her life and he knew it. He finally sighed and started to talk.
"Mikan," he started. "will get tired easily like she has been. But she won't be going to school after spring break. It will take up too much energy." He said looking out the window.
"So she won't graduate?"
"She has her credits already even though math isn't all that great. But she has been working really hard on that. Jinno-sensei's wife was very good friends with Mrs. Sakura, so his wife worked hard to tutor Mikan."
I knew Mikan had a hard time in math for a very long time, but graduating early? I felt bad that I didn't know any of this was happening.
"Do me one thing Hyuuga," Mr. Sakura started. "Please, don't upset Mikan. Stay by her side if you can. I want her to be happy. Just don't screw up." With that he escorted me outside and I left to go home. Once I got to my room, which was around 4 o'clock, I went straight to sleep. I ignored all calls from Ruka and the gang, I ignored Aoi, my mom, and my furious dad. All I could think about was Mikan.
I woke up at 1 o'clock in the morning and scanned my room. My sister was sleep at the end of the bed with some gift in her hand. Slowly, I pulled the gift away from her and examined it. By the bow, there was two cards. I looked at the card on top first.
Hyuuga,
Mikan wanted me to give this to you. She is so stupid that she forgot to give you your Christmas gift. So I had to drive to her house and then drive to yours and drop it off. You OWE me.
Be ready on Monday,
Imai
"Tch." I said and then proceeded to open the next letter.
Dear Natsume,
I am very sorry for not giving this to you on Christmas. I had forgotten to wrap this up for you and well it was under a bunch of stuff. After my nap, I realized that I had forgotten to give you your gift after almost a week and a half. Luckily, Hotaru and her mother were over for dinner and I gave it to her to give to you. But I guess you didn't need to know that…
So anyway, this gift is very special. It was my mother's and mine. I have used it every day like my mom did and I wish you will do the same.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year,
Mikan
PS: Don't call me Polka Dots anymore…it's weird…And God does not approve of such behavior…
With a smile chuckle, I opened the gift and saw it was a worn out Bible. It never fails for my God loving girlfriend to give me a Bible. Girlfriend…it has a very nice ring to it right now. I flipped open to the first page to see that someone had written in it.
Yuka Sakura
Birth: 5/11/1967
Death: 1/01/1992
Mikan Sakura
Birth: 1/01/1992
Death:______2010
Mikan, in her own handwriting, had written the year of her death already in the Bible. I was angry, she could be saved. She really could. Why think of the future so early? Why think about dying when you have so many days before you do? I started to flip through it before I reached the end pages. On the end pages, I spotted a few pages were torn out, but then somewhere still there It seems to me that Mikan, when she was younger, tried to ripe them out. The edges were worn out but there was one page that was still there.
Things to do
By Mikan Sakura, age 13
Climb a mountain
See the ocean
Watch the stars
Be in two places at once
Eat a mud pie without getting sick
Walk backwards while going forward
Name a star
Write a book
Beat Tsubasa-Sempei in at least one video game…
The list went on and on but the last page was ripped and I couldn't read it. My worries about what I should do with Mikan melted away. I knew what I was going to be doing for the next few months. No annoying friends pressuring me to be with them, no frustrating father to get on my nerves, just me and Mikan, fulfilling her dreams before she dies. Fulfilling her dreams before I close my heart again. Mikan: my own guardian angel.
Thanks for reading and being so patient during this hard time. The next chapter will be up soon!!!! R&R!!!! =D