Can't Be Acknowledged By You
Chapter Seven: Admitting Defeat
I woke up groggy the following morning. I rolled over slowly, not wanting to wake up. I felt something soft next to me. I slowly peaked through my eyelids and felt my heart flutter. Edward was sleeping next to me. Then I remembered what had happened the night before. I blushed deep marron. My hand was placed on his stomach and his left arm was round my shoulders. I got up on my elbow and gazed at him sleeping peacefully. He was sleeping next to me, breathing in and out very quietly. He looked so peaceful. I wanted to give him a cuddle but I was afraid to wake him.
I glanced over my shoulder at my clock. It was half past 6 in the morning. I listerned hard for downstairs, wondering if Charlie had left. Then a horrid thought ocurred to me. Had Charlie walked in and seen Edward lying next to me in my bed?!! the blush got deeper still. I sat up. I was still fully clothed with the exception of my shoes. Edward was fully clothed too. That eliminated one of my fears. I contiued to try and remember what had happened.
I remember waking up with Edward carrying me out of the car because I had woken with a start. he'd shhhused me and we had snuck into the house unnoticed by the snoring Charlie, already asleep. I think he must of carried me upstairs and settled me down. I don't remember talking much or in fact at all.
I felt Edward stir and I lay back down next to him. He opened his eyes and turned his head. I froze, wondering his reaction. He looked shocked as he saw me. I'd shut my eyes and pretened to sleep and I wrapped my arm futhur round his belly. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him smile gently at me. His arm tightned ever so slightly on my arm. I pretended to wake up. I stretched and he smiled down at me.
"Morning beautiful, how did you sleep?"
"I slept finne" I purred seductivly. I blushed.
"Did you dream?"
"Yes"
"What did you dream about?"
"Urmm" I paused. Did I want to tell him that I dreamt about him every night? "Won't you tell me?" His eyes pleaded. It was so hard to deney thoose puppy eyes. His bright green eyes burned with longing and hope. I don't know! I screamed at myself. Do I honestly need to tell you? Why don't you already know or whatever!! He sensed that I was having a hard choice so he helped me out. But not even I could hide my furious blush as he said the words.
"You talked in your sleep and...you said you loved me."
My face exploded in embarassment. He'd heard me talking! I had said it aloud. But what eles? I took a huge stggering breath. It was time to tell him.
"That's...that is because I..I have had a crush..on you for nearly 4 years...but I..was....the nerdy geek...who was worried that...worried that you'd....you would...would...would just..." I trailed off, hanging my head. Admitting it made me feel only slightly better. He'd roll off me and storm out without another word. He surpised me.
He sat up, pulling me with him so we were eye level. His eyes seemed to be frustated. "Why didn't you tell me?" he asked, the tension building in his voice. I looked confused and also felt like kicking ymself all that time ago. Again the puppy begging eyes pulled the truth instantly out of my mouth.
"Your Edward Cullen and we were freshmans! I was even geekyir then since now! You didn't even notice me because as soon as I saw you I...I..I..." I stutted trying to find the right words.
"Do you still?"
"Still what?"
"Do you still love me?"
"Yes..."
"Well" he paused. Then he continued.
"I love you too" he whispered.
Silence followed. I was too shocked to answer. Slowly, he moved his face towards me, eyes never leaving mine. He shortened the space between us, inch by inch until his nose was right a mm in front of mine. He leaned his forehead agaisnt mine. I looked at him. He smiled and then...
hahah! cliffhanger! whoo! sorry :( but this had to happen - ok bella's admitted it but will edward really do it? smiles to the review givers! :)