Chpt 10

Arizona's POV

I lay alone in my hotel bed. The agony is overwhelming as I think back to how I left the ball field. Leaving Calliope with out saying goodbye. With out a glance. But not without a thought. I felt so comfortable with her and her friends. So comfortable that I didn't mind grabbing her hand to show her that I needed her touch. Then I saw his eyes. Karev saw me grab her hand. And his expression said it all. He was shocked. I'm sure he knows about my personal life. He had been so adamant in showing his knowledge of my surgical accomplishments, my medical school accomplishments, my family history. I am pretty sure he also knew that I had a long term relationship with the district attorney in New York. I was also pretty sure he hadn't googled me in the last month or he would of saw that my relationship status had changed. Hence his shock when he saw mine and Calliope's hands intertwined. My heart bled as my thoughts went to her, and how she had held me today and told me it was okay. We were going to figure it out. She was willing to let me figure out what this was and why I was feeling this way. I had to talk to her. I had to apologize for running.

"God Arizona" I yelled at myself and to the empty room. "You're feeling this way for a reason. Don't be stupid. You're a doctor for peds sakes" I jumped out of bed and walked across the room to where my berry was laying on top of the TV stand. Text her. I'll text her. Yes. That's just what I'll do. I let my fingers do what my heart wanted it to.

Calliope

I'm so sorry I left so quickly. I really need to see you.

Send.

I hated waiting. I hated myself right now. Wait...I glance down to re read what I had just sent.

"I really need to see you? Arizona" I say out loud again to the contents of my room "UGHHHHHHHHHHH"

Vibration. I quickly looked down to see the astrix over the inbox.

I'm sorry you felt uncomfortable Arizona.

I'm sorry if being around me has confused you.

Maybe we can talk tomorrow.

C.

Absolutely NOT. That was not good enough for me. I started pacing back and forth the room. I needed to see her. I needed to prove to her that I could get over this. It was just gonna take some time. She had to at least give me that. I type again.

I can't wait till then.

Where are you?

Send.

I was starting to panic a little. What if she still dismissed me? Vibration.

Home.

Without a second thought, I picked up my jacket and ran out the door.

The cab ride to her apartment felt like an eternity, but gave me time to argue with my inner self. I came to Seattle to try and find myself. Ok, so i didn't expect to find myself falling for a woman, but it happened. Now I have to deal with that. But your not gay Arizona, my inner self once again tried to fight. I needed to stop with the labels. I needed to stop worrying about others and worry about me. My happiness. My life.

"My happiness. My life" I had to say it out loud over and over till I reached the blue door. Now what Arizona? You're here. What the plan? Knock.

I raised my hand to follow this plan when the blue door opened and made me jump back.

"Dr. Robbins" Christina was definitely surprised to see me. "Its...ahhhhh...Wow" she stepped back into the apartment and I'm pretty sure she hopped a little. "Its an honor to have you here. Come in. Is there something I can help you with? I was just headed to Joe's, but if you need something..."

"Christina" Calliope's voice stopped her rant as she stood in her bedroom door. "I think you were just leaving?"

"I was, but now that Dr. Robbins is here I would much rather..." Christina was cut off yet again.

"Go. Joe's. NOW" Calliope's voice was stern. Very stern. Stern was hot. Super hot.

"Okay Cal...Jeez. You need to layoff the Anger Puffs in the morning" she scowled as she walked past me "Hospital. You and me" she mouthed to me as she closed the door.

"What are you doing here Arizona?" Calliope stoop in the same spot. Still stern.

"You're really hot when your angry" I said. For the first time I didn't second guess my choice of words.

"You came all the way across town to tell me I look hot when I'm angry?" she still had a stern tone, but I could see she was cracking a little.

"Yes." I started. "And to tell you that I'm sorry. Sorry for running tonight, and running today at the hospital. I freaked out I know. But I don't want to run right now. I want to see where this, whatever it is, goes and by this I mean you and me, me and you, and I know you can feel what I'm feeling because your eyes tell me and when I kiss you my whole body feels alive and...

"Arizona" She had slowly been walking over as I spill my soul to her. "You're hot when you ramble" as she pulled me in so close I could feel her heart beating. Her lips press hard against mine and my breathing speeds up as her tongue enters my mouth. I bring my arms up around her neck and run my hands through her dark hair. I feel her hands grab my hips as she pulls me closer again. Our lips part, only for a second, but just enough time for me to speak.

"Bedroom. Now." As she picks me up off the ground, my legs wrap around her waste. Our lips meet again, harder and faster than before, as I find myself on her mattress for the second time today. She suddenly breaks from my mouth and I feel my lips form a pout. I needed her to touch me. I didn't want her to stop.

"You're so beautiful" she pushes my hair away from my face and starts to run her hand down my neck till she finds my chest. My breathe hitches as she softly cups my breast. I can feel myself getting more aroused as she let her hand travel to my stomach and stop at the hem of my jeans.

"Calliope" I gasp not wanting her to stop. " I need you to touch me" as she undoes the button and I feel her hand slide down to cup my now pulsing center. She hasn't broken eye contact with me since her hand left my face. The intensity of having her hand where I needed it and her dark eyes staring at me was too much for me to handle. "Please Calliope" I whisper as she lets her fingers enter me for the first time. I felt my orgasm coming fast as my walls spasmed around her now pumping fingers. The next thing I knew she had let her thumb graze my swollen clit as I lost all control. All thoughts were erased as my head pushed hard into the mattress and my hips thrashed forward. She slowly eased the pace of her fingers and finally kissed me again. This time it was soft. My breathing was still heavy and she removed her hand from my jeans and placed it alongside me as she continued to hover over me.

"Are you good?" she asked. I could see the concern in her face. Of course she would be. This is the first time I had ever been with a woman. But it wasn't the woman part I was focused on anymore. All my focus was on new wave of emotion that had come over me. I felt more alive in that moment then I had in years. I was breathing new air. Her air.

"Better than good" I leaned up and kissed her. "Please don't let me go tonight" I said as I pulled out of the kiss and looked in her eyes.

"I can't let you go" her voice was soft. "I won't let you go."

Callie's POV

I didn't need her to touch me tonight. I didn't want her to feel pressure, or to be nervous. I only wanted her to experience being with a woman. Experience being with me. When she showed up here tonight and rambled on about not wanting to run and knowing what we were feeling was real, that was enough for me. Enough to forget about the freak outs, cause I'm sure there will be more. She somehow made me forget. Forget everything else in my world and only focus on feeling.

She wanted to stay. Not run.

"I can't let you go" I whispered. "I won't let you go"

I didn't know how to let her go.