* This chapter will be a little unique, im going to focus more on Asuka's instrumentality. Hope you like it. One more chapter to go!

D-Day

(The End of Everything)

May 25h, 2016

6:24 AM

NERV HQ

Office of Major Misato Katsuragi

It had been a month since the Tabris incident, but NERV was still operational. Commander Ikari had declared an alert, and nobody had been allowed to begin packing. Asuka was still in intensive care, there had been no effort to transport her to Germany. And she was still stuck here, she had been ready to start her new life with Shinji, but they were stuck here. The poor boy had not had any time to heal his emotional wounds.

She had already bought the property, but she had not been dismissed, and neither had Shinji. So for now the property was just sitting there, and Shinji was still stuck wallowing in his own misery. Still, she had her plans, on the way down there she planned to bring him sight seeing, and she was going to buy him new clothes, a new bathing suit, she was going to try to take his mind away from thinking about everything he had to endure at NERV. She hoped starting a new life would help Shinji considerably. She hoped starting a new life would help her.

Not surprisingly, Gendo had signed custody of Shinji over to Misato without evening asking. With Shinji in her custody and the house already bought, there was only one thing left she had to do. Kaji would have wanted her to do this. Hopefully she wouldn't get caught, or else she would be in the same boat as that bitch Ritsuko. There were secrets she had to uncover.

8:00 AM

Terminal Dogma: Server Room

In the cold of the server room, Misato was chilled for a different reason. It wasn't over, in fact, it was only the beginning. All of the sudden the alarms sounded. "Damn, their on to me", she muttered to herself. Then she realized those alarms were not meant for her. Something big was going down.

8:00 AM

Main Control Room

Someone was hacking in to the MAGI! The signals seemed to be coming from the MAGI in Matsushiro, Massachusetts, Beijing, Berlin, and Hamburg. It was a five pronged attack, and they couldn't do a thing about it. Then, Commander Ikari commanded them to bring Doctor Akagi to the control room. As he folded his hands he muttered, "This is our only hope.

8:12 AM

Within three minutes Ritsuko had set up a firewall that would last them forty-eight hours. Hopefully this would put a halt on SEELE's plans till then. As Ritsuko slid out of Caspar's server, she slid her hand over the cover for the artificial brain. Looking fondly she said, "Well mother, ill see you soon." She knew SEELE wouldn't let them off this easy.

10:00 AM

NERV HQ: Service Hall 18

He didn't care that he had signed his death warrant. He knew they would be there to kill him soon. And he just didn't care, sure Misato was going to bring him to Okinawa, but he didn't care, without Asuka he just didn't feel like living anymore. He only hoped they could save her somehow. He had nothing to live for anymore.

He sat crying for another half hour. In the distance he could hear the shots being fired, the screams of the victims of the JSDF's invasion force. He only hoped they would finish him off quickly. His only regret was not being able to feel the caress of her lips one last time. He would miss her in the afterlife.

He still felt the guilt of loosing Kaworu too, but he was even more guilty about betraying Asuka. He just wanted to fade into the darkness and cease to be. He heard the shots being fired at the lock. He listened as the soldiers ran down the staircase and surrounded him. One of them spoke into the radio, confirming that they had located him.

One of them put the gun to his head and said, "Sorry kid, nothing personal." It was all over, with one pull of a trigger this man would end Shinji's pitiful existence. He heard a shot fired, but he wasn't dead. Two more, and then the final shot accompanied by the sound of blood and brains being spread upon the wall. He looked up and saw Misato standing over him, and as he saw the worried look on her face he began to cry.

10:30 AM

NERV HQ Internal Highway System

He felt guilty that he had been so selfish. The look on Misato's face though had given him a reality check. He knew he couldn't be so selfish, sure it was his life, but he never really thought about how Misato would feel. As she drove he felt he had to make it up to her. He reluctantly leaned his head on her shoulder and closed her eye's, wishing that he had been more considerate, wishing that Asuka was there to hold him.

11:30 AM

Bottom of the lake

She woke up to pain. The missiles rained down on her. And the only thing she could think about death. The only thing she could think about were her regrets. The only thing she could think about was her Shinji.

12:30 PM

Elevator to Cage 2

He could only cry. Misato had kissed him, and pushed him into the elevator, she had sacrificed her life for him. Why would she do that? In her last moments she treated him like a man, she was the first person who had ever done such a thing. Why would she do that for a worm like him.

He wasn't worth it, all he really was, all he amounted to was a dirty whore, anyone would do for him. Now he was sitting by the cage, it was full of Bakelite. He was useless, he couldn't even help Asuka, the one person he might just love the most. He wanted to help her, but all he could do was just wallow in his own misery. Then suddenly the room rumbled as Unit-01 tore itself out of the cage.

3:00 PM

????????

So, that idiot had started the end. The third impact had happened. But what was happening to her? Was she dead? She was just floating, floating in nothingness.

Then the voices began. "Why do you exist Asuka? Do you only exist to prove yourself?"

"I exist for myself, im Asuka Langley Soryu, I only need myself! Who are you to ask me this!?"

Suddenly someone appeared before her. It was like she was looking into a mirror. "I am you, and I must tell you, you haven't been very true to me." "How the hell can you be me!?" "I am the you that observes you, and you have not been true to me, or that boy."

"Do you mean that damn idiot Shinji!?" The voice responded with a laugh and said, "See, another defensive mechanism, you just can't admit that you really had feelings for him. But you cannot lie to me, I am you and you can never truly deceive yourself." "Shut up, you are not me and I do not love that stupid, good for nothing, usele…." The other Asuka slapped her with a smile on her face and said, "Again you lie to me, but when you lie to me you only hurt yourself."

Asuka looked down and screamed. Her body was cover in gashes, and she was bleeding out. She closed her eyes and began to sob. Then she felt a gentle pair of arms caress her. She re-opened her eyes and looked at the person holding her. It was Shinji, he looked at her with a loving look of concern on her face.

She began to blush and relax, but suddenly he opened his arms and faded into what seemed like a mist, leaving her in complete darkness. She felt cold and lonely. She began to cry again, and as she did, she returned to the form of a child. Then the voice returned. "See, as much as you try to deny them, you cannot truly hide your feelings from yourself." The voice smiled again as it stood over the weeping child.

8:00 PM

?????????

For hours it continued, the voice harassed her and probed every part of her being. She felt broken. She felt like it would never end. Was this hell? Was this voice the devil, judging her for her sins?

She was cut open time and time again, and healed every time. She began to hate her very existence. She wished it would end, she wished she could just fade away. The pain was unbearable. Over and over, she was raped, shot, tortured.

May 26th, 2016

7:00 AM

?????????

The first words in hours. They were the first words she had uttered in hours. She had yelled them from the top of her lungs. "WHY ME!? What did I do!?"

Then it stopped, the torture stopped. The voiced appeared again, this time it was Kaji. It said, "I told you that dishonesty would only hurt yourself." She knew it wasn't Kaji, but she still tried to hug it and cry. It slapped her again saying, "I thought we were done lying."

She cried and huddled up. "What is it you want from me?" It said, "The question is, what do you want from you?" She sobbed, this voice kept speaking in riddles, expecting an answer and if she gave the wrong one she would endure unimaginable pain. The voice told her, "You must endure this pain so that you can become true to yourself and the one you love."

She closed her eyes and sobbed some more. She knew who she loved, but she just couldn't bring herself to say it. She would rather die than say it. Again she felt it, this time it was just a gentle hand. Then another wrinkled hand accompanied it.

She looked up and saw Shinji again, but this time he was not alone. Her grandmother was with him, and her foster mother, and her foster father, Hikari, Misato. They all said in unison, "Why is it that you cannot let us care for you, do you feel you don't deserve it, we thought you did." Then they all disappeared except Shinji. He gently touched her face, looked at her with an expression of affection and sadness and said, "Asuka, why are you afraid to let me love you?"

She was silent for the longest while. Shinji disappeared and she was still silent. She thought about those words. She thought she behaved the way she did so people would love her, but maybe she did it to make it hard for people to love her. "I want to be loved.", she said with anguish, crying all the while.

The voice then said, "You know what you must do then. You must be true to yourself. By lying to yourself you only hurt yourself and cause unimaginable anguish. You must love others by being honest to yourself." "But it's to late now, isn't it?" Asuka asked.

The voice, which had now taken the form of Rei smiled. "Do you really think that? Maybe you are getting a second chance." Asuka raised her head. "A second chance?"

12:00 PM

Elision Sea

"Shinji, it is time." Yui smiled at her son. Then she said, "Remember, any place can be paradise as long as you have the will to live." As he drifted back to the world that had been so cruel to him, he wondered what it would be like. He wondered if he would have Asuka there to greet him.

1:00 PM

Sea of Red

It all began tumbling down. The entire form began coming apart at the seams, seemingly rotting. As the being fell apart, all of the harpies began their descent as well. As they fell to the earth, thunder began to strike between the clouds. In the midst of all this chaos though, a beam of light came down from the clouds.

1:30 PM

Shore of the Sea of Red

They were just lying there on the shore of the beach. Both of them were unconscious. The beings smiled upon then, musing over the new genesis they had begun. This race of theirs had a bright new future. The children began to wake up, so the beings left.

Shinji was the first to arise. He looked around him at a world in ruins. He was quite disoriented, and couldn't think beyond the moment, he was relying on primal instincts. He looked over at Asuka, and primal feelings of rage and lust overcame him. He crawled over and tightly gripped his hands around her neck in a gesture of masculine dominance.

Asuka woke up to see him choking her. She just stared at him, then began to attempt to raise her hand. She lightly caressed his face. He realized what he was doing and loosened his grip. Then he began to cry.

She looked at him for a few seconds, and contemplated the sobbing boy on top of her. He looked pathetic, he looked so horrible. She wanted to say something at that moment, something that would culminate her feelings. "Disgusting.", she uttered. He opened his eyes in surprise as she followed up with, "My disgusting and lovable man."

To be continued

* I know this chapter was morbid and depressing, but the next chapter will be so loveable and sweet. I guarantee a happy ending, see you soon. - doggy-kun