Heyy sorry I didn't post sooner but it was New Years and all so I didn't really have time. ANYways i've been looking at the reviews and I see one common thing; you all want Jasper to finally find out where Bella is, well your wish is my command :)

Disclaimer: it all belongs to S. Meyer, I just own the plot

JPOV

I should've known that this would be hard but I never expected it to be this strenuous; every time I get a lead it turns out to be a dead end. It's been three weeks since I discovered that Bella's body has been awakened and I still haven't been able to find her exact location. I've thought about asking Carlisle for help but I'm sure he would rather lecture me about moving on than to use his discovery skills to help me. But he has found Bella once and he could do it again if I approach this matter carefully. I get off my bed with full intentions of asking Carlisle for his aide but never get the chance to because Edward strolls into my room and closes the door behind him.

What do you want Edward? I ask him in my thoughts. He raises his hand as if signaling peace and then points outside.

You want to talk outside? I ask him and he nods. I roll my eyes, what could possibly be more important than talking to Carlisle about Bella?

I follow far behind the house until we are well out of earshot. He turns to me with his face hard and full of…determination. His emotions are slightly haywire; switching from anger, sadness, love and purpose. He closes his eyes and clenches his fists before opening his mouth to speak.

"You weren't the only one who loved her Jasper," He says through clenched teeth.

"I know…but I really don't have time to argue about this." His eyes snap open.

"I don't want to argue either," he says calmly.

"Then what's this all about." He sighs.

"Carlisle won't help you,"

"How many times have I told you to stay out of my head?!" I scowl.

"It's kind of hard when all your thoughts revolve around her Jasper, like I said; you weren't the only one –"

"Yes I know, you love her too," he nods his head slowly.

"And that's why I want to help you," I look at him. "We will find her more quickly this way."

"I'm not sure that's such a good idea Edward," What would happen when we found her? Would I have to fight him for her love?

"Don't be so dramatic Jasper; I know I have no chance with Bella,"

"Then why do you want to help, what's in it for you?" I ask accusingly.

"When Bella expressed to me that she cared for me as only a friend, it hurt but I realized that the love I had for Bella was slowly turning into the need.… to protect her, almost like the love one would feel towards a sister." Need…that word still haunts me; it reminds me how I let Bella down, how I let her curse condemn her once again.

"Please no more self loathing thoughts." He frowns. "Bella wouldn't blame you for this okay?"

"How can you be so sure?" he sighs and slides down the tree he was leaning on.

"Because she left me a note too," He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a folded piece of paper.

I sit down beside him and unfold the letter. Immediately I can tell that she really did write the letter; her sinuous handwriting flows gracefully on the lined paper. I look to him for permission and her nods his head slowly. I exhale unnecessarily before reading.

Dear Edward,

Please pardon my handwriting; I am in a bit of a rush. I do not want Jasper to know that I am writing this letter; it will bring him pain to think of the day that I will leave him. It seems as though my job here is nearly done, although I would rather sta..

The words look as if they are slightly blotched out with…water? No, tears; Bella was crying when she wrote this. More pain surges through; she was crying because of me.

Oh, I'm sorry about that, I guess its better that I don't write that part for I do not wish to bring pain to you with this letter. Edward you must know that I never meant to hurt you, I will always think of you as the older brother that I never got the chance to have as a human. You were always there for me when I needed to talk to you about my worries and for that I will always be grateful. I just know that one day you will make someone very happy! Please do not mourn for me or feel obliged to blame yourself for anything and that goes the same for Jasper…please let him know that none of this is his fault. This is the life that has been handed to me and I have no choice but to live it, but I do have to choice to who love during my servings. I will never forget the love that I received from this family or from you. Please Edward watch over the family when I'm gone, give Jasper the benefit of doubt; he really is stronger than you all believe. I have to go but please know that when I am with my new family, this will always be the place where my heart and true family lies. – Love forever Isabellina Swanehia.

I fold the letter back and with shaky hands I hand it back to Edward. We sit in silence for a while before he clears his throat.

"I don't know about you but the thought of Bella with another family is….it's hard to imagine it." He says pained.

"So you don't think we're playing with fate by looking for her?"

"Forget fate, Bella belongs with this family," I smile and help him up to his feet.

"Thank you,"

"Bella was right –"

"Ed–" he puts his hand up.

"Please let me say it," I nod my head and he continues. "She was right when she said you are strong, we should've given you more trust."

"It's all in the past now Edward, but thank you," he nods and we begin our run back to the house. While running he turns to me.

"Can I have a list of all the places you have checked already?" I nod my head.

We go into my room and close the doors behind us, although it will provide little privacy, it is where all my research and information is located. I walk over to the desk in my room and pull out a folder labeled I.S. I hand it over to Edward as he sits on the corner of my bed. I can feel the strong emotion of determination again and I know that with the two of us, Bella will be found.

BPOV

The room is turning slowly or at least that's how I feel right now. I try to lift my head up but the overwhelming dizzy feeling takes over so I lay my head back down. Moving right now feels like a death wish but of course everything I do here ends badly so there really isn't a point, is there? I can longer count the days that speed by, but from what Damien has been telling me, it's been almost a month since the Volturi decided to harvest my blood.

I feel so hollow, void, empty, muted…depressed and physically I feel even worse. My whole body aches where the blood has been striped and then refilled. Every movement that jostles my body reminds me that even twenty four hours isn't enough to regain the energy that I have lost. So I lay in this bed unmoving and silent. Damien…oh Damien, where would I be without him? He is the one who brings me to the bathroom when I need it, he is the one who carefully helps me out of my clothes to help me into the tub, and he is the one who slightly brightens up my day with his words. I wish I could do more for him, I wish that I could give him the words that the needs to hear to give him hope but I don't even have hope for myself.

My nights are no longer graced with dreams of memories of Jasper but instead I have nightmares of my blood not being able to regenerate itself. I have dreadful dreams of Demetri having his way with me and not being able to fight him off because of my lack of energy. But the worst dreams are of me accepting my fate; joining the Volturi with a smile on my face as I feel honor for being their personal blood supplier. That is something I will never do, I may have lost hope but I will never give the Volturi the satisfaction of becoming one of them.

"Bella? Are you awake?" Of course he knows I am but he wants to say it.

"Mmmhmmm," I manage. However by the look on his face I know that that wasn't good enough. "Yes…I'm awake." I say in a voice not my own.

"You didn't sleep well did you?" There's no point in lying; I know he heard my screaming.

"Not, really." I whisper.

"Which one was it this time?" He asks sympathetically.

"Jasper," I whisper. I've told him about my life with the Cullens and my love for Jasper so I know I can trust him. "He was being hurt by Demetri," a sob escapes my throat.

"Jasper is safe Bella," and he will stay that way if he stays away from me.

"I know that, I just feel so guilty," he wraps his arm around me and I snuggle into his chest.

"Guilty? Why?" I make a feeble attempt to lift my hand to wipe my nose.

"I keep wishing that he will come here to save me but I know that they will hurt him if he tries…" Damien rubs my back gently.

"Shh Bella, don't think about the bad," My sniffling stops and I slowly pull away from him.

"Every thought I have is bad Damien, there's nothing good to think about," he frowns and I know I've hurt him with my negative words. "I'm sorry I just…I'm tired of pretending that maybe somehow this situation will get better."

"And you think I'm not?" I laugh bitterly.

"Well you sure don't act like it," he shakes his head.

"Of course I'm tired of thinking of new ideas, but I refuse to let them win…to give them the satisfaction of seeing me down."

"So that is why you smile when one of them come in here? And here I was thinking that you were going crazy," I pull him back to me.

"Sometimes I think that this is all a dream you know? Like my girlfriend will just come busting through the door telling me to wake up and I'll be in my room or something." I look down.

I've forgotten how young Damien is and how he still doesn't fully grasp how this isn't a dream but a living hell. His girlfriend is never coming for him…she's dead. I smooth his hair away from his forehead with weak efforts. He sighs and closes his eyes.

"I'd say you were lucky to be able to sleep and all but you don't ever sleep peacefully, you're always so restless…but I know it's because of the nightmares." I look down.

"The nightmares are bearable; it's waking up to this room that I can't stand."I huff out.

"You'd think they'd put a window in here or something," I laugh. "What's so funny?"

"They would never put a window in here, they'd know that I would try to kill myself." He looks at me intently.

"Would you? I mean, would you kill yourself?" I look into his red eyes and see the pain behind it; if I had killed myself, I would be leaving him here alone.

"Of course not, I'm just looking at it from their point of view." I say, but he doesn't look thoroughly convinced. "Damien if I were ever going to break out of here or do something like that, you know I would bring you with me right?" He smiles weakly.

"You're just saying that, I know I would be dead weight…I can't do anything right."

"Dead weight? Damien if anything, you would be the best person for breaking out of a place like this, you know exactly what to say and do to make things better."

"I do, don't I?" he smiles bashfully and I am instantly reminded of Edward; he had the same exact smile. "What's wrong," I turn my head and wipe a tear.

"Nothing, nothing is wrong," nothing but the fact that I'm missing my family more and more every day.

"It's not like we'd get far anyway," I turn back to him. "Demetri would find us the moment we left the door." Demetri, the only thing actually holding us back from freedom. Just thinking his name sends a dark shiver down my spine.

"He would turn it into sick game." I can imagine it now; Damien and I reaching Forks, only to be captured by Demetri. "I just wish that I could see him again, I'd do anything just to see Jasper again," I fight back the hiccup in my throat. "I'd tell him to stop looking for me…I would lie to him."

JPOV

With Edward things have been flowing along more easily, we haven't found Bella yet but I feel close. I have to be honest and say that before I didn't really trust Edward's motives, I didn't really think he was over Bella. When he said her name, I could feel him trying to fight back to the love that came with it. However now when I gauge his feelings for her, I find nothing but protective love. A couple of weeks ago we had decided to not to tell Carlisle but after recent events, we know that it would be best if we tried to convince him.

"He's more concerned of how Bella will take it," Edward whispers to me as we walk down the hall to Carlisle's study.

"She'll be happy to see us…right?" he puts an arm on my shoulder.

"Of course she will be." Edward whispered back.

We stopped at the door and were about to knock when Carlisle spoke from behind it, of course he heard us coming.

"Come on in boys," Edward pushed the door open and we walked in. "You two have been busy lately, I'm almost afraid to ask what you've been doing."

"I think you know already," I said calmly.

"Jasper I expected this from you…but Edward? Out of everyone I thought you would understand!" Carlisle was feeling very disappointed and I felt the need to defend our actions.

"We're not doing anything wrong," Carlisle's eyes met mine.

"Not doing anything wrong? Bella specifically asked you not to do this," he sighed.

"She didn't ask me not to do this," Edward replied.

"That's because she didn't expect it from you Edward. Don't you two see? This is Bella's life and you two have no right to –" he stopped when the phone rang. "Don't you two go anywhere." He warned. "Hello?"

We all cringed when we recognized the cold voice on the other line. It was like all the excitement of looking for Bella had been drained from me; hearing Aro's voice did that to me. There was a pause as we waited for Carlisle to say something.

"Yes, Aro, how nice to hear from you,"

"How is dear Esme?"

"She's good thank you," Carlisle's voice was evidently strained.

"And the…children?" Aro asked amused.

"They are good as well,"

"Good, good, that's…very good. Well you must be wondering why I am calling,"

"Yes,"

"No worries my old friend, you're family is safe."

"I had no doubts about that," Carlisle said.

"Very well, I would like to see you and your family,"

"May I ask why?" Aro laughed on the other line.

"Yes you may, we have a new…addition to our family and we would like for you and family to meet her,"

"A new addition?"

"Yes and we would very much like it for you all to come and take…advantage of what she has to offer. Maybe it would convince you all to finally join us."

"I'm not sure we would be doing that Aro but we would love to meet this new member,"

"Oh let me assure you that if you were to accept our offer, we would allow Esme and Rosalie to come, despite their lack of gifts."

"Yes, I know you would, however we still have to say no,"

"Hmm, very well then, do you think you can be out here by tomorrow?"

"Yes we could arrange that,"

"Good, we will be waiting," I mouthed to Carlisle to ask who the mystery woman is.

"Who is this woman, if you don't mind me asking?" Carlisle asked.

"I don't mind at all actually but I think that she would rather it be a surprise,"

"Yes that makes sense,"

"Is there anything else?"

"No, we will see you tomorrow,"

"Tomorrow then," The phone clicked off and Alice came rushing into the room.

"So you found her then?" She sounded…relieved?

"Found who," I turned.

"Bella silly, I know you two have been looking for her," she said while floating down onto a chair.

"No we haven't yet, why did you think we did?" Her face scrunched up in confusion.

"Are we going to visit the wolves tomorrow then?" she asked.

"No, actually we're going to visit the Volturi,"

"Why!?" she shrilled. "I thought we were done with them,"

"It seems like they want us to meet a new member of the guard," Carlisle filled her in.

"A new member? Well I can't see anything…who is this new vampire?"

"We don't know," "Edward said.

"Well I was sure you two found Bella, the darkness was just like hers,"

"What do you mean just like hers?"

"Wellllll, when Bella was with us, I couldn't see anything but a bluish purplish darkness and now I see the same exact thing, that's why I thought you two had figured out where she was,"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I am, is the new member a woman?" she asked.

"Yes she is," Then it all fell into place; Bella had been awakened by the Volturi and now she has joined the guard.

Okay so the wait is finally over but how will Jasper react when he sees Bella? And will Aro tell Bella of their visit? I'll post this week. REVIEW PLEASE! Thanks guys! :)