Chpt 9

Callie's POV

It was easy for me to comfort Arizona. I knew she was scared and didn't know why she was having these feelings. I had went through the exact same scenario over 6 years ago with Sam. She had never been with a woman before. She worried about what others would think now that she was dating a woman. But I stood by her and helped her come to terms with her sexuality. Now, at the end of the relationship I fought so hard for, here we are again. I broke the rule. Fell for a straight girl. But Arizona was different. How she made me feel when she walked in the room, looked at me, kissed my lips was more than what I had felt with Sam. And as happy as that made me, I was scared. What if she couldn't accept how she was feeling for me? What if it was just a phase for her? We're both so vulnerable right now. Am I her rebound? Is she mine? I asked myself these questions over and over as I sat in the dugout watching her swinging, and missing, at the endless pitches that Owen was throwing her way.

Her laughter was addictive. She glanced over at me and smiled quickly before focusing again on the task at hand. I felt like she was worth it. Worth going through the same grueling weeks and months I did with Sam until she committed to being in a relationship with me. I don't regret it. It had worked for the time. Something in the pit of my stomach told me that Arizona was more than just a girl with a crush. The way she kissed me and touched me just now in my apartment was more than a "i need to get off" experience. I had told myself I would never put myself through this again when I finally ended it with Sam. Its hard on the mind, the heart and the soul, to care about someone so much and watch them struggle to hold your hand in public. If this is as real for her as it is for me, and she can't get over the fear of judgement, it could be a deal-breaker for me.

"Callie, come on!" I hear Lexie's voice as I step out of my own head and the dugout. "And bring me a beer will ya"

"Me too Cal" Christina was standing next to Arizona mimicking how she should be standing and following through with the bat. Kepner and Karev were arguing with Christina that Arizona should be holding the bat a different way, and I'm pretty sure Arizona was chuckling to herself. These residents were gonna do anything to impress her.

"I'm coming" I call as I bend down to the cooler, which is jammed with beer and a forty of Tequila. Meredith and Christina's idea no doubt. I turned back and couldn't help but get caught up in Arizona's features. She is feeding off every little thing the Peds patrol and Christina are telling her and I'm pretty sure she's loving every second of it, as her dimples are on high alert tonight.

"She's something else isnt she" Dax says as he hands me a shot of tequila and motions for me to drink with him.

I quickly down the harsh liquor and look at his inquisitive expression as I try to respond correctly to Arizona best friend.

"I find her unbelievable. I know it hasn't been long Dax, and I know your probably very protective of her, but I can't deny my attraction at this point." I look to see if my answer is satisfactory.

"She is definitely one of a kind Callie." He takes a sip of his beer and looks out with love in his eyes for her. I know now it's the same way Mark looks at me. I can't help but smile as I realise how much he really cares for her. "I just couldn't see her sad anymore you know?" he continues and I know at this point he is referring to her broken engagement to Liam. I am sure he had something to do with that ending. "She was walking around so lost, so empty. But..." he takes another sip. But what? But she's not my type? She's the love of your life? Finish the sip Dax! "... in the last 2 days, I have started to see that glimmer in her eyes again"

He made my heart melt, as he pulled me in with his shoulder around mine. He was really alot like Mark, except Dax seemed to use his EDIT button.

"It is what it is, I guess" he continued. "If this is the beginning of Zona finding herself again, then I'm all for it"

Was he talking about Arizona and I? Had she talked to him about what was going on with us? It was probably the best assumption I had made all week. If she was talking to her best friend about it, she was surely taking this seriously and not just dipping her toes in the Seattle Sapphic pool. Yay! I celebrated in my head.

"Get your paws off my Lesbian Wife there Dax" Mark said as he walked towards us. "She MY in to a threesome and I'm not sharing her with you" he laughed as he pulled me out of Dax's clutches.

"Like she would sleep with the likes of you Sloan" he joked right back as I searched for Lexie to help me out of the testosterone sandwich. Dammit. Even she is trying to be a batting coach.

"What do ya think Cal? Who would be the better..." Mark is cut off.

"MARK" Lexie says with a stern tone as she appears right in front of us. "Stop trying to have a threesome and come have a shot with me" She pulls his arm and leads him to where Christina has lined up tequila on the bench and is orchestrating a mass shot fest. This is why she is the leader of her so called "Surgical Shot team".

I grab Dax and head over to where the traditonal baseball night group shot is getting ready to happen as I feel a soft hand on mine. I look to see the piercing blues staring back. Its like I'm seeing them again for the first time.

"Is my best friend trying to get you to switch teams Ms. Ortho?" she gives me a devilish grin and she locks her fingers in between mine. Wow. She's getting bold. Have I misjudged her?

"Nah." I say and immediatly feel the urge to lean in and kiss her.

"Dr. Robbins. Dr. Robbins up here..." Christina calls from the far end of the bench. I think her voice startled Arizona as she quickly lets my hand go and heads to where Christina is filling the last shot glass. I notice Karev looking at me, having obviously noticed Arizona's small show of affection just now. I give him a glare as I move towards Meredith and take a shot of tequila in hand.

"To trauma in the ER, surgeries in the OR and..." Mere says giving me a quick look, then setting her sights on Arizona. "and the sex in the on call rooms"

Cheers errupt as everyone drinks. I look down at Arizona as her eyes shift from me then to Karev. The dimples are gone. That familiar feeling of worry hits me as I know she's regretting grabbing my hand right now. Probably regretting coming here tonight.

The tequila hits my lips. The burn in my throat is overshadowed by the numbness in my chest. Her eyes don't seem as blue anymore. Deal-breaker? You nailed it.