*hey guys, a bit of news before I start, im planning on wrapping this up in three chapters so I can move on to my next work, and im postponing "Yui's memories" till I get some time to focus. My last three chapters, of which this is one, are going to be considerably longer so I can pack in more . It's real tough to work inside the cannon guys, but don't worry, your going to love my next fic even more. (its going to take place after 3I) - doggy-kun

Temptation and Redemption

April 24th, 2016

8:57 AM

NERV HQ: The office of Major Misato Katsuragi

The last few months had been a emotional roller coaster for Misato Katsuragi. Kaji had been killed, Shinji had been consumed by Leliel and his own Unit-01, Asuka was attacked by Zeurel and was left mentally unstable. Then Rei had to cause Unit-00 to destruct to destroy Armisael, only to find out she was a clone. Now for some reason Asuka was in a coma, and now the Marduke Institute was sending in the next pilot. Still, only one more angel and they could all move on with their lives.

Misato was going to take Shinji in after this, and they were going to move to Hokkaido. She was planning on telling him after they had beaten the last angel. In the last few months she had seen Shinji go through so much, so in the end she just wanted him to be able to live a normal life after all of this mess. She did however wonder what they would do with the Evangelion units after this, but they would just have to cross that bridge when they got there. For the first time in 16 years, it looked like the human race just might have a future.

9:20 AM

NERV HQ: Locker room

Shinji put on his plug suit with a blank expression. He felt lost of late, sure his time at NERV might soon be over, there was only one angel left, but he was haunted by fear and guilt. In the last four months he had been exposed to terrible secrets, and had even hurt the first girl he had ever loved. Yes, he Shinji Ikari, the ace pilot of Unit-01, the first person to ever achieve a four hundred percent synch ratio with his Evangelion, the Great Genius Shinji-Sama had put Asuka Langley Soryu into a comatose state. He hated himself so much he just wanted to curl up in a corner and die.

But he had a responsibility, so it had to wait. But when this was all over, he was going to do it, he was going to find a quiet place and end it all. He didn't deserve to live after what he had done. He just wanted to fade away after all of this, and let everyone continue with their lives. He finished up and walked out to the cages.

When he got there, he glanced at the new pilot, and instantly recognized him. He was the boy he had met the other day with white hair and red eyes like Rei's, he had called himself Kaworu Nagisa. He was kind of beautiful, like a masculine girl almost. Shinji didn't really know what to think other than the fact that with him around, defeating the last angel would be a lot easier. "Im Kaworu, Kaworu Nagisa, pleased to meet you.", he said to Shinji and Rei.

Shinji noticed that Kaworu had been staring at him while he had said this, and lightly blushed. He didn't know why, but Kaworu made him feel calm instead of uneasy. They entered the entry plugs and began the regular synch tests. As he sat in the plug, Shinji thought about the usual things that kept his synch ratio up. He soon calmed to the point where he could stay at the proper synch level.

In the Unit-02 entry plug, Kaworu had entirely different thoughts. He had his orders from SEELE, gain the affection of Unit-01's pilot, then fuse with Adam and begin the ritual. "Of course they wouldn't mind if I had a little fun with him though, after all this Shinji Ikari is kind of cute, my kind of boy.", he said to himself. He began to contemplate all of the fun he would have before this was over. As he pondered, he began to hum the tune of the lilim that he enjoyed so much.

In the control room, Misato frowned. This was truly odd, Kaworu's synch rate was already very high, and they hadn't even changed the configuration from Asuka's program to his. Who was this mysterious boy SEELE had sent. He definitely wasn't human. What was Commander Ikari thinking by letting this boy run around unsupervised?

The next day they preformed more tests.

April 25th, 2016

7:30 PM:

NERV HQ: Men's Bath's

Things had gone pretty fast, Kaworu had followed him to the baths, and now here they were, soaking next to each other talking. Shinji had asked Kaworu about himself, then they began to talk about music. Now they sat next to each other in complete silence. Kaworu was smiling, and Shinji was simply staring down at the murky water, trying not to stare at the boy next to him. For some reason Kaworu made him feel funny, in a way he had never felt before.

Seeing the time, Shinji told Kaworu it was time to go. He began to reach for a towel so they could get up, but Kaworu just stood up without a towel. He stood before Shinji, his member totally erect. Shinji blushed, and wrapped the towel around his own waist, handing Kaworu the other. He quickly got up and went to dry off.

When they stood outside the door, Kaworu asked Shinji, "Where should we go now?" "Home I guess.", Shinji answered. "With you?" said Kaworu. Shinji blushed and said, "No, I mean, well don't you have a place to go." Kaworu then said, "Isn't home such a wonderful concept, a place where you can feel welcome and refreshed."

Shinji stared at his feet for a second, then said, "I don't feel very refreshed or welcome where I am now." Kaworu then offered to let Shinji stay with him for the night. Shinji thought about it, he didn't really feel like going back to the apartment with Misato. All that waited him there were memories, hurtful memories. No, he didn't want to go back there, so he accepted Kaworu's offer.

As they walked, Kaworu thought about their conversation, and the boy walking beside him. He was more than just looks, he was charming, smart, and quaint. Kaworu had actually come to love him. He wanted Shinji for his own. He didn't want t have to destroy him and all of the other lilim.

April 25th, 2016

11:55 PM

NERV Housing: Residence of K. Nagisa

Kaworu had decided to make his move. After talking for a while Shinji fell asleep. He seemed to be just like Kaworu. So now Kaworu was going to make Shinji his own. He slipped Shinji's pants down and began kissing him.

Shinji was having a wonderful dream. In his dream someone love him, and he loved that person. They were kissing, and it felt so real. All of the sudden, he felt pressure between his thighs. He woke up to find Kaworu kissing him. Kaworu's finger was pushing on his anus.

Suddenly Kaworu's finger slipped in. Shinji let out a yelp of pain and pushed Kaworu off of him. He pulled up his pants and yelled, "What the hell were you doing!?" Kaworu smiled and said, "I thought it was your first time, so I was going to open you up a bit so it would hurt less when I went in." Shinji felt nauseous.

This was the first person he trusted in a long while, and all he wanted was to take advantage of Shinji's body. He yelled at Kaworu and called him a faggot. Suddenly he regretted those words. Kaworu said with a hurt look on his face, " I loved you, and I thought you loved me too." Then Kaworu ran out the door in a rush, after changing into his street clothes.

Shinji sat there for a while afterwards thinking. Then he realized, he kind of loved Kaworu too. Maybe not in the exact same degree, but he loved him all the same, he had emotions, feelings for him. He regretted yelling, and resolved to apologize. He would never get that chance.

Kaworu found a place to sit after walking for five hours. He loved that putrid lilim, and it had only bit him in return. He should have forced it, did what he originally wanted to do despite it's protests. No, he no longer had that in his being. He wanted that thing, but obviously it didn't want him.

So there was only one thing to do. There were a few hours left till the appointed time. He would then fuse with his father Adam, and begin a new world. The lilim would be wiped out, and the world would start anew. But what about Shinji?

April 26th, 2016 (one month till third impact.)

9:00 AM

NERV HQ: Control Room 2

The alarm had sounded suddenly! Pattern Blue detected in the cages! And angel was in NERV Central! And it was none other than Kaworu Nagisa. He had somehow activated Unit-02 without even entering an entry plug.

Misato had found Shinji, and was preparing him to enter the entry plug. Shinji was bewildered, he just couldn't believe Kaworu was the last angel. He had trusted him, and Kaworu had betrayed him. The entry plug was placed into Unit-01, and Shinji began his descent into Terminal Dogma. He had to ask Kaworu why he had betrayed him.

Kaworu was descending further down, none of the armor plates could stop him and Unit-02. As he went further down, he hummed it for what would be the last time, the last time anyone reproduced the melodies of the lilim. He felt some regret, but he knew his duty, and he couldn't avoid it. He only wished Shinji didn't have to go with them all. But it was all to late now, the ritual had to go on now that they knew what he was.

Down, down further into Dogma they went. Shinji caught up with Kaworu, but as soon as he did Unit-02 confronted him. In the intensive care unit, Asuka began to scream in the midst of her coma. The fight began, Shinji activated the Progressive Knife at the same time Unit-02 did, and they both sustained damage. Kaworu was impressed by Shinji, but also by the mental struggle Unit-02's original pilot was putting up.

Asuka's bond with her Unit-02 was still strong. She was feeling the pain inflicted on her unit, and trying to wrestle it from Kaworu's control. All the while, she was unaware of anything but the pain. Her instincts were amazing. He was impressed by her struggle, but he couldn't let her or Shinji win, though they did make a formidable team.

He wondered if that was a coincidence, or whether it had anything to do with Shinji's rejection. They had a strong bond, it had a tinge of sorrow and resentment, but an underlying feeling that was familiar to him. He pondered this as they broke the final plate of armor. Now was the time, the hour of reckoning. The symphony was finally coming to a magnificent end.

He approached Heaven's Door and transmitted the appropriate code. The door opened and before him stood the behemoth known as Adam, the being from whence he came. He stared at it, something didn't seem right. Then he realized, this wasn't Adam, this was Lilith. Lilith, as in the lilim.

It all became clear to him, if he bonded, only he would survive, there would be no new race, just him, and he would live forever. In the end it would be nice. But then he pondered what he had achieved in his existence. Not much, but the lilim had achieved so much, they had music, art, and many other beautiful things. So why should he survive instead of them?

He made his decision just as Unit-01 crashed in. Shinji had disabled Unit-02, but his unit was badly damaged. Kaworu knew it could never win a fight against him, but he made his decision. He disengaged his ATField and let Unit-01's fist envelop him. Shinji asked Kaworu why. Kaworu explained to him that only one race would survive, and he believed the lilim to be the existence that truly deserved to live.

Shinji began to cry. Kaworu said to him, "Shinji, it is the destiny of the lilim to shape the future, it's what you all live for. I truly loved you, so I ask of you this one last favor, end me, end me so that you may live. They were silent for what seemed like forever. Shinji didn't want to destroy Kaworu, but he knew he had too.

He squeezed Unit-01's fist till he heard a pop.

Tabris was defeated.

The alert was lowered.

Unit-01 was retrieved from Dogma.

April 26th, 2016

7:18 PM

On the shore of the Third Oshinoka lake, former Tokyo-3 residential district.

Shinji sat weeping while the waves lapped the shore. Misato stood behind him as he told her about Kaworu. Then he said, "He's the one who deserved to live, not me." Misato wouldn't stand for such a comment from Shinji, but he was in an emotional state, so she tried to be as delicate as possible. "Shinji, Kaworu didn't have the will to live. In the end you were meant to survive."

"Misato, you just don't understand. I, I wanted to commit suicide. I was going to after the last angel was gone. Now I just can't bring myself to do it though." "Shinji, im glad you didn't, it proves you have the will to live.", Misato said.

They stood there for a little while longer. The Misato said to him, "I was going to wait till after the last angel was gone to tell you this, and im guessing now is just the time. Shinji, once were discharged from NERV, your going to live with me. Were going too get a house on Hokkaido, and you'll live a normal life." Shinji didn't look up, didn't respond.

Then he asked her, "What about Asuka?" "She has to go back to Germany, but you'll have time to say goodbye." Shinji felt the pit of his stomach drop. Feelings of despair returned to him. Now he was going to loose another person he loved.

Why did I have to survive?

To be continued

*I know, another depressing chapter, and the next one isn't going to be very cheery either, but the end is going to be perfect, never fear. Till next time, take care. I hope to have another chapter real soon, we will see.