Hey guys: Sorry for a very late update. I just finish with all my finals and I am finally on a much needed break. I hopefully will try to update more often. And after the three day trip to Miami on thanksgiving I didnt feel like doing much of anything when I got back. And reccently with Britney Murphey dying was sad. She was one of my favorite actress. Why is there so many people from hollywood dying? It's such a tradegy. Anyways show me some love and press the green button and review ya'll. Please review it will give me the incentive to continue on with this story.
Leah's POV:
(thirty minutes later) (Sam is not in the room)
"Marissa I don't hate you." I said to her. "I am mad at you. I am mad at you for sleeping with my boyfriend. Trust me Marissa, I am pissed off about that. I don't blame you for telling my mom. I know you wouldn't go tell my mother on purpose. I know you wouldn't start those rumors about me on purpose. I know you didn't go to the papers about me. I don't hate you for anything. Not even for sleeping with my man." I said trying to reassure Marissa. She was begging me, in tears saying that she was sorry she ever told my mother that I was pregnant. She was convinced that I hate her. I should hate her for what she has done to me. But unfortunately, I don't, no matter how much I am pissed off at her for sleeping with my man. I just cant find it in my heart to hate her for it. I just cant hate her. That's what sucks ass.
She nodded relieved, that I don't blame her for telling my mother that I was pregnant.
"I hate this, Marissa." I said to her. "I hate that it has to come to the point that I cant trust you like I once did. I hate that I have to rethink everything. I just hate that I don't know what to do. Even though I don't hate you, I wish I could. I wish I can let myself hate you. It would be easier that way. It would be easier not to care about you."
"I am so sorry. I am really sorry. I know I said it all. But I need to say it again. I didn't mean to betray you like that. I didn't mean to sleep with him. I was a mistake. I was stupid. I messed up." Marissa said. "I regret everything I ever done. I regret it all. I want to take it all back. I would take everything back if I could."
" Yeah me too. I would want that so much. I don't want us to be mad at each other. I don't want us to be all enemies. I don't want it to be awkward between us. I don't want us to grow apart. I don't want us to not talk like we used too. I just hope we can work things out. I want to be friends someday in the future. I really do. But right now, I don't know if I can really trust you. We have a lot to work on."
"I know." Marissa said. "I know."
"You need to go home." Cameron said interrupting us. "I miss you."
"Cam." I begged. "Don't say that. Please don't say stuff like that. We are taking a break remember? I need time to think about us. I need time to think about our relationship. I told you we are not officially breaking up."
"I know. I don't mean to do this. You know I don't want to rush things. It's the last thing I want. I just really miss you, Leah. I want you home. You need us, just like we need you." he said. "And I want to thank you for still letting me still be in our baby's life."
"Cam, what do you think I would do? Deny this child of a father? You know I lost my father by a murderer. Regardless of what happens to us, I will always want you to be around for this kid. I don't want our baby, to be deprived of both parents. I love you Cameron. I do. This is why we need to take a break and rethink us. We need to make the right decisions for us and the baby."
"I know. And like I said I don't want to rush you." Cameron said. "I want you home regardless. I don't want you to be away from me. We are having a baby in about eight and a half months. We need to be together. I want to be able to be there for you and the baby."
I agreed with him. I do need to go home. I want to go home.
"We need you back." Jake said agreeing. "I miss you. We miss you. It just wasn't right without you there."
"Yea. screw this place You need to pack your bags and go back to where you belong. I know we are not exactly besties right now. I know things are messed up between us right now. But at home we can work out our problems. We can set it all out on the table. The distance will only draw us farther." Marissa said. "I don't want that. I don't want to draw farther and farther from you."
"I don't want that either." I said to her. "But it will take a while to fix us again. It will take me a while for me to trust you."
"Whatever it takes." Marissa said. "I promise to never sleep with your boyfriends ever again. Only man that is not taken by you." she pledged.
I knew she mean it. Three years of being her best friend, I know when she is being sincere and or not.
"I know you will, Marissa. Why cant you commit? Why cant you go for a real serious relationship." I asked.
"I need to tell you something. I tried after the long term boyfriend in Puerto Rico. It didn't work out. All the guys I slept with, I didn't had any feelings for them. I still love him. I lost the guy who loved me for me. He loved me for who I am. I never had to pretend around him. I never had to be anyone else but myself around him I lost the guy who lost all his respect for me. He was the most amazing guy in the universe, and I drove him away. I never wanted to be in love after him. I felt that if I slept with pointless guys, I knew I would of never get burned again. I was wrong. It burned me in a different way. It burned me in all different ways. One of which I could of lost my friend."
"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked. "Why didn't you ever tell me?"
"It hurts. It hurts living a life with a heavy heart. It sucks going my day to day life, knowing that I still love him. It hurts knowing that I have to live a day without him. I thought I was immune to the pain of not having him. No matter how many joints I smoke, how drunk I get, or how many guys I fuck, it will never go away." Marissa cried. "The hurt and the pain will always be there. It wont go away."
I wrap my arms around her.
"It's going to be okay." I whispered. "It's going to be okay."
"I thought it would hurt less with time." she said continuing. "It doesn't really hurt any less. It hurts still the same."
"Marissa, your strong. You are the strongest person I know." I said. "You got through the shit that life throws at you. You been through the toughest shit of your live and survived."
"I know." Marissa said wiping her tears. "I don't want to talk about this anymore."
"Okay." I said not pushing her. "You don't have too."
Bella came up to me and took my hands. "I want you back in LA. You belong there. You belong on the stage. Music is your life and soul. Your calling is music. You're a natural up on that stage. The last six days really sucked without you. I really missed you."
I nodded. I agree with them. "I missed you too. I want to go home. I made up my mind the minute I got here. I am going home to you guys. I don't care what happens. I know it would cause a media frenzy. But who cares. I need LA. I miss LA air. I miss the crowds of people when I am walking down the street. I miss the beaches there. I miss the premier parties. I miss fans stopping me for an autograph. I miss shopping at Melrose avenue. I miss ever single fantastic thing about the city of Los Angeles. And most of all I miss my crew. I miss every single one of you guys. I miss clubbing at LA."
"It's good to have you back." Jake said squeezing me in a beer hug.
"I miss this too." I said. "Jake, I cant breath."
"Sorry." he said. "I got a little to excited."
"I know." I said. "I miss you too Jake bear." I said affectionately to the guy who is like a brother to me. It made me Seth. I wonder how he is doing.
"My little sis is back." Jake said. "I have everything I ever wanted."
"Aw, Jake." I moaned. "Your making me cry."
"It's the hormones." Jake said.
"Hormones huh?" I teased. "If this is hormones, you don't want to be near me when I am eight months along."
"Remind me to stay away from you than." Jake teased back.
"And here I thought you missed me." I shot back.
Jake chuckled and punched me in the shoulder.
Just than the Dr poked his head in the room.
"Am I ready to go?" I asked him. "Do I get to leave soon?"
"Yes. You seem to be in stable condition. But I need to talk to you about a few things." he said.
"Oh boy." I heard Bella muttered.
"It would be just like last time." Cameron groaned.
"What happened last time?" Marissa asked.
"Yeah, what happened last time?" Edward added.
"You don't want to know." Jake said.
"It was bad." Bella told her boyfriend. "Let's just say, She threw a fit when she heard her results."
"Sir." Jake said. "I will have to warn you. If for some reason you are to say something about her results, be forewarn that if she get pissed off she might throw a fit or a tantrum. And that Dr was lucky he survived."
"Yup." Bella agreed. If words and looks alone could kill that Dr would have been dead."
"I didn't throw a fit last time." I protested.
"Yeah, you did." Jake said.
"I actually felt sorry for the Dr" Bella said.
"The Dr was an idiot. He was against me." I said.
"So Doc, try not to piss her off. If she gets piss off bombs might go off."
"Warning noted." the Dr said dryly. "Let me formally introduce myself. I am Dr. Levi. You are in good stable condition right now. That is a good thing. The baby's doing fine. The baby is developing normally. But we have some concerns. They are major concerns regarding the rest of your pregnancy. I know you are a month half along, but the next few months are very crucial in a baby's development. We have concluded from tests, that you have a history of drugs and alcohol. I know you are only a month and half pregnant. But during the pregnancy you shouldn't be doing drugs or smoke. Alcohol is okay at a minimum. But no hard liquor. I don't advise you to drink because you are a minor, Hailey." he said. "Do you understand? You shouldn't be drinking. I think it's time you take care of yourself and the baby."
I was quiet for a minute. Everyone was assessing my reaction. "Let's get something's straight. Let me introduce myself formally. My name is Leah Clearwater. I know I said it was Hailey Summers. Truth is it's not going to matter much. I am going back to LA. I am leaving this god forbidden place." I said calmly. "You can blab it to anyone one you want. You can even go to the media if you want. You probably have your thirty second of fame. But it will be because of me. My baby is going to be okay. I rarely smoke. I will gladly stop getting high. I will continue to drink. Moderately of course, since I am pregnant. Pregnant woman drink all the time. Those babies turn out okay. And please don't lecture me about being a minor. I don't need you to tell me what to do and what not to do."
"I don't much about a Leah Clearwater. I don't know who she is." Dr Levi said.
"Your kidding me." I said staring at the Dr with my mouth opened wide. "You don't know who I am?"
Is he joking? The Dr looked fairly young. He looked about twenty six. Surely he should know who I am.
"No I am afraid not, Miss Summers." he said.
"It's Leah." I said. "I am not Hailey. How can you not know who I am? I am the hottest music star of the year. I am like Hollywood's A list right now. Well not so much now, with the scandals and all that. But I am like a celebrity. How can you not know who I am. Anyone under the age of thirty knows who I am."
"I work a lot I guess." Dr. Levi said. "I don't got a lot of time for entertainment."
"No shit." I muttered.
"Miss, I want you to take care of the baby." the Dr said.
"I will." I said. "I will take care of my kid." I said. "You don't have to worry about it."
"I worry about how you take care of yourself. I worry that if you don't take care of yourself, you and your baby wont make it. You are destroying yourself."
Bella jumped in. "Listen, Dr." she said. "I admit she makes bad choices. She is human. But she can take care of herself and the baby. I will monitor her drinks. I will make sure she drinks moderately. As for the drugs and smoking it's no problem. She really doesn't like doing those things. We can take care of her."
"Yeah." Jake said. "We love her. We will help her. A few drinks here and there as long as she don't do drugs or smoke wont harm the baby. And we will make sure she gets all the right nutrients.
Just than Miranda, Leo, Amanda and Sam went inside the room.
"Hi, how are you doing Hailey?" Miranda asked me.
"I'm okay." I said. "I am fine. Listen it's not Hailey anymore. It's Leah. I am going home after this. I am leaving today."
Surprisingly it was hard to say goodbye.
"What?" Miranda asked shell shocked.
"Miranda, Leo. I am thank you for opening up a home for me. I know I am suppose to stay much longer than this. I want thank you for providing me with everything I need. I am really grateful for everything your family has done for me. Amanda, thank you for being there for me as I was going through the pregnancy test. Thank you for your support. And Sam I am sorry, for making you not have a partner for the class project. I am sorry, I wasn't planning this to happen." I said.
"I am going to miss you." Miranda said reaching towards me giving me a hug.
She would miss me?
"I am going to miss you too." I said. "It's true. I would miss her a little. She was a truly good woman. "I am going to miss you guys."
"Leah?" Amanda asked.
"What?"
"Can I have you phone number?" she asked. "So I can call you. So I can ask how the baby's doing."
"Oh." I said. "I don't know."
"Oh." Amanda said her face crest fallen.
I felt bad. I truly do. But I am not sure I want to give my number away. I keep it restricted to certain people. I cant have strange people making calls to me. And Amanda is included.
"I have a fan website. You can email me if you want. I have someone who reads all my fan mails for me. She usually tells me what kind of stuff that people write. I will tell them to keep a look out for Amanda Uley's email. We can keep contact there. And I will even personally respond to yours. I never respond back to any of the fan mails."
"Yeah I guess." Amanda said.
Sam wouldn't look at me.
"Sam." I said. "I am sorry for bailing out like this with the project. Looks like you would have to find another partner for it. The teacher would understand."
"Yeah." he said still not looking at me.
Why was he like that? I wondered. But than again, Sam is a mystery.
"So when can I go?" I asked the Dr Levi.
"Soon." he said. "After we finished with the paper works we can discharge you from the hospital, Hailey."
"It's Leah." I said. "My name is Leah. I mean how hard is it to remember my name?"
"Right." the Dr said.
*********** (Please don't hate me for making Leah leave. But don't worry, something else will cause her to come back. Something will happen later on. It is something big. It is someone who will threaten her life- *hint hint* So please don't hate me. Please bare with me in my story. Originally in the story, I wanted her to stay and not go back at all. But I had a new idea now. So stick with me here. And queston Do you want Cameron and Leah to end things? Or do you want her to come crawling back to him temprorily. Dont worry Sam and Leah will have a chance. She likes him she just dosent know it yet.)
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