A/N Okay so i don't know if there was police tape in the sixties i'm guessing there was but idk
Disclaimer: Still unfortunately don't own the outsiders
I couldn't breath then I noticed something I should of noticed a lot earlier, I didn't have to breath. My lungs didn't need air.
Okay I'm dreaming I'm still at the lot and I just have to wake up. I closed my eyes tightly. When I opened them back up I
was back in the lot and could hear Johnnycades light breathing. Yea, not really nothing changed I was still in the living room
being looked through by my brothers and closest friends. What does this mean for me? What am I? Am I dead, stuck
somewhere between life and death. I waited for the tears to come but of course they didn't. I had to get out of here away
from this...this emptiness. I walked out the same door I walked in and out of my whole life.
Please let me wake up please let this be a dream I silently begged. I decided to go back to the park thats where I woke up
maybe I'll find something important there something that will give me some clue of whats wrong with me. I walk slowly
back to the park. I heard dogs faintly barking in the distance t.v and radios blaring from somewhere inside houses. I knew I
should feel the cold crisp air but I didn't. I never really been to the park during the day. I walked over to the fountain
studying it. There was stained red on the side of the fountain. Blood. But who's I don't remember bleeding could it be
Johnny's maybe one of the Socs. I closed my eyes and let the memory of last night wash over me.
Flashback
"Give the kid a bath David" Bob Cherry's boyfriend I'm pretty sure said
I tried to run but he grabbed my by the arm twisting it behind my back and was pushing me towards
the fountain. I tried to fight but the Soc was stronger then me I felt him pushing my face into the water
I held my breath but I could only hold it for so long. I felt him pull me out of the water and I
gulped desperately for air then I felt him pushing my head back in I started to fight I was moving my
head wildly when I felt a sharp pain in the side of my head and seen the water start to turn red. I
started to sink into unconscious I heard frantic voices. "Oh fuck man oh fuck fuck fuck." I knew the voices were coming from the Socs"What the hell did you do man." It was an accident I swear it was an accident he banged his head on the side."
Then I heard loud footsteps running and a car starting up speeding of and thats all I remember before letting the darkness overtake me.
END OF FLASHBACK
I slowly raised my hand to the side of my head exploring it with my fingers. I didn't feel
anything different but I also didn't know what I should be feeling. I was just grateful that my hand
didn't just fall through it like it did Soda's and Johnny's. I don't think anyone could imagine the
loneliness I was feeling right about now. I saw a cop car pull up at the entrance of the park and get out
walking towards me with a roll of that yellow crime tape in his hand. "Excuse me but can u see me?" I
asked him. He looked right through me no surprise there I guess. The officer started to tape the crime
scene off. I'm pretty sure I'm in some sort of shock. Wait can ghosts go into shock? Is that what I am a
ghost, or am I just someone who's lost their mind. I really don't know. If I am a ghost then where's my
body? Hospital? Most likely. But what good would finding my body really do, I mean I'm ninety nine
point nine percent sure I'm dead. And then it hit me like a ton of bricks I'm dead. I'm know longer
living I'll never win another track meet, I'll never play football with the gang again, I'll never watch the
stars with Johnny again, feel save in Soda's embrace. Oh god I started to shake. Can ghosts shake
obviously because I was. I can't be dead can't be can't be. No. No. No. I watched as the cop started to
walk away. I watched as he got in his car. I watched as he drove off. I watched until the car disappeared in the distance.
What am I suppose to do now I can't go back to my house it will just tear me apart. Seeing them like
that. If I could cry right now trust me I'd be sobbing. What I don't get is why I haven't crossed over or whatever yet. What
does that mean? Why am I still walking the earth? Argh I'm getting so upset whats happening to me. I started to walk
aimlessly around trying to get the dead look in Soda's eyes out of my head. I can't stand to see my brother in that kind of
pain especially when its my fault which it is. I should of never came home late and then after I did I should of never ran
away. Darry's right I don't use my hand its all my stupid fault I'm dead because I never stop to think. What I'm i suppose
to do now? I need to think of something I need to find someone to help me, but who? Do I know anyone who can
communicate with ghosts? I couldn't help but roll my eyes at this. Maybe in ghost form I'll actually start to use my head.
Doubt it. I started to chuckle softly to myself. Why? Because I've totally lost my mind i mean I'm walking around town
thinking I'm a ghost, that didn't set of your nutcase radar. I mean ghosts don't exist, do they?